Monday, May 18, 2009

The End

It is 2:00am and in three hours I will be leaving to head to the airport and make my way to the United States, leaving Chile and the life that I had led for the past 2 1/2 years.  This, of course, means the last blog post and the end of Michelle's South American Adventures.

Funny to think that if I would have stayed in South America this entire time (I went back to the US twice, once for a week and once for three weeks), today would have been my 1000th day in South America.  Instead, it is my 960th and last day.

This week has been so incredibly busy and exhausting, as my goodbye is not only my personal goodbye but the end of the Holy Cross Associates program.  Regardless, this time has allowed me to realize how much I truly love my life here and how much it will be missed.  As expected, the goodbyes with the orphanage kids was the hardest task of the week and leaving John and Brian here will no doubt be difficult as well.

I am so incredibly blessed for the experience that I have had here over the last few years, both good and bad.  It has been truly life altering and I cannot imagine the person I would be without this experience.  As I leave, I know that this experience has soaked into my bones and Chile will always run through my blood.  It is a large part of who I am now and who I will always be.

Thank you to all my friends and family here in Chile for your kindness, friendship, and generous spirit.  Thank you to my friends and family in the US for your love and support while I went on this crazy journey.  

Until the next adventure,

Michelle

Gracias a la vida, que me ha dado tanto...
Chi Chi Chi! Le Le Le!  Viva Chile!!!

Monday, May 11, 2009

The last week

I have this nervous/anxious/amazed/sad/excited feeling in the pit of my stomach.  This morning I woke up and I thought "wow, it is actually here."  One week from today I will be permanently leaving after almost three years in South America.  I simply cannot believe it.  It seems like just a month ago I was on the roof of my apartment building in Cochabamba, Bolivia looking out over the city, enjoying a beautiful sunset against the mountains, and journaling about how my life might possibly play out during the next two years. That time has passed and then some.  All I can say is wow and, while the life I live now did not exactly turn out as expected, that I would not exchange this experience for anything else in the world.

As I have seen and heard, the last week for any volunteer is a difficult one.  It is full of goodbyes, last visits, and finding time to get your life in order and bags packed before the scheduled departure date.  It is even more difficult in Chile, where social custom is not a final goodbye, but more of a "see you when you return" kinda thing.  As I discussed with my spiritual director last week, while US custom generally acknowledges that one may not see the other again and that seeing the other person again is an act of fate, thus saying goodbye accordingly, such understanding does not exist in Chile.  As a result, when Chileans ask if you will return to visit them, you must show the desire to do so with the answer "Si Dios Quiere" or "Ojalá" (If God wants/God willing.)    No doubt the last few weeks I have said those phrases often, knowing that unless work brings me back here, I will not be returning in the future.

So, as all volunteer last weeks go, mine will follow the same format as shown below (last week was just as crazy.)  I look forward to all these events and the people I will share them with, while looking forward to the next step in life, knowing I am on the right path and that this path would have never been discovered without my time here.

Monday
Noon: meeting with Father Erwin to speak to the owners of Los Buenos Muchachos, where I will have my final going away party on Friday
2:30pm: meeting with both Directors of the International Student Program (exchange program I created for two high schools in Santiago)
5:00pm: tea with Consuelo
7:00pm: onces and playing cards with Marta and Cecilia

Tuesday
10:00am: Skype meeting with Juilieta to discuss Saint George book (another project I started, haha)
After: confirming final details for Friday's party with restaurant
2:15pm: meeting with Director of International Student Program at Saint George's
5:00pm: Saint George's College (one of the high schools I work at) goodbye party from the English department
9:00pm: dinner at Jacinda's

Wednesday
10:30am: go to the feria (fruit/vegetable market) for the last time :-(
noon: meeting with both directors of exchange programs and the travel agency
After: meeting with Villa Maria Academy's director of the exchange program
After: errands around Santiago
7:00pm:  mass at Parroquia San Roque (local parish where I used to live, with 20 or so Señoras coming to say goodbye.  At request of the priest, I will be conducting the homily (eek!) reflecting on my experiences and connecting it with the reading of the day.)
After: last community night with Brian and John :-( 

Thursday
Morning: packing
2:00pm-5:00ish: lunch and playing cards with good friends Michelle and Jenny
6:00pm: Onces (tea, bread, conversation) at Señora Sara's house with her granddaughter Amanda
After: slumber party with John and Brian (haha, inside joke thing)

Friday
At Saint George the whole day, saying my goodbyes to good friends, having lunch, etc.  I think I want to go and get one more very cheap pedicure after, we will see...
4:00pm: Sarah, Vicho, Tasi, and many others arrive from out of town
8:00pm-4:00am (maybe later...):  PARTY!!  Goodbye party with about 40 people at local restaurant Los Buenos Muchachos, where Chilean food is great and comes with a 2 hour show of traditional Chilean dances

Saturday
Recouperation from the night before, finding time to pack
5:00pm: leave Santiago and go to Telegante to spend the night with the orphanage kids

Sunday 
Have breakfast with the hogar kids, say my very difficult goodbyes
After: spend time with Sarah, Brian, and John while packing

Monday
5:30am: arrive at Santiago airport for 7:30am flight back to the U.S.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

A Day in the Life of Michelle in Chile - Sundays

Hi all, here is a two part short (and low budget) movie to show you my adventures in visiting the orphanage kids in the countryside each Sunday.  Enjoy!



Friday, May 01, 2009

Adventures in Talca

Well, today is May 1st and that marks exactly 17 days until I am headed back to the US permanently. Time is simply flying by and I still have much to do on my to-do list, such as places to see, foods to eat. etc. Yet, as the days get colder and winter creeps in, I am glad knowing that nice weather awaits me in just a few weeks.

Work itself is a bit mundane, as the transitioning of all of my projects to new coordinators is coming to an end. As a result, I find myself with time to complete the things on my to-do list, although I seem to keep adding things to the list every day. I also find myself with time to visit people, which is nice. The best is that I am spending more time at the orphanage, playing with the kids, although each time I attempt to leave the kids there are always a few tears from some that are worried I will not come back before I leave for good, despite my assurances that this will not be the case. Last Sunday, I realized that departing from them will by far be one of the hardest things about leaving my life here.

Today is the feriado, or federal holiday, of Labor Day. As happens in the United States, no one works and everyone travels. A few days ago I decided to spend the long weekend visiting my very good friend Sarah who is a Maryknoll volunteer in Talca, about three hours south of Santiago. Last night, after spending the day visiting Señora Sara and her granddaughter Amanda for Amanda's 7th birthday, I made the trip to the bus terminal to buy a ticket and make my way to Talca. Silly me, I forgot that it is usually wise to buy a bus ticket ahead of time on holiday weekends; the terminal was packed and I found myself squeezing through people and fighting my way to the front of the line (line etiquette does not exist in Santiago and it is a survival of the fittest thing.) For those that knew me when I first arrived in Santiago, and how the large city overwhelmed and scared me a bit, they would be amazed at how I managed everything so calmly last night - in fact, it was really just second nature. Anyway, long story short, I was told there were not any buses for the night at the company I wanted and ended up walking around the terminal talking to every bus company, finding out they too were sold out of tickets to Talca for the night. As luck (or God) would have it, I heard a man telling a salesperson that he did not want his ticket to Talca for the night and that he wanted a refund. Needless to say, I jumped at the opportunity and found myself with a ticket for a bus two hours later. Sitting against the wall of the terminal, waiting for the two hours to pass, I thought to myself how much I had changed in the last 2 1/2 years and how comfortable and ready I feel about moving to New York City, which is great.

Arriving late last night, Sarah and I talked and walked to the corner for some late night food (love random corner food stands in the countryside!) This morning, we had a very adventurous day, walking three hours to and up the local "mountain/large hill" of the town, where a huge statue of the Virgin Mary looks down on the city with a fantastic view. After, we headed into town and ate at the restaurant "Las Viejas Cochinas," (The Dirty Old Women, haha.) Las Viejas Cochinas is a must-stop for anyone who comes to Talca. For a whole 10 dollars a piece, we had more food than Sara and I have both eaten in long time, including a liter pitcher of Ponche (white wine, sugar, and fresh strawberries), a huge steaming clay bowl of 20 clams and mussles along with a half of broiled chicken and broth, and a huge portion (that we could not finish) of bread and sopaipillas (fried squash bread) with a delicious tomato, garlic, salt, and oil salsa. Needless to say, we felt pretty good leaving (in large part due to the ponche) and were happy about the two hour walk back home.

And so, I am hanging out here until Sunday morning, when I will return to Santiago and travel directly to the orphanage to spend the day with the kids. Monday I will have my last spiritual direction and will continue to work on my to-do list throughout the week, stopping by the various schools I work at to get some things done and have a few meetings. On Friday, the priests and brothers of Holy Cross will be having a goodbye dinner for me, which I am very much looking forward to. They have been a large part of my experience here and have always been so supportive of all that I have done.

One of the things on my to-do list is to make various videos of my life here. It is not exactly top priority, but I am hoping I get to them sometime before I leave. If I do, I will certainly post them on the blog - stay tuned!

Until next time,

- M

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Details Confirmed

Alright everyone, it's official - my ticket back to the US *permanently* has been bought! Here are the details:

Monday 18May Avianca Air Lines
Flight 98 Santiago 07:25am- Bogota 12:25pm
Flight 8 Bogota 06:15pm- Miami 10:55pm

Tuesday 19May Delta Air Lines
Flight 1982 Miami 05:45am- Atlanta 07:39am
Flight 1639 Atlanta 10:55am- Kansas City 12:13pm

Until this date it will be lots of good times and some tears. I have had a hard time coming to terms with leaving Chile for good...this is my life here. My identity. It is hard for me to remember life when I didn't live outside of the US. But, while I definitely do not want to leave, I ready knowing this is the next step in life and comforted by all those that support me, both here in Chile and in the United States.

Please keep my gpa and gma in your prayers.

:-) M

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The Beginning of the End

Well, it has been a while since I have posted on the blog. Nothing much has happened since I returned from my Peru trip late February.

School has started again and every day the weather gets a bit more like Fall. I spend my time at school three days a week, assisting the school in the transition of the exchange program I created to the newly hired director and making a little bit of money by being a personal assistant to the principal of the school. Other than that, I am continuing to visit people and their houses and spend time with my housemates.

Every day, too, I am reminded more and more how little time I have here. After 2 years in Chile and 2 ½ years total in South America, I have just two more months until I return to the United States permanently. Early March I was notified that I was accepted to graduate programs in nonprofit management at both Indiana University and New York University. My mind is pretty set on going to New York, but financial aid will confirm my decision soon. Either way, my mind is torn between enjoying the remaining amount of time I have here and excitedly looking forward to the adventures that lay ahead.

Now that I do not have the GREs to study for, graduate program applications to fill out, or preparation for the exchange program to coordinate, I have a bit of free time. The result is the following movie I created about my trip to Peru and the north of Chile. Enjoy!

Unfortunately to place the video on this blog, I had to put it on youtube, which made me split it into 3 parts.  After placing it online, I was notified the song I used for the first part was not authorized and was deleted...so the first part does not have music now.  It is a 1930s jazz song if you want to try to imagine it in your head, haha






Sunday, February 15, 2009

Hello all! Will update soon!

Hello everyone, hope that you had a great Valentines Day :-)

I have left the cold rainy weather of Peru and headed to the north of Chile - this morning I arrived in Arica, Chile after a 17 hour bus ride from Cusco. It is so very nice to be in the summer - and dry - sun again. I spent the entire day just relaxing at the beach! Tomorrow I will be renting a bike for a mere 10 dollars and exploring the city of Arica a bit more, including some nearby archeological sites and viewings of sea lions.

Many of you know the details of my adventures through email, but I will be sure to post more here and all of the photos when I get back to Santiago (and free and faster internet!!) Until then, hope everyone is well and that the first few months of 2009 have started wonderfully!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Michelle's Adventures, plain and simple

After a month in Kansas City visiting family for the holidays, I returned to Santiago, Chile to begin two months of non-stop travel.  On January 18, sixteen 17 year old girls and I traveled to Washington, DC for the International Student Program.  

It was pure coincidence that this year's trip was scheduled for the same week as the Presidential Inauguration.  Yet, it was an amazing honor to be witness to the ceremony and once-in-a-lifetime event.  Despite battling the enormous crowds, we survived.

This morning I returned from Washington, DC after a 11 hour flight.  Tomorrow morning (rather, in about 2 hours of this posting), I am going to fly to the north of Chile then backpack my way through Peru (Machu Picchu here i come!!) and Bolivia (Cochabama and host family here I come!) until the end of February.  I am quite excited about this journey.

I hope to write more when I return, as well as post some great videos.  Who knows where life will take us...for now, it is off to bed.


 

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Michelle's "North American" Adventures

Although I do plan to provide a post reflecting on various observations about life in the US after being away for over a year and my struggle to hop between Chile and US life, I post the following as a simple update to what I have been up to for the last month.

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After taking the GRE on December 1st, life was simply a whirlwind. The test went well and the next day I began planning for my birthday party that Friday. The party was a success (thanks in large part to my roommates),with a full spread dinner and patio party dancing the night away under the stars with 30 of my closest friends in Chile. Lots of fun.

Soon after my birthday I began one crazy week of finalizing last minute details for the exchange program I coordinate, trying to fulfill the numerous invitations for lunch or dinner from Chilean friends and families, saying goodbye to American friends who were returning to the States, and preparing for my own trip back to the United States for the holidays. I never thought I would get around to packing, but was able to finish the morning before I left for the States.

I arrived in the United States on December 15. My mom, my brother, and my sister picked me up at the airport - little did I know (and according to the luck of my life), I was arriving on the COLDEST day of the year: 2 degrees with a wind chill of minus 10. After having been at the beach only days before, my body was in shock and I couldn't get to the car fast enough. :-)

My days here have been spent eating, relaxing with family, eating, making occassional shopping trips and visits to the American Legion, and eating. Oh wait, did I mention eating?? I love food and there is certainly no shortage of food in my US life - and great food (especially mom's homecookin), although sometimes not healthy and sometimes (okay...always) coming in large porportions. In fact, despite my best efforts, I have gained around 9 pounds in my last 12 days in the US!

I have had lots of fun too with my 19 year old brother. For some reason, we seem to have a desire to act like we are kids again, playing tag and having tickle wars; one afternoon, we even went sledding along with his best friend Katie! (video below)

The day before Christmas Eve, my sister, her two children and husband, and I went to my father's house for lunch. It was extra special, as it was the first time that I was able to meet my new nephew Dawson who was born in early November. It was also the first time I played with the new Wii game system, a bunch of fun.

Christmas Eve was spent with as it always is, with cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents at my grandparents' house (picture of grandkids and grandparents at right.) I spent most of the time with my new nephew Dawson and cannot wait until I spend the weekend at my sister's house, spending more quality time with my neice and nephew.


Christmas Day was spent at home, eating and opening gifts. That evenig my best friend Brian came over and we went booze crusin' around the country side. Nope, depsite the distance and time apart, nothing has changed. I am so very thankful for this.

As stated earlier, I will post something later with various observations (some insightful and some downright funny) regarding my experience and my brain's attempt to hop between US and Chile life. Until then, I will continue to live life in this small town, hanging out with family and good friends, filling out graduate school applications that are due on January 15th whenever I can.

It is nice to be back in the US but I do miss my Chilean life dearly... it is sad knowing I will be going through all of this again when I permanently say goodbye to my Chile life next May. Sin embargo, saludos a todos mis amigos en Chile, les echo de menos y nos vemos pronto.

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

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Just wanted to say hello to everyone, and yes, I am still alive. :-)   I will not be posting anything new on this blog until after I take my GRE exam on December 1 (including the awesome iMovie I just created about the Obama election in Chile.) Wish me luck!

One AMAZING thing worth noting: I am an aunt again!! My sister gave birth to her second baby a little more than a week ago! Dawson Walter Drummond was born at 1:06 am on 11/7/08 and weighed 8lbs. 8oz., 20 1/2 inches long.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Obama victory sparks cheers around the globe

As a demonstration of my last post, I post the following story. The funny thing is, I can say the EXACT same thing for Chileans. Everyone is congratulating me and there is a renewed sense of appreciation for Americans and what we are doing in the world. And while this article demonstrates that we cannot please everyone, I can certainly say from here in Chile I no longer feel hated for my country's politics.


Obama victory sparks cheers around the globe
By JOHN LEICESTER, Associated Press

PARIS – Barack Obama's election as America's first black president unleashed a global tide of admiration, hopes for change and even renewed love for the United States on Wednesday.

The president of Kenya declared a public holiday in Obama's honor, and people across Africa stayed up all night or woke before dawn to watch U.S. election history being made.

In Indonesia, where Obama lived as child, hundreds of students at his former elementary school erupted in cheers when he was declared winner and poured into the courtyard where they hugged each other, danced in the rain and chanted "Obama! Obama!"

"Your victory has demonstrated that no person anywhere in the world should not dare to dream of wanting to change the world for a better place," South Africa's first black president, Nelson Mandela, said in a letter of congratulations to Obama.

Rama Yade, France's black junior minister for human rights, told French radio: "On this morning, we all want to be American so we can take a bite of this dream unfolding before our eyes."

Many expressed amazement and satisfaction that the United States could overcome centuries of racial strife and elect an African-American — and one with Hussein as a middle name — as president.

"What an inspiration. He is the first truly global U.S. president the world has ever had," said Pracha Kanjananont, a 29-year-old Thai sitting at a Starbuck's in Bangkok. "He had Asian and American childhoods, African parentage and has a Middle Eastern name. He is a truly global president."

In an interconnected world where people in its farthest reaches could monitor the presidential race blow-by-blow, many observers echoed Obama's own campaign mantra as they struggled to put into words their sense that his election marked an important turning point.

"I really think this is going to change the world," gushed Akihiko Mukohama, 34, the lead singer of a band that traveled to Obama, Japan, to perform at a promotional event for the president-elect. He wore an "I Love Obama" T-shirt.

The magnitude and emotion of the world reaction illustrated the international character of the U.S. presidency. Many look to Washington as the place where the global issues of war and peace, prosperity or crisis, are decided.

"This is an enormous outcome for all of us," said John Wood, the former New Zealand ambassador to the U.S. "We have to hope and pray that President Obama can move forward in ways which are constructive and beneficial to all of us."

The Vatican said Wednesday it hoped Obama will work to promote peace and justice in the world.

Hopes were also high among those critical of President Bush's policies that an Obama victory would bring in a more inclusive, internationally cooperative U.S. approach. Many cited the Iraq war as the type of blunder Obama was unlikely to repeat.

Indeed, even as they raised expectations, many U.S.-watchers were quick to point out that Obama would have to confront enormous problems once in office: wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, tenacious difficulties in the Middle East and North Korea, a world economy in turmoil.

Europe, where Obama is overwhelmingly popular, is one region that looked eagerly to an Obama administration for a revival in warm relations after the Bush government's chilly rift with the continent over the Iraq war.

"At a time when we have to confront immense challenges together, your election raises great hopes in France, in Europe and in the rest of the world," French President Nicolas Sarkozy said in a congratulations letter to Obama.

Some South Koreans said they hoped Obama — who has said he favors direct engagement with North Korea — would press North Korean leader Kim Jong Il on human rights issues and the alleged kidnappings of hundreds of South Koreans.

Skepticism, however, was high in the Muslim world. The Bush administration alienated those in the Middle East by mistreating prisoners at its detention center for terrorism suspects at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, and inmates at Iraq's Abu Ghraib prison — human rights violations also condemned worldwide.

Some Iraqis, who have suffered through five years of a war ignited by the United States and its allies, said they would believe positive change when they saw it.

"Obama's victory will do nothing for the Iraqi issue nor for the Palestinian issue," said Muneer Jamal, a Baghdad resident. "I think all the promises Obama made during the campaign will remain mere promises."

In Pakistan, a country vital to the U.S.-led war on the al-Qaida terrorist network and neighbor to Afghanistan, many hoped Obama would bring some respite from rising militant violence that many blame on Bush.

Still, Mohammed Arshad, a 28-year-old schoolteacher in the capital, Islamabad, doubted Obama's ability to change U.S. foreign policy dramatically.

"It is true that Bush gave America a very bad name. He has become a symbol of hate. But I don't think the change of face will suddenly make any big difference," he said.

Still, many around the world found Obama's international roots — his father was Kenyan, and he lived four years in Indonesia as a child — compelling and attractive.

Kenya's President Mwai Kibaki declared a public holiday on Thursday in honor of Obama's election victory, and people across Africa stayed up all night or woke before dawn Wednesday to watch the U.S. election results roll in.

"He's in!" said Rachel Ndimu, 23, a business student who joined hundreds of others at the residence of the U.S. ambassador in Nairobi. "I think this is awesome, and the whole world is backing him."

In Jakarta, hundreds of students at his former elementary school gathered around a television set to watch as results came in, erupting in cheers when he was declared winner and then pouring into the courtyard where they hugged each other and danced in the rain.

"We're so proud!" Alsya Nadin, a spunky 10-year-old in pink-framed glasses, said as her classmates chanted "Obama! Obama!"

Friday, October 24, 2008

Yes, We Can

I can’t fully explain how many thousands of times I have resisted the urge to post something about politics on this blog. The reason for choosing not to do so stems from the fact that the blog is about my life in South America, thus the title “Michelle’s South American Adventures.” It is not titled “Whatever Michelle Feels Like Ranting About Today.”

Yet about a week ago I posted two videos of Senator Barack Obama, United States of America Presidential Candidate for the Democratic Party. For those who have kept in touch with me throughout the last two years I have been in South America, it is no secret that I have voted for Senator Obama with my absentee ballot. While there are many policy reasons as to why I voted for Senator Obama instead of Senator John McCain or any other candidate, other reasons relate to my experience as an international volunteer. These two videos demonstrate such reasons.

A few points worth explaining a bit further:

My experience, if anything, has taught me that we are all one global community. Every person’s individual actions impact the life of every other person on the planet (the recent economic crisis in the U.S. and its impact on the world is one such example.) In the United States, we often forget this and live as if we are on an island (and the media encourages it.) I laugh when I remember that as a middle schooler I actually supported such an isolationist point of view. Today, however, as an educated adult, I understand that we cannot continue to live as such. We cannot continue to live as if we are on an island, living as if our daily actions and the actions of our government do not affect the rest of the world. Not only do we live beyond our means both economically and environmentally, but we consistently support policies that provide short-term rather than long-term benefits, thus hurting ourselves and everyone else in the process. Even more, our isolationist reputation has inhibited us from enacting some true good in the world. There is only one person that is running for President of the United States that has consistently portrayed the message of a global community and can significantly change the reputation of the United States, knowing this is not only for the good for all Americans, but for the good of the world. Senator Barack Obama.

My experience has also taught me that education is key to the success of any one person and to any one nation. Political Science majors know that a country’s duration of strength and power have consistently been linked to the quality of education its citizens receive. The education system is the key to the future of our country and to the progression of our world. There is only one Presidential candidate that promotes education reform in a way that allows all children, regardless of the background they have no control over, to have the best education possible. Senator Barack Obama.

One last thing I want to mention here is that my experience has taught me the power of people and their role in the government, particularly in determining their own quality of life. For citizens of the United States, this is often a very hard concept to grasp. Our local, state, and national governments are typically left to their own devices, in which the citizen feels its only power to change the government rests in the electoral process. Granted, the electoral process is by far the most effective way for the government to listen to its people. I have learned here, however, that it is not only in election time, or when a certain policy affects us personally, that we should keep our government accountable. The Chilean and Bolivian people have a spirit about them that their government is truly their government, and every day the government must prove to the people they are listening. Even more, citizens must feel that their government represents all of its citizens. There is only one person that is running for President of the United States that believes in the power of the people, encouraging all to get involved and take ownership of our society, and leading by example, takes to heart that he is representing all of the people of the United States. Senator Barack Obama.

At the beginning of the campaigns of both Presidential nominees, I was truly torn who to vote for. I do not belong to any political party (I say both parties left moderates like me a long time ago, particularly after September 11, 2001.) A long time fan of Senator John McCain and his “maverick” reputation, stepping away from party for the good of the citizens of the United States, I had at once thought that I was going to vote for him to be President of the United States. I certainly was not going to vote for a senator that had only been in office the last two years, despite reading and agreeing with most of his book “The Audacity of Hope.” Yet, as my time in South America grew and I began to see more and more the effects of the United States on this continent, I realized I needed to truly consider both candidates, to be an educated voter. After researching all domestic and foreign policy positions of both candidates, I made my decision. My decision was reinforced when I started to realize Senator McCain simply does not have the ability nor the priorities to enact the type of change we need in order to promote world progress and quality of life for all.

I love my country and I very much look forward to the day in which I can say I am an American without having to be ashamed of my government and explain I do not agree with its policies. I look forward to the day in which I can say to a non-United States citizen, yes, Americans do care for you and your quality of life, and my president, President Barack Obama, understands that we both play a role in the world too. Yes We Can get the world we want and deserve, and it is only my hope that the United States feels the same when it votes on November 4.

Representing a bit of the points below, I have attached the videos for your consideration. Of particular interest is the bottom video, in which Senator Barack Obama speaks Spanish: the only candidate that has a campaign add in Spanish, speaking the language the majority of U.S. citizens will speak by 2020. It is clear that this candidate not only understands the importance of all citizens becoming involved in the electoral process, but the importance of one global community.




Monday, October 13, 2008

Over Before It Begins

As promised, below are pictures and stories about my amazing week celebrating Fiestas Patrias, Chile’s Independence Day. I had hoped to write something longer and more detailed, but it seems these days the day is over before it begins – every day is filled with a “to-do” list and writing on this blog never gets around to being crossed off.

Good news is that more and more the work that I have been swamped with these past few weeks is coming to an end. I am about done coordinating all the details for the exchange students and their upcoming trip/visit to the United States next January-March. This year the work was doubled, sometimes tripled, as I did what I always do and took on more work, coordinating the program at another local high school as well. In the end, everything worked out, but it definitely had its moments of stress…

Bad news is that while a large portion of my work is ending, whatever free time that provides is being filled with studying for the GRE and completing graduate school applications. As some of you know, I am applying to 6 different schools to study and receive a Masters in Non-Profit Management, with hopes this will lead to a life-long career of travel and little money being a consultant for international non-profit organizations. Studying for this test is going well and I am actually quite excited to take it at the end of November. The applications? Well, let’s just say I would rather be doing something else…

And so, that’s it – nothing else in life to write about. Pretty simple around here. Spring is here and every day gets more beautiful – I love that I am wearing skirts and flip flops almost every day and no longer have to sleep with my boyfriend at night. Also - I am excited thinking that in less than a month I will have a new niece or nephew AND in about two months I will be back to the U.S. for Christmas and New Year’s Eve!

Hope everyone is well, you are all always in my thoughts and prayers.

~ M

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Fiestas Patrias 2008

As I wrote last year, Fiestas Patrias is by far my most favorite time in Chile. Everyone is family and treats each other as such, and days are filled attending barbecues, cultural events, and dancing the night away.

The week started off wonderfully. Brian, John, and I took the orphanage kids I visit each week to fly kits at Bernardo O'Higgins Park, a "must-do" during the holidays. Sarah and I also received two elite invitations to go to President Bachelet's ecumenical ceremony at the National Cathedral. It was star sighting the entire time for a political nerd like me, as all the Ministers and government officials of the Chilean government were there. The highlight was being about 10 feet away from President Bachelet herself and getting lots of pictures...oh yeah, and the ceremony was good too, haha.

In the end though, Fiestas Patrias was truly celebrated this year with John, Brian, Sarah (one of my best friends who is a Maryknoll missioner here in Chile), our good friend Oliver, his family, and me. Oliver invited the four of us to celebrate the last four days of Fiestas Patrias with his family in San Felipe, a small town about an hour outside of Santiago. I said yes immediately, getting excited that I would not only celebrate the holiday in true Chilean style in the countryside, but I would return to a part of Chile I love and a location very close to where I used to live December 2006-March 2007.

The holiday certainly did not disappoint. Oliver’s family was amazing: all 20-25 of them! We ate traditional Chilean food, with the meat cooked outside in the adobe mud oven (picture left), and ate, and ate some more, then drank wine, pisco sours, and chicha. The family, who prides itself on its long standing tradition of everyone in the family being able to dance the Cueca, Chile’s national dance, pulled out the guitar and spent hours outside on the porch dancing the Cueca – teaching us “gringos” over and over again until we actually knew what we were doing. The most amazing thing was the guitar player was their 70-something year old Grandma who told John she had been playing guitar longer than he has been alive! (picture below and video at the bottom of this post of Oliver and his cousin dancing the Cueca)


Oliver's Grandma and Aunts singing traditional Chilean music

Me dancing the Cueca

The gang enjoying one of many Chilean meals in the countryside

After a night of dancing with the family at a local festival and my unique opportunity to ride a horse (which I embarrassingly fell off at some point, but my clumsy self got back on, haha), we “jovenes” (young people between the ages of 18-30) left the family and went and celebrated at a “fonda” (tent with music and dancing). We danced the entire night – not exaggerating when I say that we finally returned and went to sleep at 5:30am. We were shocked at this, but at the same time knew we actually returned early for Chileans, especially during Fiestas Patrias.

The next days were spent with the family and hiking around the beautiful countryside. I could not have asked for anything more and mentioned this to Oliver as we were getting back on the bus to go back to Santiago, stating I did not want to return to Santiago. Oliver summed it up perfectly when he responded: “Oh Michelle, I know but we have to return to reality."

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At my friend Oliver's Grandmother's house. Oliver and his cousin dance the Cueca while his Grandmother plays the guitar and his Aunts sing

Group shot and the beautiful scenery (Brian was taking the picture)

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Community

At the moment I am working on a post about the adventures in celebrating Fiestas Patrias, Chile's Independence Day.  Prior to hosting this however, I feel that two key people should be introduced: Brian Smith and John Power.

Brian and John arrived in late July as part of the Holy Cross Congregation's Overseas Lay Missions program (the links to their blogs are on the right.)  John and Brian will spend the next 18 months in Santiago, Chile, working at Nuestra Senora de Andacollo, a k-12 school owned by the Congregation (and the school where I teach English every Wednesday to 1st and 2nd graders.)  

Brian Smith is from Massillon, Ohio and graduated from the University of Notre Dame last May.  Brian studied Romance Languages and Literature, which is an incredibly fancy name for an incredibly fancy major - he spent four years reading literature in both Spanish and French, writing papers in the languages accordingly.  Thus, he is fluent in both languages.  His Chilean Spanish was further developed when he spent a semester in Santiago, Chile during college.  I was quite impressed with Brian right off the bat; on the first day he had a conversation with Chilean Father Erwin and not only understood everything Father Erwin said, but could coherently respond to Father Erwin in response.  This is important because Father Erwin has always been known for being quite difficult to understand, both by Chileans and Americans alike.  

Having Brian around has been refreshing - not only is he incredibly perceptive, recognizing all the beauty in the small details of life, but he provides for interesting conversations as well as a dictionary whenever a word in Spanish is unknown. :-)

John Power comes from Fox Island, Washington and graduated from the University of Portland this past May after studying Political Science, History, and French.  Just like Brian, he is fluent in French, not only because of his studies, but because he spent a year in high school and a semester in college in Paris through a study abroad program.  (His good times in Paris often provide for entertaining stories!)  John's laid back demeanor and easy going personality can be accredited to his upbringing on the west coast.  A self-proclaimed "big picture" person, John's strengths not only lie in his ability to see the world for what it truly is, but in his work ethic and dedication to all things that he truly cares for, particularly family.   

Brian, John, and I, being the only volunteers for the Congregation of Holy Cross, spend a large part of our time together.  At first, it was understood that due to my almost 2-year experience in Chile, I would act as a facilitator to their experience, advising and answering questions when needed.  After all, I am in a very different place than they are: I have lived this life for sometime, am very comfortable, and am somewhat beginning to start my transition out of Chile.  They just arrived with fresh eyes to this very new and different experience.  Yet, very soon after meeting, the three of us knew that the relationship between us would not exist as it does on paper, but something more.  Judging by the fact that I pretty much live at their apartment now, I can confidently say our assumption was correct.

The other day we laughed when we realized that Brian and John are as different as night and day, and I oddly have qualities of both, providing a nice middle balance.  I thoroughly enjoy how different we are and how we each contribute a different characteristic to the group dynamic, yet we all seem to compliment each other nicely.  

It is often said that you do not miss something until its gone.  This was certainly true for me with living in a community; I have been living on my own without community since I became the last Holy Cross Associate way back in March and recently have become aware that sharing the experience of Chile,  with all its trials, tribulations, and successes, is something that I have grown to miss and have found once again in Brian and John.

In the next few weeks, I will be moving into John's and Brian's apartment.  We had to consider this option when we realized I was unofficially living there anyway, spending about 4 of the 7 nights of the week at their apartment.  In discussing this possibility, we realized the decision for me to move in with them officially is a good decision for all of us, with extra financial and mental bonuses for me (no more living with crazy old lady!)  So, I look forward to spending my remaining 5 months in Chile with them, growing from their presence in my life, hoping that I can enhance their lives as much as they do mine.

In order, from left to right: Brian Smith, me, John Power.  Photo taken during a visit to the coast of Chile, about an hour outside of Santiago.




Thursday, September 11, 2008

Welcome to Chile!

The other day, when speaking to one of my American friends here in Chile, my friend rightly expressed our shared frustration to fully explain to our family and friends what exactly is “Chile” and what Chilean culture or values are.

Past May, I attempted (with the help of a few Chile culture books) a “Welcome to Chile” packet full of small tips and notes about Chilean culture to assist the visiting U.S. students with their daily life and struggles in the Chilean culture. Remembering our conversation, I showed this document to my friend yesterday. After living here for a while, we both found these common every day occurrences for us fascinating, realizing that the “odd” things have now become “normal.” After commenting that she wanted to send this information on to her family, I realized that was not a bad idea…and not a bad blog post.

And so…I post an adapted version of the short section about Chilean culture here on my blog. It is certainly not all-inclusive, but I hope that it gives you a better idea of things I have experienced within the last (almost!) 2 years!

Greetings (Saludos): When saying hello or goodbye to someone, males and females have distinct roles. Women always give an air kiss on the right cheek (thus your head goes left), regardless of the gender of the opposite person. Men, when addressing other men, shake hands. Men, when addressing women, give the air kiss. Also, it is very common for good friends, regardless of gender (even between two males or two females) to hold hands or link arms when walking together. It was a bit weird for me at first, but when some of my students or friends did this to me, I recognized it as a sign of a great friendship!

Personal space: Chileans tend to not care about personal space as much as Americans do. Do not be surprised to find a person speaking directly in front of your face during conversation, or to find a person behind you in line breathing down your neck or inadvertently poking you in the back. The lack of personal space is also very evident in the subway during rush hour when each bus and subway car is packed to the max. This is a bit aggravating but there is nothing you can do to widen the space.

Time: Time exists in Chile, but far different than it does in the United States. More emphasis and value is placed on personal relationships and what is being done in the moment rather than what comes later. Thus, many Chileans do have a schedule, but it is not uncommon to be anywhere from 30 minutes-1 ½ hours late for an appointment, especially if they are in good conversation or visiting with someone. This was frustrating and hard to get used to…but now my US friends joke that I am a bit too “Chilean” now, having adapted the whole “late” thing!

Myths and Truths: One way in which Chileans express their pride to foreigners is to downplay their performance and insult themselves. Chileans ceaselessly complain that they are lazy, disorganized procrastinators. Even though there is some truth in what they say, they must get some credit because it is the best-performing economy in Latin America.

Am I “American”?: At twice a week I hear many Chileans say they do not understand, dislike, and/or are frustrated with the fact that United States citizens say they are the only “Americans”; Chileans (and most of Latin American) learn that North America, Central America, and South America are all one continent (the continent of America). Thus, Chileans say they are Americans too. The response to these comments is very crucial in one surviving the conversation. First, I have to always acknowlege the differences between Chile and the United States in learning how many continents there are, that I learned there are 7 instead of 5. Additionally, and most importantly, I have to kindly remind them that in English, it is grammatically correct to say United States of America citizens are Americans, just as Republic of Chile citizens are Chileans. It also helps to mention that I never say I am "American" in Spanish, because that is improper Spanish. I am "Estadounidense" (United States-ian) NOT "Americana."

Family: In Chile, family is the central and most important social unit. Children live with their family until well after college, sometimes until they are married, because the concept of living on one’s own is not as pervasive as it is in other cultures. If they do move out on their parents’ house, it is not uncommon for Chileans to find a new home or build a house just down the street from where their parents live. Regardless of where they live, it is a common practice for the entire family (including first and second cousins, as well as in-laws) to gather at least once every week for a big meal.

Comida es amor. “Food is love” as they say here in Chile. Many times, although we may have stated several times that we are full and cannot eat any more, Chileans continue to offer food, particularly if they care for you or have a relationship with you. It is somewhat rude to reject the food full out, especially if it is food you have not yet tried. General unspoken rules between the gringos are the following: If you are full, take the food graciously and eat a bit, leaving the rest. It is okay to leave food on your plate. Addtionally, we have to remember that lunch is the biggest meal in Chile and it often consists of several courses – taking your time is key. And, if we think we will continued to be offered more food after, we stop eating before we are full in order to be prepared for the pressure to eat more that will follow (easier said than done of course!)

No toilet paper????!!!!: One thing about using a public restroom (in anywhere but a really fancy place): you will have to supply your own toilet paper. For some reason, it is just not an automatic part of the restroom offering, as it is other places in the world. In case we do not have any, some places offer a fee for using the bathroom, from 100-250 pesos (20-50 US cents), which covers the cost of bathroom usage and a bit of toilet paper. Most of the time it is thin thin thin – just because they provide it does not mean it is the best quality!! Some people, such as us gringos, prefer to carry a small travel pack of kleenex in our bags/purses at all times...just in case.

Additional note on toilet paper: Some septic systems in Santiago (and most of Chile) cannot handle both human waste and toilet paper. Thus, it is custom that after using it, you dispose it in a small waste bin located at the side of the toilet. In nice areas of Santiago, where fancier septic systems are located, this is not something that one has to concern themselves with. What if we are not sure if we can dispose the toilet paper in the toilet? Just look – if there is a small trash can there, we know it is a sure sign that no, we cannot put it in the toilet and need to put it in the trash can. If we are really confused, we look for a sign – they usually post something for the slow people in the world...

Nanas: Working mothers in Chile are not faced with the same problems that they are in some developed countries. Because labor is relatively cheap, most upper, and even some middle and lower-class families, hire nanas (nannies) or empleadas that not only look after the children but also clean, cook, and do the laundry. The nana is the trusted partner in raising the children and her presence is a great source of relief, and many nanas live with the family rather than live in their own house.

Paloleando – “Dating.” Dating in Chile is a very serious undertaking. Yet, it is not uncommon for Chileans, especially men, to date casually or more than one person at a time. The world “palolo” is very appropriate in describing the dating culture of Chile – the word comes from the name of a bug that buzzes around people: Once a couple is officially a couple the relationships becomes very intense and possessive. Couples spend all of their free time together and if they see their friends, they do so as a couple. Coming from a different culture, some view this as very suffocating.

PDA is a definite part of the culture. Couples are very, very, very affectionate in public. (Much more than I have ever seen in my life – I feel the last sentence is an understatement!) Young couples hold hands, embrace, and kiss passionately regardless of where they are. For many of us foreigners, this is a bit uncomfortable and despite my large amount of time here, this still remains the case. Speaking from experience, giving them dirty looks (or hollaring "get a room!" in Spanish) will not cause them to change their behavior. The reason for this is because most young couples live at home, they have no private areas where they can be intimate and take advantage of whatever time they have outside the house together.

And so, that's it! I am hoping to post some recent photos I took of me and the orphanage kids up on here within the next few weeks or so. If I do not get around to it any time soon, the next post will definitely be about Fiestas Patrias, Chile's national holiday on September 18 (check out my post from last year here.) It is coming soon and we are all anxiously awaiting its arrival!!

Hope you are all well. ¡Saludos y abrazos!

Until next time,

M

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

The Perfect Escape

Bahía Inglesa’s white-shelled beaches, turquoise sea, clear waters, abundant sun and seafood make this beach town, 75 km west of Copiapó, bubble over with summer guests. The rest of the year it is a yawning retreat, and even though the water is equally good the prices are slashed and the beach is nearly as deserted as the surrounding Atacama Desert. Locally harvested scallops, oysters, and seaweed sweeten the culinary offerings.

At the beginning of August, my good friend Leah (who is also a volunteer in the south of Santiago with a program named Response-Ability) told me that she was aching to escape the cold winter weather and smog-filled Santiago. After all, she left the U.S. at the end of winter and came to Chile, only to find it just beginning here. The funny thing is, when she told me this, I found myself going a bit stir-crazy too. Almost six months had passed without a single day off and whenever I did have a day off, I found myself working on things I did not have time to do during the regular work day rather than relaxing (surprise, surprise, I know). The winter weather was also taking its toll on my insanity and each day I commented how much I hated the city and missed the countryside. Even more, my boss was driving me crazy and making my life more difficult than it had to be…thus, I was ready to escape too.

Reading the above passage in a Chile guide book, we couldn’t help get excited about this so called “paradise” in the north of Chile, thinking it as the perfect trip to escape. Despite our excitement, we are both working on a volunteer budget and attempting to live out a promise of “simple living;” thus, we had our reservations as to whether this dream could become a reality. After a little bit of investigation and finding round-trip plane tickets for a mere $138 dollars, we realized this was an opportunity that could not be passed up – tickets were bought and August 21 was put on the calendar as the scheduled departure date.

The decision to go on this trip has been placed on my list of “best decisions I have ever made.” It was everything we wanted it to be and much more. Flying to the north was simply incredible (my first despite many trips to the South). The flight provided many opportunities to see across the entire country of Chile at the same time, with Andes Mountains on the right and blue Pacific Ocean on the left. Landing in Copiapó, Leah and I were simply giggling with excitement: we were in the middle of the desert. Nothing around us for miles. We had escaped. :-)

Taking an airport transfer to local Bahía Inglesa (translated English Bay), we travelled through the desert, and again, could not contain the big smiles that appeared on our face. When we arrived in Bahía Inglesa, we were greeted by the turquoise sea, white beaches, and SUN. I honestly gasped out loud at amazement. I could not believe that we had arrived, only having been in grey cold Santiago a few hours prior.

Finding our hostel was very easy, as it sat directly on the beach. Although it seemed a bit odd at first, due to its futuristic dome shape, we found that its facilities were comfortable and it quickly became home with its staff becoming family. This remained throughout our four day stay.

And so, we did what we planned to do: nothing. We laid out on the beach and soaked up the sun. The book was right: off season means the town is virtually deserted. The beach was all ours, no one to share it with (well, except for one day when the Argentinean waiter we met the night before joined us, offering to share his mate.) Each day was capped off with an amazing seafood dinner at a local restaurant. One night was shrimp and scalloped lasagna (picture left). Another night was a broth soup with every type of seafood imaginable: shrimp, crab, scallops, oysters, squid, etc. Fantastic and of course, the meals were never complete without a shared bottle of Chilean wine.

Outside of the highlight of doing nothing while escaping ugly scenery and horrid bosses, two other events were the highlight of our trip. On the third day, Leah’s desire to go running in air free of pollution seemed like a good idea to me as well. And so, we woke up early and ran 6 kilometers to the nearest town of Caldera (photographic evidence of me reaching Caldera on the right). I am not exaggerating by saying that we ran through the desert. Guiding us was a small bike trail on the side of the road and outside of this, there was no evidence of civilization until we reached the next town. Although we would like to say we ran the entire time, the surrounding scenery and the experience alone caused us to stop a couple of times to take pictures. :-P

On the last day, preparing myself to return to reality, I went on a walk with my journal. An hour later I was hiking up a large hill (it is not uncommon for me to search out the highest and/or most scenic spots to do my journaling.) Upon reaching the peak of the hill/small mountain, I stared out upon the world in amazement. On my right, the open Pacific ocean. Straight ahead, the Atacama Desert. On my left, the Andes Mountains. And directly behind me, a turquoise sea, lined with a white beach. All I could do at that moment was praise God. My heart was open and it was a truly magical experience. After journaling a bit, Leah called me on my cell, a bit worried because I had been gone for some time. I told her that she needed to come and see for herself what was causing my delayed return. Her arrival and her reaction were the same as mine, and we shared a moment together in prayer. Additionally and now quite hilariously upon reflection, we also screamed out all of our frustration and stress, saying things like, “I hate my boss!” “I hate Santiago!” and many other things that will remain unmentioned here. :-) All in all, as we climbed down the hill, we realized it was the perfect end to the perfect escape.

Back in Santiago for about the past two weeks, things are good. I am working every day on the exchange program, doing my homework helper workshop in the evenings and visiting the orphanage kids each Sunday. Any extra time I have is spent studying for the GREs I plan to take sometime in November. It feels good to say that although life has returned to normal, with all its frustrations, the calmness that our trip provided still remains and fortunately, still has our tan. It was the perfect escape.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

It's official - home for Christmas!

This post is an adaptation of an email that was sent to close family and friends. After consideration and in response to my excitement, I decided to post the information on the blog as well.

Well, the flight has been booked and I am already excited to come home!!

Here is the information:

Day Date Flight City Time
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Sun 14DEC DELTA 146 SANTIAGO 1030P AR ATLANTA 615AM
Mon 15DEC DELTA 1758 ATLANTA 745A AR KANSAS CITY 848A

Wed 14JAN DELTA 871 KANSAS CITY 325P AR ATLANTA 625P
Wed 14JAN DELTA 147 ATLANTA 910P AR SANTIAGO 840A

As you can see, although my 27-month contract with Holy Cross Associates is officially fulfilled with my return to the United States this December, I will be travel back to Santiago on January 14. This is so I can travel to the United States with the Chilean exchange students who will go to Washington, DC with me, leaving Santiago on January 17. I will be in Washington, DC until the 21st, in which all the students will go to their respective schools around the U.S. Just as last year, I will stay for a few days visting friends in DC, then return to Santiago (this return trip is paid for by the school, a round-trip ticket from Santiago to the U.S. is actually cheaper than one way - I think it is a way to secure that one will not stay in the U.S.)

The plan from there is that I will travel for two or three weeks, going back to Bolivia to see my Bolivian family for a week or so (now that I can understand everything they say :-) ), as well as making my way to Peru to hike and see Macchu Picchu. Plus, staying in the United States would mean two straight winters. I want to enjoy the Chilean summer sun, being with friends, the beach and the ocean.

I have been offered a job here in Santiago from February to May, allowing me to work until mid-May and save some money in order to start graduate school in the Fall (the living expenses here are very low, so much that I am certain a good amount of money can be saved...more than what I would make with a job in the U.S. at that time. And that would be if I found a job in the U.S. that would only hire me until I leave for graduate school a few months later.) I also feel that this time will allow me to tie-up loose ends and put a full closure on my time here, particularly all the projects I have, including a few new projects I just started just this week. It is funny, realizing that I need these four months to truly feel complete in my experience - with those four months, I will complete two years of work in Santiago, exactly the amount of time that an Associate spends in one place if they do not move and change locations, as I did several times throughout my experience.

I am very much looking forward to returning home, particularly for Christmas - Christmas Eve is my second most favorite holiday of the year (with my birthday being my favorite of course!) This Christmas Eve will be particularly special because I will be in the United States, after having been in Chile for the last two, and I will have a new neice or nephew to share it with!

That being said, 4 months and 16 days until I will be back in the United States! Until then, the work and daily Chilean life continues....

A hug to all,

M

Friday, July 25, 2008

Just call me "camp counselor"

“It’s chilly in Chile” and “I love mint tea” are my most common gmail chat away messages these days. Lately, in the midst of another cold Chilean winter, keeping warm with my very loyal boyfriend and a large mug of mint tea have pretty much been the highlight of my social life once the work day ends.

So, it comes down to my work to provide entertainment. Luckily, this has not been much of a problem, as I have been playing host to 6 teenage girls the past month or so. That being said, there is never a dull moment. These girls, part of the exchange program I created at a local high school I work at, come from Idaho, California, Idaho, Kansas City and Chicago. It is funny how these girls are unique but very similar all at the same time.

Two weeks ago, while students of the high school were in semester final exams, the girls and I took advantage of the free week to travel and see the sites in and around Santiago. Of course, we hit up all the highlights, with trips to my favorite town of Pomaire (family: where all your clay bowls came from), Pablo Neruda’s house in Isla Negra, and of course, the beach towns of Viña del Mar and Valparaiso. The beach towns would have been great…but the clouds were so thick that the ocean could barely be seen. We took a chilly horse-drawn carriage tour of the cities anyway.

It has really been eye-opening seeing Chile all over again through these girls’ perspective. Although I was a bit older, and I would like to say more mature, these girls had the same basic level of Spanish and same amount of experience with Chile (none) as I did when I arrived for the first time almost two years ago. I laughed to myself several times when I heard the same comments come out of their mouths as did mine when I first arrived. I smiled when they tasted pisco sour for the first time, reacting with a sour-puck face, then a few minutes later asked for more. I even comforted them when they expressed frustrations over the non-existent concept of time in Chile or being treated like a child/stupid by others simply because they could not understand the language. Overall though, my relationship with the exchange program participants was summed up by one of the girls during our Valparaiso trip, when she said, “Michelle, I feel that you are our fun camp counselor and we are at camp.” I will take it as a compliment.

I guess because my family or friends will not be able to come down and see my life here in Chile, I really did enjoy the moments when they asked about my life and I was able to share some part of it. I was still not able to answer the questions “What do you miss most about the United States?” and “What will you miss most about Chile when you leave?” and I am sure those answers will not be discovered any time soon. Regardless, at the end of their very short stay, I am confident to say that they at least got a sense of this country and this culture…if nothing else, they will go home with a lot of new friends, including one very fun “camp counselor.”

A group of Gringos: Some of the visting U.S. exchange students, their Chilean "sisters," U.S. teachers who teach at the high school they are visiting, and me.





Some of the visiting U.S. exchange students and me, riding the Santiago subway







Some of the visting U.S. students and me, at Isla Negra and Pablo Neruda's house

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Chilly morning thoughts on an overdue blog

This is long overdue. I know. Every morning as I get up, bundle head to toe in three layers of clothes, a scarf, and gloves to brave the Chilean winter, I think to myself, “Today I am going to post something on my blog.” This thought always continues as I leave my house at 6:30am and walk 20 minutes to meet a friend who drives me to work each day. During this time I think about my life here, what I have been up to, and if anyone actually wants to know that I am truly happy. Funny thing is, many times I have actually come up with some pretty creative things and or insights that are prefect for such a long overdue blog…too bad I never had the sense to write them down. For now, I am just drawing a blank

After my last post, a few people emailed me and asked “Are you okay? You sound depressed.” I was surprised to receive such responses because in fact, the opposite couldn’t be more true. I am happier than ever, happy with life, where I am at in it, and what lies ahead. So no, not depressed. I guess my thought process behind the last blog was that of giving an update of my life, but at the same time saying that in grand scheme of things, what I am doing here is not really what people should be focusing on. I was writing, and am still writing today, during a time that so many important things are going on in the world. The Earth is telling us something: earthquakes in China, volcanoes in Chile, terrible storms in the Midwest, cancer cases on the rise in both suffering adults and children, some of whom we care about - all this just to name a few. Genocide. Governmental oppression. A world food crisis. Strikes and protests around the world due to the increasing price and dependence of oil. Again, this is just naming a few and is really the tip of a large iceberg that only a portion we are aware of. Regardless, within a large majority of these events, people have died or have lost a loved one. People have lost any possession that they had in their life, forced out on the street with absolutely nothing and no one to help. And those are only the tangible effects. The psychological effects will certainly remained unseen. Yet, increasingly, the world constantly turns a blind eye to such events unless it affects them directly. So, rant aside, if someone is taking time to read my blog, it is my hope that they will take the time to at least read or pray for others who are in positions far worse off than they will ever be in their life.

Okay, sorry. I can guarantee you that the last comment/random rant was certainly not one of the creative insights I came up with during my morning walks. :-)

I guess in response to the above posting, I should apologize and say yes, you visit my blog to find out what is going on with me, not what is going on with the rest of the world or hear about how the world is going to hell. So, I will not try to disappoint.

Life is busy. I have said it before and it continues. The funny thing is, I am doing more work than the last time I said that. I have two full time jobs right now, working at the high school each day. I teach Sophomore, Junior, and Senior English while also coordinating the exchange program, debate team, and 1st grade English workshop. My initial reaction to teaching English has changed – as I have said before, I did not come down here to teach English. That is the job of others who are here through a different program. But, the need is there, and I was able to fulfill this need through the gifts that I have. In the end, that is all that matters. And so, my two full time jobs at the school continue.

On Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday nights I am continuing with my homework helper program at the local perish. The kids are so great and a lot of fun. Their grades have improved and that is always nice to see. The only thing now is that they come each night, sometime even if they do not have homework, which leaves me feeling at times if I am an educational babysitter. But, the kids say they like coming, so I guess anything that is fun and encourages kids to continue to study and learn after school hours is always a good thing.

A recent addition to my schedule has forced me to not visit as many people as I usually do during the week. About a month ago, I was searching online for a GRE preparation course (the SAT-like exam you take to go to graduate school). I have decide to apply for graduate school for the Fall of 2009 to study non-profit management and will be taking this test here in Santiago sometime in September or October, in order to send in my graduate school applications by December. The search for the preparation course led me to find the only offered in Chile, coordinated by the highly respected North American Institute. Unfortunately, the website did not include the date of the next session, saying to email inquiries. I emailed accordingly, and the next day I received a phone call from the director of the institute, telling me that the classes were twice a week, for three hours, AND the only session of the year was starting that evening, that there was one more space open in the class which I could have if I wanted. I simply couldn’t believe it, nor could I imagine adding one thing to my already crazy schedule. But, I knew that I would not be able to take this test without the course, even if I were to study on my own. And so, I signed up for the class and am doing math and English exercises for GRE preparation each Tuesday and Thursday from 6:30-10:00pm. I have two more weeks of the class left (lasts for a month and a half) and now I know Dios quiere (God wills it.) Something certainly played a role in me looking and finding that course the day before the session started, and I am so glad I did.

And so, that is me. Visiting the orphanage kids each Saturday is still the highlight of my week and Sunday is my day to relax, get some work done for school, and visit a family. I am happy. I cannot say it enough. Life is good. Life is manageable. I am enjoying this experience and have some of the best friends in the world here with me in Chile to enjoy it with. As I said earlier, I love my place in the world and where I am in it. I am comfortable with where I am heading. I have been so blessed to have the experiences I have had and continue to have, and at the same time, able to take time out to focus on myself, to find out what I truly want out of this life. I cannot tell you how amazing it is to say yes, I know what my calling and my vocation is, that a life of a international non-profit consultant is where my heart lies and where I will best be able to use the gifts God has given me. It is only through this experience that I would have reached this conclusion, and to be honest, it scares me to think of the life I would have led if I did not come here.

Yet, despite everything that I going on, each morning during my chilly walks I always seem to end with thoughts about family and friends. While I am happy here, I know that my life is not as complete as it could be with them. I very much am excited about when I will return home for Christmas and be able to share that time with them. This experience has taught me that with anything, there are sacrifices that must be made, and I am so grateful for those that continue to support and love me despite the fact I have sacrificed my interactions and relationships with them, only making up for it with infrequent phone calls and emails. They too, are making a sacrifice in support of my life here, and for that I will always be appreciative.

These people will remain in my thoughts, as well as all the others who make even greater sacrifices each day and live with that suffering, those who are known and unknown.

Until the next blog, whenever that is :-).

~ M

Friday, April 25, 2008

Life. It is what it is.

I keep staring at the computer screen, knowing I want to write something on this blog, but having no idea where to start. It has been almost a month and a half since my last post and so much has happened. At the same time, I keep thinking nothing that has happened is really worth writing about. So much is going on in the world, or with the lives of others, things that are much more important – why take the time to read that my life here has been crazy busy, that it is only now that I am able to take a breather?

But, I guess that writing about what is going on in the world or about the lives of others would just defeat the purpose of this blog, wouldn’t it? So, I will attempt at the difficult.

Life has been just, well, life. Working, living life here, and enjoying it. The weather is getting colder by the day and I found myself more in hoodies and boots than I do in t-shirts and sandals these days. As the cold weather comes closer by the day, I find myself a bit nervous about what the change in weather will do to me here – it is so incredibly depressing here during the winter, just gray, cold and wet to the bone 24 hours a day. People are different here too, not quite as friendly and willing to do whatever they can to get where they are going, to get out of the cold. This time of year last year was difficult for me. But, I have to keep reminding myself that I am a different person than I was last year, that this year I am in a better place about where I am in life.

Work on a whole is going great. The last month and a half everything was heightened a bit, increasing my work load. The process for next year’s exchange program has begun, along with preparing to receive students from the United States this winter (their summer). The debate team was preparing for a debate tournament each day. Coordination between the two high schools for the new English workshop was finishing, and I was now up to 30 kids each night for my homework helper workshop at the local parish. On top of everything, I was spending any free time I had putting things into boxes, packing away the last remaining items of the Holy Cross Associates program and condensing my life down from an entire apartment to one single room two blocks away. The move was difficult, especially because I did it all by myself, and there were definitely a couple of days where I felt that I was just swimming, attempting to keep my head above water to prevent from drowning. But, in the end it all worked out and I survived. I am in my new place and most of the things on my list have been checked off as complete.

I am looking forward to getting back to my routine, to getting back into contact with the people who I have lost communication with over the past month or so while life was crazy. No big plans other than that for now - tomorrow I am taking Ely, one of the orphanage girls (and definitely my favorite), to the movies for her 13th birthday, so that will be fun. Next weekend is a four day weekend due to Chile’s Labor Day, so my friends and I are planning a little trip to a small town about 5 hours away. It should be fun and I look forward to taking some time to just relax and enjoy the trip.

Thanks everyone for the emails to check up on me, you all are always in my thoughts. Remember to keep Lily, Cheryll, and Syndey Clevenger in your prayers as well as the Early family.

A big hug to you all – looking forward to writing another blog post soon :-)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Las Despedidas of Summer and Natalie

The word despedida is on the list of Spanish words that I love, being a word whose meaning and the feelings it expresses cannot be fully explained if translated into English. Any attempt would be something like "goodbye party" or "time to say goodbye." As I said though, the word doesn't quite express the same sentiment in English as it does in Spanish.


February is the last month of summer, and Natalie and I used any opportunity we had to give summer its proper despedida. We couldn't have started it any better - soon after my return from the U.S., we went to the beach towns of Viña del Mar and Valparaíso and attended one night of Chile's yearly national summer concert festival, seeing Nelly Furtado, Calle 13 (Reggatone/Spanish rap), and Amango (Chile's TV version of High School Musical.) At times, it seemed it was teen night, but we had a great time. In the days leading up to the event, Natalie and I laid out on the beach and soaked up the sun. Returning froom the beach weekend, I joined Natalie in working at the Congregation's pool each day, supervising the orphanage kids as they swam (when I say swim, it really meant jumping in the pool over and over, or climbing on me asking to drag them all over the pool while I swam, haha.) Any extra time we had was spent going out with friends, often to small bars or pubs where we could sit out and enjoy the summer night with a few cocktails.











The first week of March brought cause for another despedida: Natalie's departure from Chile, ending her time as a Holy Cross Associate. Like Summer's despedida, Natalie's extended over several weeks. Literally each day soemething was scheduled, whether it was a barbecue or lunch at someone's house, bowling night with the gringos, or one last card night at a friend's house. The main event of all this was a party in which all the people Natalie's life has touched throughout her time here were able to show up and say goodbye over drinks and food. The party was a huge success, so much so that around midnight we were afraid of making the neighbors angry so we went out to a bar. The bar was okay, although Natalie and I were not impressed with the music (techno? really? come on now...) So, Natalie and I decided to leave and head back home. Feeling pretty good from a few cocktails and while searching for a cab, Natalie spotted a large plaza with lots of people and restaurants, and said "they look like they are having fun, let's go see what they are up to." And so, we crossed the street - in which a sushi restaurant was found and prompted us to stop for some late night/early morning eats. Who knew you could get sushi and margaritas at 3:30am in Santiago?? A great end to a really fun night and weeks of celebrating Nat's 1 1/2 years in Chile.

And so, the same day we said goodbye to Summer, we sadly said goodbye to Natalie. It was even noted in the weather - the first day of Natalie's absence brought rain and grey skies for the entire day, signaling fall is here and winter is on its way. She is certainly missed, but those who know Natalie know that this was the best decision for her and her time here in Chile was certainly not wasted.

With any despedida brings changes, a new way of life combined with the old. As you can imagine, two despedidas in the same month certainly makes things a bit different. On my own now, it is a new way to live, but one I have found myself quickly adapting to due to the return of the school/work year, and 14 hour work days. Yet, the work and all that it brings has been welcomed and the way that things continue to go, my own despedida will be here before you or I know it.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Photos from a surreal whirlwind

As promised, here are a few photos from my trip back home, the first time since July 2006.

Enjoy!

- M

Me and the grandparents (I love this photo!)

Me, my dad, and my niece Aubrey


Me and my mom

Me and the girls - cousins Shelby and Katie, sister Maegan, and neice Aubrey

My brother Matt, his best friend Chris, and the band The Wedding. We saw them in concert and they rocked!


My sister Missy and me

And last but not certainly not least, my favorite photos of my neice Aubrey. She is so cute! Aubrey was born while I was still in Bolivia at language school and my trip home was the first time for me to see and meet her :-)


Friday, February 15, 2008

A Surreal Whirlwind

It is a beautiful summer day here in Santiago and as I sit down to write this blog entry, I simply cannot believe what a whirlwind my life has been the last three weeks.

On January 17, 2008, 11 Saint George students and I left the very warm summer whether of Chile and flew to the very cold winter weather of Washington, DC USA. We bundled up in newly purchased hats, scarves, and gloves and had a wonderful time, visiting all that there was to see in the nation’s capital. Highlights of the trip for the students included a private tour of the capitol building, a trip to the National Holocaust Memorial Museum, dinner in Chinatown, ice-skating for the first time during a very chilly night in front of the National Art Gallery, buying souvenir t-shirts from a street vendor, and eating a spicy chicken sandwich at Wendy’s. After a successful two day visit, each student left DC and flew to their various locations around the country where they will remain until March 15th as exchange students. So far, no problems at all (knock on wood) and students, schools, and host families all seem to be having a great time.

As for myself, I stayed in Washington, DC for three more days in order to visit with some friends, former co-workers, and former bosses currently living in the city. It was great to be in DC again, the first time back since I worked there during the 2005 summer. My wonderful friend (and fellow 2006 SMC grad) Danielle Taylor was gracious enough to host me for those three days (and two days after my KC visit). She was as great of a host as she is friend (thank you again Danielle.) The highlight of my entire time in DC was not just being with the kids, showing them around a city I love, and teaching them how to ice-skate, but seeing everyone again. The culmination of this experience was a fun SMC get-together at an Irish pub one night with friends Danielle, Ashley Enright (2007 grad), Sarah K. Brown (2005), Abby Raegan (2005), Sarah McIlduff (2007), Maria Corso (2005), and Liesl Yost (2005). Go Belles! :-)

Yet, the majority of my time away from Chile for the past three weeks was spent in Parkville, MO visiting my family and a few friends. This was the first time that I had been back home since I left for HCA program orientation in July 2006. As everyone pointed out, it had been a long time. New buildings, new stores in my town had been built, new roads paved. Certain events happened, people were a bit older and lives were a bit different. I knew to expect all of this because I had changed too. Regardless, I was happy to find that the basic comforts of home were right there waiting for me when I returned.

I want to say that nothing significant happened while I was home, but at the same time want to write about each day that I was there. Everyday I had different plan and different itinerary of things to do. Spending time with each of my family members and family friends was certainly the best part. I was able to spend a day with my grandparents, eating lunch and shopping. I went to mass – twice – with my grandma, always one of my favorite things to do. I spent several days with my one year old niece who was born while I was still in Bolivia. Seeing her for the first time will be one of the things that I will never forget. Amazing how one person can change your view of things, how you can love them just by meeting them. It was incredible seeing each of my parents hold her, their grandchild. I went to work with my Aunt, spent the day chasing after 15 little 5 year olds , speaking in Spanish to 6 of them. I made a Chilean dinner for my family complete with pastel de choclo and pisco sours, and ended the night by acting like bad girls, smoking and drinking with my sister, aunt, and mother while playing pool. I ate amazing Kansas City barbecue ribs and drank beer while watching a great game of the Superbowl at the American Legion. I went to a party with my other Aunt and Uncle, and being the only person there under the age of 40, played pool and creatively invented shots along side a bunch of bikers proud of their motorcycles. I ran errands with my cousins and sat in the back seat while they drove. Went to Wal-Mart and subconsciously said the word “whoa” aloud when walking through one of the isles. I had lunch with my Dad and his new girlfriend. I went to an awesome Christian heavy metal/scream at the top of your lungs/bang your head/mosh-pit rock concert with my sister and brother, hearing the band members’ stories of being called to God in between songs and meeting them afterward, seeing their impact on all who were there, including my siblings. I played bingo with my mom, sister, Aunt, and “the girls” at the American Legion. I sat in front of the TV for hours on end while it snowed 8 inches outside, absorbing cable television and becoming addicted to “Make Me a Supermodel,” “Project Runway,” “Cash Cab,” and the Food Network. I visited some good friends, one who is a masseuse and gave me a must-needed deep tissue massage. I absorbed all the politics I could get, watching CNN from the start to the finish of Super Tuesday, and checked the channel and headline news at least 30 times a day. I went to a service at my sister’s church and met all the wonderful people who have had an impact on her life, even going to lunch with her friend Pastor Alex and ate an incredibly huge and delicious burger at Fuddruckers after the service. I even picked up the two Saint George exchange students who are in the Kansas City area and took them to Coldstone Creamery in the Plaza and after to Crown Center for a little shopping, meeting their host families later for dinner at a Japanese steakhouse. Oh, and eating Sunday breakfast at the American Legion. I looked forward to that for so long and to see everyone there – yes, that should certainly make this list too.

Okay, okay, I’ll stop. No, this isn’t everything, nor do I plan to bore you with another long list again. But, no worries – when my sisters and cousins finally send me pictures, I will post them on here and be sure to recap everything again, haha.

From the moment I stepped off the plane in Kansas City to the day that I said goodbye to my mom in the airport to make my way back to Chile, my time home was very very surreal. When I left in July 2006, I never expected to be back in Parkville until December 2008 and had mentally prepared myself to not return. The opportunity to go back for a visit, virtually paid for, was a blessing and an opportunity I am glad I did not pass up. Yet, the entire time I was there, it felt like an outer-body experience - I was home, I was sitting in front of, talking to, and having a great time with family and friends. I was experiencing a completely different, although familiar, culture I did not expect to experience for another 11 months. And, just as I started to believe it was real, the time came to leave.

I am glad to be back in Santiago. Glad to be back living the simple life I have learned to love, glad to see the people I have learned to love. The funny thing is, my first few days back here were a bit surreal too. Life moves fast, as you all know, and technological advances in transportation, among many other things, make moving fast an easy feat to accomplish. There is no doubt that these remaining 10 months in Chile will move just as fast as the last 1 year, 5 months, and 23 days I have been in South America. I must be kidding myself to think the surreal whirlwind has come to an end.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Misiones 2008

Last year I was so incredibly blessed to participate in Misiones, a 10 day trip with Saint George's College to the island of Tranqui in the south of Chile. As I planned to go again this year, I could remember two things about that experience: the beautiful scenery and people of Nepué and Chiloé, as well as the struggles I experienced on a daily basis, particularly when communicating in a language that I had only learned 3 months earlier. Okay, I guess that makes it three things.

I expected the experience this year to be a bit different. First, I have lived in Chile for over a year now and each day I find myself more confident and sure of my language abilities. Peole actually understand me now and I understand them (although there are moments...) Second, I was not just a participant: along with an ex-student who had graduated in 2005, I was in charge of the mission in Alqui and the group of students missioning there this year. Lastly, as shown from the last statement, I was not returning to Nepué where my memories from last year derive. Being a group leader, I had to go to Alqui this year, a small town about three hours away from Nepué on the same island.

I simply do not have words to explain this experience, what I place in my Top 10 of all my experiences in Chile. The students in my group were absolutely wonderful and we quickly became a family. We lived, cooked, laughed, and cried together throughout those 10 days. By the end of the experience, we didn't want to leave each other's company - so much so that despite our many days together, we had a barbecue at someone's house the night we returned to Santiago and the next day got together again for one of the kid's birthday. Missions is more than just visiting people in their houses, creating a connecting with them and the rest of the Catholic church and their country that they are isolated from due to geographic location. It is also a formative experience, retreat-like where inside the group of missioners (remember, these are high school kids) challenge themselves and others to grow in their faith and love for themselves and others. These kids took that challenge and went above and beyond any expectations I ever had. (Pictured below: Missioners and Alqui community in front of Alqui chapel)

Yet, just like last year, Misiones 2008 will be remembered for the people. This time in both Alqui and Nepué. The local community in Alqui is different than Nepué. In Nepué, most live an hour or so walk away from the chapel. In Alqui, it is at least a 2 hour walk, sometimes 3 or 4. (That walk is more like a hike through the forests and over large hills.) Because of this, the local community was not seen as much, whereas in Nepué they visited everyday giving us potatoes, salmon, bread, and more food than we could possibly consume in one sitting. Yet, in Alqui, those who did live close by took wonderful care of us and those who did not mangaged to walk the incredible amount of distance each day in order to celebrate the mass with us. Don Jose and his wife Señora Isabel took good care of us, constantly checking on us and at the end of our time, killing one of their lambs one day so we can have an all-you-can-eat fest. Also, I became close to one woman and her mute daughter, who did not live close but walked a long way in order to go to the mass. Our communication was limited but the bond was strong.

I was also very fortunate to make the 3 hour hike one day to Nepué. There I was able to see all of my friends from last year, particularly Señora Felicinda who I spoke about last year. We teared up after seeing each other again and she gave me her signature pat on the butt, calling me her "Little Gringita" saying how I am "más flaquita" (skinnier) and my butt is not as big. I just had to laugh - I wouldn't have expected anything else from my favorite person on that island. After a day there, I had to return to my community in Alqui. Parting ways, we teared up again, and when I told her that I would not be back next year, she said, "That's okay. We will be together again someday in heaven with Jesus." I smiled and gave her a big hug knowing she is exactly right.

Today I embark on a new adventure: my flight to the United States leaves this evening at 10:00pm to Washington, DC. With the student exchange kids, I will be there for 3 days and after see them all off on their flights to their high schools around the country. On the 23rd, I fly back home to Kansas City, the first time I have been home and seen my family since the end of July 2006. A long time gone and a lot has changed, but I am looking forward to it tremendously. Next blog post will be written while I am in the United States!

Monday, December 31, 2007

The month of December

I was told several times that the month of December is the busiest month in Chile. It is the first full month where the weather is nice everyday and it seems that every weekend, if not every day, people have plans to enjoy this nice weather – beach, barbecues, birthday celebrations, picnics, you name it. Not to mention the all important holiday on the 5th (my birthday, haha) and the month ending with Christmas Eve, Christmas, and New Year’s Eve. I was (and still am) exhausted every day with my work preparing for my upcoming trip to the U.S. with the student exchange kids as well as my missions trip with Saint George. I found it hard to imagine finding time to do anything extra knowing that I still am visiting the kids in the orphanage once a week and cooking at the kitchen for the meals on wheels program. Yet, by the end of the month, my daily agenda was about as full as it was during my college years (if you can believe it! haha)

It actually started on November 30, with a trip to El Quisco and the beach retreat house owned by the priests of the Holy Cross Congregation. They graciously lent Natalie, the ChACE teachers, and me the house for the weekend to celebrate Molly’s birthday (ChACE teacher – program out of Notre Dame, teaching English at Saint George, the high school I volunteer at). It was a lot of fun as we hung out on the beach, took in the sun, threw around a football, played paddle ball, and enjoyed the beautiful ocean scenery.

December 5th was my 24th birthday. Those who know me well know that my birthday is my favorite day of the year and I like to count down to my birthday, usually starting at 60 days. This year was different. I had already celebrated a birthday in South America before and to be honest, I had felt 24 for quite some time. Of course, I wanted to do something, but the only requirement I had was to be with the people I care about and for everyone to have a good time.

In the end, my birthday was by far the best birthday I have ever celebrated. My heart fills with unexplainable emotion every time I think about it. Father Erwin, who is a friend of the owners of Buenos Muchachos, had a table arranged for me and 30 guests at the famous dinner-show restaurant. The plan was for my birthday celebration to begin at 8:00pm. Yet, it really started at 12:15am, as I found myself up and waiting for the arrival of Deirdre and Colleen, two awesome girls I became friends with while in Bolivia studying Spanish (Deirdre and I attended the same language school.) They both had just finished their one-year program in Bolivia teaching English at a rural school and decided that before leaving to return to the U.S., they would stop by to visit me in Chile. As luck would have it, they scheduled their trip for my birthday :-)

Later that morning, I woke up to go to work at the meals on wheels program, and encountered balloons hung in front of my door with signs saying “Happy Birthday Michelle” as well as decorations around our apartment and my favorite homemade chocolate chip banana bread on the table for breakfast, all courtesy of Ms. Natalie Nathan. At work, I was surprised at lunch with not only wine, but lemon pie made by my dear friend Ana, a delicious double chocolate cake made by Natalie, and a beautiful silver bracelet and lapis lazuli earrings (national gem of Chile) from my friends Ana, Rosita, Chela, Magda, and Angelica. I was so suprised and greatful for the extra effort they each made, particularly Natalie, to make the day special. The rest of the afternoon was filled with a fun trip to Starbucks with Deirdre and Colleen (no Starbucks in Bolivia!) and a visit to the beauty salon for a much needed birthday pedicure. The plan was to get the pedicure and head home to get ready for the dinner party, but the pedicure took a bit longer than expected…so I ended up getting my hair and makeup done at the salon too, a nice little birthday present for myself.

me and my awesome birthday cake, made and beautifully decorated by Natalie

Despite a huge traffic jam that caused a little snag in my plans (arriving 45 minutes late to my own party – oops!), the rest of the night was one that I will always remember.At Buenos Muchachos, we drank wine, drank pisco sours (the national drink of Chile), ate from the parilladas (mini barbecue grills that sit directly on the table and are piled high with steak, chicken, and sausage), watched the dinner show featuring traditional dances of Chile, and danced the night away after.

At one point in the night, I looked up and down the long table of guests and realized how incredibly blessed I am to have such wonderful people in my life and to have them all come together to celebrate my birthday. Everyone I truly care about from both my Chilean world and my gringo (foreigner) world here in Santiago were together in once place for my birthday. To see them interact and mix, from English or Spanish conversations to dancing on the dance floor, was an amazing sight. As the ultimate cherry on top, many of the guests were able to experience Buenos Muchachos for the first time. Along with the three ChACE teachers who were finishing up their year of teaching, the 6 señoras I work with at the meals on wheels program had never been to Buenos Muchachos because it is expensive for the average Chilean. Thanks to some amazing friends who paid a bit extra so that my señora friends could afford to attend, my birthday was not only a good time, but an opportunity to provide an experience to some who would have never been able to experience it otherwise. I honestly do not think I could have asked for anything more for my birthday. A week later, Angelica told me that her feet still hurt, but that she didn't mind because she hadn’t had fun and danced like that in the last 30 years. This certainly put a smile on my face and my heart is filled with joy every time I think about it.

Rosita, me, Angelica, Ana, y Carlos

The rest of the month of December flew by even faster than the first week. The days following my birthday, I did the tourist thing with Deirdre and Colleen, showing them the sites of Santiago (pictured left), ending their visit with a weekend trip to Viña del Mar and Valparaíso, two beautiful coastal beach cities an hour outside of Santiago. There we enjoyed the scenery, took a night horse drawn carriage tour of the cities, and ate a great seafood dinner at a restaurant located in one of the many ports of Valparaíso. By sure coincidence, I had a few friends running a half-marathon or a full marathon in Viña that exact same weekend. What a blessing it was to see them cross the finish line and finish something they had been training for previously for months.

Exactly one week from my birthday, we had despedida (goodbye/farewell party) for the two ChACE teachers, Tony and Caty, who were finishing their year commitment and heading back to the United States. This party lasted until 4:00am, but Natalie and I took a taxi back home at 3:00am. Two days later, I went to a bar to celebrate Daniella’s 23rd birthday (another English teacher at the high school I volunteer at). That was fun (included December birthday tequila shots between Dan, Molly, Daniella, and me) and lasted until 2:00am. It would have gone longer, but the teachers had to get up the next day to go to work…adults, haha. I actually got up myself the next morning and went to the orphanage to hang out with the kids all day. Three days later, we had plans once again as we spent one last night with Caty before her departure to the U.S. by going to a Japanese steak restaurant (you know, the ones where they cook the food right in front of you). This was a lot of fun and the food was great.

This only puts us at December 18th, but a day with significance: One Year in Chile. That’s right, I have lived in Chile for over a year and honestly, it feels good to say it.

As I said previously, in between all of this, I have been working constantly: student exchange program work scheduled around all-day missions meetings while still visiting the orphanage kids once a week and helping two students at the high school apply to attend university in the U.S. next year. The meals on wheels program has ended for the year, and this free day has become one more day to work on the exchange program and missions, which is nice. All in all, my first day off in a while was Christmas Eve and Christmas, and to be honest, the only reason I actually took a break was that all my communication had stopped – for some reason, people do not check their email during this time…hm…haha :-)

Christmas Eve and Christmas were like no other that I had celebrated before. Last year, there were 7 of us and we celebrated as a group. This year, it was just Natalie and me. For a while, we were unsure how exactly these days would be celebrated. Luckily and thankfully, we were invited to the Oliva family’s home (family of Jenny and Michelle, our friends) to eat Christmas Eve dinner after mass. This confused me at first: mass starts at 10:00pm and should end around 11:00pm – “are we going for dinner or just for coffee and dessert?” I wondered. Yes, we ate a full dinner with deserts outside under their grape arbor in front yard (just like last year!) Throughout dinner we could hear neighbors outside of their homes as well, relaxing in the summer night, opening gifts. The kids were particularly happy, as Chilean tradition dictates that Pascuero Viejito (Santa Claus) passes by exactly at midnight and at this time their gifts are revealed (a little less mysterious than U.S. custom). Around 1:00am, we took our turns around the Christmas tree inside, opening up gifts and taking pictures. We returned home at 2:15am, tired from another late night.

I would dare to say that Christmas in Chile is similar to the United States in that it is an individual holiday in which families celebrate together in their own individual way. This is in stark contrast to how Chileans celebrate Fiestas Patrias. Chilean Christmas is different from U.S. Christmas in the fact that a big deal is not made of the day itself, but with Christmas Eve actually receives more of the attention. Not caring one way or another, Natalie and I woke up on Christmas morning and made ourselves a special breakfast, complete with eggs, bacon, hasbrowns, toast, and mimosas. We watched a movie until later that afternoon when we went to the ChACE apartment and had a very nice gringo Christmas dinner, complete with turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, green bean casseroles, the three pies that I had made the day before (apple, cherry, and pumpkin), and more. Needless to say, I was full for the next two days from all the food I ate from both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.

Despite the fact that a lot of minor details and plans were left out of all of this, December has clearly been one crazy busy month. In my mind, there is only one true way to finish out the month: another trip! Later this morning, I will leave and go to Valparíso again, this time to celebrate the New Year with friends and see the largest fireworks display in South America. Over a million people are expected to be there and I am sure good times are going to be had by all.

Tomorrow I will return to Santiago, where I will pack for my January 2nd-14th missions trip with Saint George’s College (to read about last year’s trip, click here) as well as begin packing for my January 17th-February 9th trip to the U.S. for the student exchange program. My plan is to post a blog entry again in between these trips, this time about the missions trip. (I promise it will not be a novel such as this one, haha.)

Hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed start to the New Year!

Friday, November 30, 2007

A few items worth noting and Thanksgiving recap

Everything is going really well...and it feels fantastic to say it, more than you know. After a challenging and very formational first year, things are great. I am continuing to enjoy work each day and really have come to appreciate and love my life here. The sunshine and summer breeze helps too :-)

At one point here in Chile, I jokingly said "I am humble enough to admit that I am good at this." Haha. Well, joking aside, I am certainly humble enough to admit that I do not write the best blog posts and that there are plenty others in this world that have the ability to truly capture not only what it means to be a volunteer in another country, but life once you have been affected by the experience. Here are three excelent blog posts recently written by past and current associates that are not only worth noting on this blog, but worth you checking them out:

"818" By: Ryan Greenberg

"Volunteering: The Big Reality Break" By: Patrick Furlong

"The Grace of Change" By: Natalie Nathan



I thought about everyone on Thanksgiving and hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. Many of you have asked me if Chileans celebrate some type of Thanksgiving holiday throughout the year. The answer is no, but as the cultural centers around family, it seems Chileans do not need a reason to gather the entire family for a meal. Often, entire families eat dinner together each night or get together for tea and bread in the evening.

While last year we had to make an effort in order to celebrate the holiday, this year we received an invitation from the Sisters of Villa María, an order of sisters out of Philadelphia, PA. We were invited along with U.S. priests, brothers, and sisters from our Congregation as well as 8 other young "twenty somethings" from the U.S. who are teaching English at Saint George, the high school I work at two days a week. It was a gringo holiday and we certainly celebrated it U.S. gringo style. Turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy, stuffing, cranberries, pumpkin pie and much much more. We were amazed when we walked into the beautiful patio where dinner was served and saw all the food - many of which had ingredients that were brought from the United States (ex. pumpkin pie filling).

All throughout dinner, I was in a complete daze, eating food that I have not eaten for well over a year, and ate more than I ever thought I could in one sitting. Even more, the dinner was spoken in English (an extra bonus!) with clever quips from two very fiesty nuns from Philly. The only things missing were a football game on the tv and cold weather outside. Otherwise, it was a good ol' American holiday celebrated just the way it should be...this time, it was only 5, 188 miles from home.

me and my pumpkin pie :-)

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

New Pace of Life, New Community Member

Just wanted to say hi to everyone and that I hope all is well. Spring is here, summer is on its way, and the sun has finally made its appearance. I have already made a trip to the beach with Natalie and our Chilean friend also named Michelle…I even have my first sunburn of the year to prove it. :-)

Life is a bit different now. On October 27, Roy, Ryan, and Caitlin ended their two years of service as Holy Cross Chile Associates and returned to the United States, leaving just Natalie and me to live by ourselves and finish out the program (pictured right: Ryan, Natalie, and me at the airport.) I never thought I would be able to say this, but I do feel like a second year Associate. I am more comfortable with my life here, more than ever before, especially with the incredibly difficult Chilean Spanish. I find myself truly enjoying work and no longer constantly frustrated with the culture. Recently, five new 20-somethings from the United States arrived to teach English at the high school I work at; they are in the exact same position I was in a year ago, struggling to understand what is being said to them and trying so hard to make this culture their life. They have truly provided me the perspective of how much I have grown and become accustomed to this place. It makes me smile when they ask me how to get some where, how to say something in Spanish (and I know the answer), or simply where we can go for a nice bite to eat on a Friday night.

Caitlin, Roy, and Ryan were such a part of my life. Despite fun times and living this experience together, they truly helped me through a very difficult first year. Without their constant support, I know my experience would not have been the same. They will be missed. Now it is Natalie and me, willing to take on this experience for as long as we can.

With the three of them gone, things are a bit more quiet than usual (hard to believe with me I know.) Natalie and I are both crazy busy at work each day and usually tired when we get home. I laugh when I realized the other day that Natalie has adapted to my “old woman” 9:30-10:00pm bed time. If we do have the energy after work and dinner, we usually pass the time by playing cards, watching movies, or watching our favorite telenovelas. Life is simple here but with the sunny days, there is not much to complain about.

Yet, we do have a new community member to keep us company and constantly on our toes: Nacho. Natalie and I found our two month old kitten while walking through the weekly vegetable market. He crossed our paths as the dirtiest, scrawniest, malnourished, and wet kitten we have ever seen; clearly a kitten of the street with no home. He was so cute, pouncing around on what looked like little stilts for legs. We watched him for a few minutes, oohing and awing, and he walked right up to us; I knew at that moment he had to be ours and after a few minutes of convincing Natalie, we walked away with our new community member.

He has grown tremendously in the last few weeks as it is our goal to fatten this little kitty up. Here are a few pictures that Natalie has been able to take:

It is funny how the basic events in life still manage to provide Spanish vocabulary lessons. Taking Nacho home and giving him his first bath, I realized I never considered the possibility that this street cat would have bugs...and boy did he have them. Thus, I learned the word for bugs (bichos) and fleas (pulgas) when I went to go buy the flea shampoo and collar. I have also learned the word for cat litter (arena higiénica – which translates into hygienic oats) and litter box (caja de arena higiénica – which translates into box of hygienic oats). These words, I can guarantee you, I never expected to learn in my lifetime.

Nacho is a baby kitty, and thus, has a regular bed time, wake up time, and meal time, especially in the morning. Because I am the early to bed, early to rise person in the house, I have the morning shift with the kitty. Unfortunately for me, Nacho can be clocked to wake up at 4:30am in the morning wanting to be fed, meowing at the top of his lungs begging for someone to listen to him. Reluctantly I always get out of bed, feed him, and hope that he falls asleep. Sometimes he does and sometimes he doesn’t. Either way, I just don’t care and attempt to get three more hours of sleep while he runs around my room and jumps on my bed, occasionally stopping to sleep on my face. Oh the joys of motherhood…yep, I am definitely not ready for real children yet.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Valdivia, Chile

The title of this blog is “Michelle’s South American Adventures.” When I came up with this title more than a year ago, I certainly did not think that every other blog would be about traveling. I wouldn’t be shocked if someone wondered if I was actually working.

As some of you know, Chile is an extremely diverse country. It is a 2666 mile strip starting at the tip of Peru and stretching all the way to territory in Antarctica, with coast on one side and almost all mountain on the other. The north holds the world’s driest desert, geysers, and Inca geoglyphs as well as clear night skies for some of the world’s most important astrological observatories. The central region is filled with wine vineyards and beaches as well as the country’s largest city, Santiago. In stark contrast to the north, the south is diverse with volcanoes, rainforests, coastal life, and glaciers. All in all, one would be crazy not to see all they could while they are here, especially when traveling is so cheap.

Two weekends ago, my fellow Associates and I bought a $28 round trip bus ticket to the coastal city of Valdivia, Chile, located just 10 hours south of Santiago. This trip was especially significant for us because it was our last as a group – Ryan, Caitlin, and Roy will be ending their two years of service this month and leave on October 27th to return home to the United States.

Before leaving Santiago, every person told us that Valdivia is beautiful. In fact, many claim that it is Chile’s most beautiful city. I found this odd considering that my guide book says it rains 184 days of the year...that almost exactly every other day if distributed equally. We were also told to experience the things Valdivia is famous for: fresh seafood, Kunstmann beer (German beer brought to Chile by early German settlers in late 19th century, the sea lions, and of course, the beautiful scenery.

Everything met our expectations as we ate an awesome dinner of fish fresh from the ocean, visited the Kuntsmann factory/restaurant (picture below), had an afternoon picnic on the beach, and took a 3 hour boat tour of the city and surrounding area. (During the boat tour we actually docked on a small island and took a tour, where we saw a church build in the 1600’s and the biggest tree I have ever seen, pictured right). We even spent part of an afternoon visiting a Spanish fort built in 1645 that stuck out of the coast on a beautiful cliff, looking out onto the ocean in order to catch potential invaders in crossfire.


And yet, I could have spent my entire day at the fish market with the fishermen and the sea lions. It is hard to describe, but hopefully these videos will help:

Fish Market Video 1

Fish Market Video 2

So yes, the videos are not of me but of random people I found on the internet...but they do the trick. The fish market was simply incredible. All kinds of sea creatures for sell that I had only seen on the Discovery Channel. Live crabs in crates, sea urchins, eels, lots and lots of fish as well as many I have no clue what they were. I laughed at myself while walking through the market: I knew that if I could preserve them without the retched side effects, I would have bought one of everything to bring back to the United States. I stood along the side of the market and just watched, it was a truly fascinating sight. Fishermen and women cleaned fish from huge crates brought in directly from the ocean, while others sold what was just cleaned or bought what they had to offer. For me it was a cultural market, for them it is just another day.

Enhancing this experience was the presence of the sea lions – the citizens of Validiva see these animals as we see squirrels in the trees, they are just there. The occasional and huge 800 pound sea lion that, 5 times the size of one person, would hobble up to the fisherman and receive a bit of scraps of the cleaning. Other sea lions would play on the local docks while others would swim in and out of the water. All of this while pelicans and other exotic birds (well, exotic to me) hung out until the occasional fish thrown into the water caused them to dive into the water in search for the piece before the sea lions got to it first (think of the scene in Finding Nemo with the birds screaming “Mine, Mine, Mine, Mine” haha). As I said, I could just watch this all day. Later that evening, we were walking along the water and came across two huge groups of sea lions, resting from the day’s activities, one on a dock in the water and the other on a side walk. (Fun fact: A group of sea lions in the water is called a raft.) Not bothered by people, I got close for a picture to show both the size of these massive animals and just how nonchalant they really are:


Needless to say, we spent another 2 hours watching them, with the occasional walking to and from the other group. A few even taunted us by walking close, causing us to run away quickly – it is amazing how fast these tranquil beasts could appear dangerous in just a few seconds time.

I had a wonderful time in Valdivia. As far as Chile’s most beautiful city, I would have to say that it is in the running but I have yet to experience everything Chile has to offer in order to validate such a statement. Looks like I will just have to travel a bit more…and don’t be surprise if I blog about that next adventure too.

Monday, October 01, 2007

Fiestas Patrias

It was said on the news that Chile has more feriados, or federal holidays, than any other country in South America. It is not uncommon to have at least one or two days a month where there is no work or school and everyone just takes the day off. No one second guesses this, just part of the culture. But then again, who would?

Knowing this, it wasn’t surprising when President Michelle Bachelet signed a law making the celebration for Fiestas Patrias, Chile’s Independence Day, a five day celebration this year instead of the usual two. Let me explain: Fiestas Patrias consists of two days, September 18 and September 19. September 18 commemorates the proclamation of the First Governing Body of Chile in 1810 and the beginning of the Chilean independence process. September 19 is known as “Army Day” or “Day of the Glories of the Chilean Army.” This year, September 18 was a Tuesday and September 19 was a Wednesday, leaving Monday in the middle of four days that can be used for celebrating (let’s not waste the weekends!). Thus, President Bachelet signed a law making Monday an official feriado this year, providing the Chilean people 5 days to celebrate the nation’s independence.

Not all Chileans celebrate Fiestas Patrias exactly the same and in Santiago, with 6 million people, there are plenty of options available. There are fondas, or carnivals/fairs complete with craft tents, live music, and lots of food. There are rodeos, kite flying competitions, and parades. There are concerts around the city and lessons to learn the national dance, the cueca. And regardless of where it is or what is going on, each day is filled with lots of food, beer, wine, and chicha (a very sweet Chilean version of sangria, made from fermented grapes and lots of sugar and fruit). For my first Fiestas Patrias, I was determined to take advantage of as many things as possible and celebrate each day to the fullest, having the ultimate Chilean experience.

For me, Fiestas Patrias ended up a 6 day celebration, starting with a carnival and barbecue with the kids at the orphanage I visit each week on Friday. Meeting up with other kids who live in orphanages around Santiago, the barbecue was complete with carnival games, kite flying, and a talent show. Many of the kids even dressed in traditional outfits and danced the cueca (shown in picture on right.) It was a great start to a long weekend that included: a picnic day and flying kites; a Chilean rodeo and horse show (picture on left); a walk around the city to view La Moneda (Chile’s White House) and other national monuments/buildings; a climb to the second largest hill in Santiago in order to get a view of the city’s skyline (me and Santiago below); and a military parade, complete with a spectacular fireworks finale.

As if everything listed above wasn’t enough, my friends and I decided to spend a day making empanadas. In the United States, we eat hamburgers and hotdogs for our Independence Day. In Chile, they eat anticuchos (steak kabobs) and empanadas (baked turnovers with a meat filling). The most traditional of all empanadas in Chile is the pino empanada, with a filling of thick sloppy-joe-like meat, a few raisins, a slice of boiled egg, and a pitted olive. We decided to focus primarily on the pino empanada, but also make a few with chicken and cheese, and a few with apple pie filling for dessert (we are from the U.S. after all). It was a lot of fun, but an awfully exhausting process that made me wonder why we are only charged $1.15-$1.50 when buying them at a restaurant. The work alone should raise the price. Either way, you can check out for yourself – Ryan made a fun video of the process and of us making the empanadas:


In the end, Fiestas Patrias was celebrated just as any national holiday should: with good friends, good food, and good times. The city is back to work now and so am I...at least until the next feriado. :-) ¡Vive Chile!



As, as always, photos and videos courtesy of Ryan Greenberg and Natalie Nathan. Thank you so much!

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Comida Sobre Ruedas with Brother Donald

Each Wednesday morning I walk 15 minutes to La Parroquia San Roque where I work in a program called Comida Sobre Ruedas, or Meals on Wheels. This program, started and run by Brother Donald, prepares and delivers food to the elderly who are too poor and/or unable to cook nutritious meals by themselves.

My day begins around 9:00am when I take a look at the day’s menu. It is a bit overwhelming at first. Everything is in Spanish (duh) and everything is in large quantities. The description of “large quantities” is not an adequate description when you realize that the recipes are designed to cook food for 50 people. Also, most of the ingredients are listed in weighted measurements and here in Chile, the metric system is used. It is not uncommon to find 12 kilos of carrots, 4 kilos of celery, 900 grams of onion, and 600 ml of broth for a recipe, and that is just for the soup. Thus, my major task within the first few weeks at Brother Donald’s kitchen was learning how to read the recipe and use the scale.

In Chile, the largest meal of the day is lunch, so each meal involves a main dish, a side dish, soup,
salad, and bread. Luckily, the tasks are divided among 4 Chilean women, Brother Donald, and me. I have made the soup, the main dish, the salad, the salad dressing, and one time, even the bread –an important, honorable, and rare task in our kitchen that usually only Brother Donald does. Nevertheless, each woman has their favorite; Anna usually likes to make the main dish and the soup, Angelica the salad and side dish (rice or potatoes), Carmen washing the dishes we create, and Magdalena and I chop all the vegetables in preparation for the next day. Cooking everything is a 5 hour task that results in a well-balance and nutritious meal for each of the 45 meals on wheels recipients.










Yesterday, the menu was the following (recipe pictured above):

Merluza a la Cacerola: Baked Hake (fish) served with a tomato and onion sauce flavored with red wine

Arroz con lentejas y zanahorias: Rice with lentils and carrots

Ensalada de Repollo: Cole Slaw

Sopa de Albondigas: Clear chicken broth soup made with large potato chunks, celery, carrots, with golf ball sized meatballs (I LOVED THIS)

Pan de Bollos Baker House: the title of the recipe for fresh baked bread

The delivery of the food is a system in itself. Each recipient is assigned a number and their meals are placed within the containers that correspond to the number. Main and side dishes are placed in insulated containers to keep the food warm, soups are placed in thermoses, salads in small Tupperware bowls, and bread in a small brown bag. Not only is it organizational, but helps if someone is allergic or does not favor a certain food and an alternate meal can be provided. Thus, Thermos #17 and insulated container #17 go into box #17 with a salad and bread. This box is delivered to recipient #17, Abuela Lucia on Tobalaba Street, by a volunteer couple Paula and Jaime.

The day is not done yet. While Paula and Jaime deliver the food, we enjoy ourselves by eating the food we prepared. The hard work is rewarded by simply great food. (In my mind, there is no reason to say I do not eat in Chile, especially when I work at Brother Donald’s kitchen.) During this time we chat about anything and everything, as most do during their lunch breaks. I have learned about the lives of the women I have become close to and they have learned about mine. This time with them has become as important to my experience here in Chile as the work that I do.

After washing the dishes from lunch, the morning volunteers leave and the afternoon volunteers arrive. As an Associate, I volunteer to work both the morning and afternoon shifts. The afternoon group brings two women, Chalita and Rosita, as fast at talking as they are washing the dishes. Sometimes I have to ask these women two or three times to repeat what they have said to me because their Spanish is so fast and hard to understand, which is always a good laugh after the meaning finally becomes clear.

Around 3:00pm, Paula and Jaime return to the Parroquia with dishes received the food delivered the day before. Taking lids off containers and off Thermoses, we place each in their own separate tub to be washed. Then, Chalita and Rosita go to the kitchen to begin the task of washing each of the total 350 items. I volunteered once to help wash and as I helped they complained that I was just too slow. I said I was being extra precautious to make sure it was clean and sanitized. They handed me a towel and told me to wait, I would be “la secadora experta” or, expert dryer. “Are they patronizing me?” I thought. Yes, yes they were. But our system works, and before you know it, all the dishes are cleaned, organized, and placed in the storage cabinet to be used the next day. It is 4:15pm and time to go home.

That’s life for me each Wednesday as I work for Comida Sobre Ruedas in Brother Donald’s kitchen. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to cook again for just 5 people instead of the 50 that I have become accustomed to. Regardless, Wednesday has become one of my favorite days of the week and it just keeps getting better and better. Oh…and did I mention that I get to home leftovers if there are any? BONUS!

Thursday, August 23, 2007

One Year in South America

Today is August 23, 2007: I have been living in South America for exactly one year.

Realizing that I would like to commerate this event on my blog, I sat down and attempted to describe everything that I have experienced in this time and all the changes that I have gone through. I quickly realized this is an impossible task. So impossible in fact that not only can I not find the exact words to express all I want to say, but I know that whatever I come up with will not be satisfactory.

On this blog at the same time last year (when I was writing something like 2 or 3 entries a week, haha), I made predictions and expectations about the upcoming journey I was about to embark upon. It is funny yet shocking to realize what answers still hold true and what would change if I were to write them today:

a. What are the five things that you are most looking forward to about going abroad?
1. language training/language fluency
2. experiencing a new culture
3. meeting new people
4. changing my world perspective
5. doing/experiencing things that only this opportunity in South America can provide me

All of these have happened and all of these continue to be something that I look forward to each day that I live here, although #1#5 have proven harder to acheive than expected. For my remaining time here, I am adding a #6: I am looking forward to taveling and taking advantage of surrounding countries and cultures

b.What are the five things that currently worry you most about going overseas?
1. saftey
2. homesickness/health of family
3. Loneliness
4. Frustrations in communication with others through a foreign language
5. not getting back into the country (for whatever reason - who knows!!)

#1 is something that has to always be remembered, but it has become a part of daily life. #2, homesickness, has occurred and I know it will occur, it sucks but is something that comes and goes with any experience away from home. Health of family has had a scare or two, although nothing has required me to visit home. Despite this it continues to be a worry while I am here and would remain the top of my list if I were to write this today. If I could sum up a large part of my struggles here, it would be #3 and #4. As far as #5, I guess we will have to see.

I would also add #6: people changing/friendships changing, not being "the same" when I get back home

c. What are five things you believe you will miss most from home when you are abroad?
1. mama's cookin' :-)
2. friends and family
3. life moments/milestones for family and friends
4. deep conversations with people in a language I understand
5. being involved/being a leader in my community

#1, #2, and #3 are absolutely correct and remain so to this day. #4 has not been a problem - I have had "deep" conversations in my foreign language as well as with the other Americans I live with. Surprisingly, I do not miss #5 much. Although some opportunites to take a "leadership" or "more responsibility" role have been presented, I have found that regardless of what job it is or the amount of responsibility, the work goes beyond being happy or personally satisfied at the end of the day. Sometimes, just being there is all that matters.

Eliminating #4 and #5, I would now replace it with: watching sports, especially KC Cheifs and ND football; a clear night sky in the country where all the stars can be seen

d. What are three things (people, places, activities, etc.) you believe you will miss least from home when you are abroad?
1. gluttony of America/processed foods
2. materialism and consumerism
3. America's obsession with celebrities

Yeah, too bad I didn't realize that globalization makes it near impossible to esacpe all three items on this list. Chile is a progressing country with constant influence from the United States and other "first world" countries, both in culture and in language. This is particularly true in the wealthy areas of Santiago. In the less wealthy areas, all three items on this list exists but in a milder form. The options are not as abundant as the United States (for example, they only have 8 versions of shampoo compared to our 17, ha!) and food is bought at the market and local indpendent corner stores. Yet, occassionally, a meal at McDonalds or Pizza Hut is purchased and a movie at Blockbuster is rented. All in all, regardless of where I am here in Santiago, I feel that if need something here I can pretty much find it (although it is hard to find chocolate chips for some reason...)

Chile also has their own obsession with celebrities (Chilean, U.S. and other international celebrities) with their own version of shows like Entertainment Tonight. In fact, major newspapers even have a section devoted to the latest gossip and it isn't unsual to find a breaking story about a celebrity make the occasional headline.

Despite everything, I have found that an occassional McDonald's meal or cover to cover reading a People magazine sent from the States, is not as bad as I made it out to be before. I have accepted them as a part of my culture, who I am as a person. So much so that all three the items on this list make for great cures for a good case of homesickness. :-)

Today I would replace #1, #2, and #3 with: closed minds and perspectives, particularly regarding international relations and the U.S. role in the world; U.S. obsession with competition and making judgements based on a person's status, job, or where they are going in life or what they have done; U.S. culture of fear

Many times I am asked by Americans and Chileans alike, "What is the biggest difference betwen Chile and the United States?" My answer consists of two parts. First, I tell them that I really only know Santiago and the expression "Santiago no es Chile" (Santiago is not Chile) is certainly correct. Second, I say that while Chileans place a larger emphasis on personal relationships, particularly those between family and between friends, and U.S. has a knack for efficiency those in Santiago simply have no clue about, I do not claim these to be my final answers. Right now, I do not know the answer. Looks like I need more time to figure it out.

I am concluding with a suggestion to look back at my previous blog entries, especially those written while I was in Bolivia, September to December 2006. Some are quite hilarious, some are an attempt to be insightful, and others well...just posting for the sake of posting something. In the end, while I know that the reflections above and all my previous blog posts combined do not fully describe my first year in South America, they at least make an attempt at the impossible. At least I know I can revisit this blog post next year.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Argentina Fun

Living in Chile, I am constantly reminded of how close we are to Argentina. The large Andes Mountains, now covered in snow and always visible, serve as the border between the two countries. Having grown up in the center of the United States, the thought of easily traveling to another country is fascinating, and something I usually associate with well-planned and well-financed vacations.

The view from the roof of our apartment building















First snow of the winter, views of the Andes Mountains near our apartment building


That is why, when I learned that for twenty dollars we could take a seven-hour bus from Santiago and drive through the Andes to Mendoza, Argentina, it immediately became an item on my “Must Do In Chile” list. This item was marked off the list as Patrick, Natalie, Roy, and I packed our bags and made an impromptu weekend trip to Mendoza two weeks ago.

Travel books and all Chileans say that Argentina is famous for three things: ice cream, shopping (particularly books, cds, and clothes that are barely taxed and incredibly cheap compared to Chile), and meat. The last two were our main focus, as shown by our first meal in Argentina at an all-you-can-eat steak restaurant followed by several bookstore visits.

For two days, we walked all around the small but very modern town, saw the beautiful plazas and parks, shopped, ate, shopped some more, and then ate some more. We even became accustomed to Argentinean Spanish, something beautiful that only can be described as the Spanish language spoken with an accent like an Italian who speaks English. Boarding the bus to return to Santiago, I was happy with our visit, knowing that we took all that Mendoza had to offer.









Walking in Mendoza and the Plaza Independencia



















One of Argentina's many national banks

We drove an hour and a half to the base of the mountains. We knew immediately that something was wrong when we saw a large line of cars and buses parked on the side of the road that stretched for what seemed like miles. This was confirmed as our bus joined the long line and turned off its engine. "The passage through the mountains has been closed due to strong winds," the driver told us. "We are going to wait here and I am sure the passage will be opened soon," he also said. And so...we waited. I journaled about the experience and continued with the knitting project I had brought along for the 2 day trip . We even got out of the bus to enjoy the beautiful scenery that surrounded us.

5 hours later...we were told we were going back to Mendoza. The passage would not be opened today. An hour and a half later, we arrived back in the small town and were told to come back to the bus terminal at 8:00am the next morning to catch the early bus home.

The next day we awoke to news reports saying a snowstorm had passed through the Andes Mountains and travel through the mountains should not be expected. Only after arriving at the bus terminal at 8:00am and waiting for an hour and a half, this was confirmed - they were not even going to let us on the bus and attempt the trip. The passage was definitely closed and we would have to return again at 8:00am tomorrow to attempt traveling home.

After going back to the hostel and sleeping for another three hours (out of pure exhaustion I assumed), Natalie and I decided to leave the boys behind and have a "girls day" in Argentina. We, again, did everything immaginable in Mendoza, walking for almost the entire day before collapsing in our bed that night.

The next day, day 4 of our planned 2 day journey, we arrived again at 8:00am. We sat in the bus terminal for almost 2 1/2 hours...each passing hour brought pessimistic thoughts as no amount of information was communicated to us by the bus company. Finally, at 10:30am, we were told we could board the bus. We were excited and thought "this could be the day" although experience was telling us to believe otherwise.

After driving one and a half hours, again, to the base of the mountains, we saw the long line of cars and buses...again. We pulled to the side of the road...again. We were told the passage was closed and we would have to wait to see if it would open...again. This experience was no longer unfamiliar.

We passed the time as much as we could. I actually ran out of yarn to knit my sweater, the only "free time" activity that I brought with me. That's right - I didn't even bring a book. But hey, it was only supposed to be a two day trip.

4 1/2 HOURS LATER, we were all convinced we were going back to Mendoza, once again. This was troublesome as our funds were beginning to get low (remember all that shopping!) and our good memories of Mendoza were being tested. Frustration and impatience was high. I decided to get out of the bus to stretch my legs, walking along the long line of vehicles and admiring the scenery. I couldn't believe the large number of people trying to get through the mountains; I had to remind myself that it was three days worth of traffic attempting to make up for lost time. With 20 minutes left until the scheduled turn-around, I heard the bus driver yelling "Let's go, we can go through, everyone back on the bus!" Before I knew it, we were speeding through the Andes Mountains, attempting to be the first through the expected long line and wait at Customs. Pictured: Me as I wait to cross through the mountains

Snow was everywhere and it was clear why the passage had been closed. Nevertheless, seeing the Andes Mountains, especially as it turned dark and the stars illuminated against the snow, was simply amazing. "Majestic" is the only word I can use to describe them. A sight of God's beauty and a truly once-in-a-lifetime experience that I will never forget.

Combined with the 3 hour wait at Customs, it took us 14 hours to get from Mendoza, Argentina to Santiago, Chile. Learning experiences aside (uh...never again during the Winter), we had a great time and I am glad that I had this experience. It seems that now, whenever I see the Andes Mountains, I am not only reminded of how close we are to Argentina, but about the great adventure where a good time was had, beautiful sites were seen, and unexpected events allowed for a truly unique story.

Me in front of a mountain at Customs and the boarder between Argentina and Chile, and other various photos of our journey driving through the Andes Mountains.





































Tuesday, July 10, 2007

new phone number

In Pocuro, a telephone land line is not as common as one might think. In the past, Associates had to walk down the dirt road to a corner in order to use a pay phone to call home. Just a few years ago, Associates invested in a cell phone, providing for a bit more convenient and safe method of maintain communication with friends and family. This option was expensive. Minutes on the phone were always precious and longer than a minute on the phone caused us to panic. Even worse, the reception was not great and it was expensive for those who called from the United States (30 cents a minute compared to the usual 15 cents!). Nevertheless, it was the only reasonable option available in the small campo town.

When we moved to Santiago (the "big city" as I like to call it, haha), we kept the cell phone. Minutes were still precious, reception not great, and phone calls received from the U.S. were still expensive to those calling. A few months ago, we were told that a phone line could be installed in our apartment. We jumped for joy, knowing that a land line would be best for everyone.

Finally, more than a month later, our new phone line is installed! It is now really cheap to call us and the reception is great. With it, came our new telephone number. To call me from the United States is the following:
011-56-2-271-1609
A future blog will account Chile's version of doing something "on time" or "within the next week." Needless to say, Chileans say "nacimos atrasados" or "we were born late." What should have only been a few days wait for the phone line was a month. I guess in Chile there are just some things worth waiting for...and this phone line is definitely one of those things.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

A Badge of Honor

The 4th of July came and went here in Chile without much celebration by us gringos. It was a nice sunny day, a break from the rain and cold that we have been experiencing. In the afternoon, I took a nice walk around the neigborhood and in the evening, I went to the local supermarket to do our monthly grocery shopping. Because most Chileans spent the evening in front of their television sets watching the Chile vs. Mexico soccer game, the supermarket was not crowded as usual and I was able to shop without much hassle.

When I went to bed around 10:00pm, I started thinking about my day and about 4th of July. First, I was surprised how many Chileans were aware of the day's significance for me and for the United States. All of my co-workers wished me a "Happy 4th of July" as well as most of my students. Even Ryan mentioned that Don Roberto, our evening door man for our apartment, wished him a "Happy Day of Independence" in his English that he is desperately trying to improve.

To be honest, I only learned the date for the Independence Day of Chile about two weeks ago...and I only found out because it was the name of a street I was walking on and asked my Chilean friend about the significance of it. I certainly did not know the date before I came to Chile and I certainly did not learn it in school - there was no reason to. The fact that I had to show many people where Chile was on the map and mention that it was in South America leads me to believe that many other gringos would not know Chile's Day of Independence as well. Regardless, it is not the norm to learn of Chile's Day of Indpendence in School...in English classes here in Chile, a 4th of July celebration happens every year.

Also thinking about the day, I was surprised at how the aforementioned well-wishers spoke to me about the holiday. It was if the holiday was something I should be very proud of, a part of my heritage and celebrating the day would be celebrating who I am as a person. The only thing I can think of as a comparison is wishing "Happy Hanukkah" to someone who celebrates the Jewish faith. Sure, I understand the history of the day and why it is celebrated, but never before have I thought about the 4th of July as a celebration of my identity as an American.

Lastly, I realized how blessed I have been to celebrate this day in very different places and how those memories make this day a truly important to me in how I live my life. Just three years ago, I was in Washington, DC and sitting with friends on the grass in the National Mall between the Lincoln Memorial and the Washington Monument. We spent the whole day there, playing football and frisbee, eating hot dogs and hamburgers, having a good ol' American holiday. Seeing the fireworks that night, with the monuments in the same view, is something that I will never forget.

Just as spectacular are the fireworks in my hometown, Parkville. Growing up I have spent many 4th of July weekends volunteering for the American Legion serving food in the park, watching the small-town parade, riding carnival rides, eating carnival treats, and finishing off the weekend with Parkville's famous and amazing fireworks display over the Missouri River. Most often, I would spend each night in the summer heat, hanging out with friends afterward. If for some reason Parkville was not my location for the holiday, I would usually be at the lake and fish the entire weekend, enjoying my time in the sun with family.

All in all, I do not have one bad memory about the 4th of July and I'd have to say now that it is one of my favorite holidays. Too bad that it took living in a foreign country to realize it. Only one more 4th of July to celebrate here until I am back home to continue such great memories. As far as next year, you can guarantee next year's celebration will come with a different perspective and a set of plans to celebrate, wearning the day as a badge of honor.


This was too cute, I just had to include it. :-)

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

An update on life

Many of you have contacted me via email or phone, asking if I have dissappeared off of the face of the planet. Afterall, no phone calls, no emails, no letters, no messages on facebook, and certainly no blog posts for almost a whole month. So what is up?

Work is the excuse again. Three weeks ago I arrived to work at Saint George's College, the school where I have organized a debate team, revamped and now head the student exchange program, and teach a "Fun Friday" class to 11th graders once a week. As soon as I arrived, I was told that one of the teachers was ill and the school was unable to get a subsitute - would I be able to be the substitute for the day? Always willing to help, I said yes and found myself teaching and continuing English lessons with two classes of high school Seniors, two classes of Juniors, and two classes of Sophomores.

When the day ended, I was exhausted. All I wanted to do was to go straight home and go to bed. Gathering my things, the Director of the English department approached me and asked, "Do you think you come tomorrow and take the classes again? The students will be watching a movie in each one of their classes, so it should be very easy." Reluctantly I agreed.

The second day was a breeze. I was merely a baby sitter who took attendence. At the end of the day, I rejoiced knowing that I would not have to be a full-time teacher again. That feeling lasted about three minutes: we received notice that the teacher was actually admitted to a clinic for depression and was on medical leave for the rest of the week and the following week. The question was posed again: would I be the replacement teacher? All I would have to do is finish the movie with the students and be with them as they complete exercises in the computer lab each day next week.

I thought about this decision for a while. This work was not what I wanted to do and certainly not what I came to Chile to do. I had other obligations and other jobs as a volunteer Associate; choosing to take this position would mean to not fulfill these duties. But, I had become close to the students and to the other teachers in the department. I also knew what a tough position the deparment was in - it was also trying to find 5 other permanent teachers for those whose contracts were ending before the winter vacation...so I agreed.

The week was fairly easy. The students completed their computer lab exercises and I was glad to finally get back to my life again. On Monday the next day we received another medical excuse - the teacher I was replacing would not come back until after the upcoming Winter vacations (think our three weeks of Winter vacations for Christmas and New Years but in the middle of July, Winter here). Again, the department asked me to replace the teacher, until they find someone else who can. This time, I declined.

My view is that this position is a full-time position and the students need someone who is qualified for the role (I have a very limited education background - and speaking the language is not a qualification for a good teacher). As I said earlier, I feel that this is something that I cannot do while maintaining my other responsibilities as an Associate. I am missing time with both my home community (leaving early, coming home late, and spending free time grading papers) and my Chilean community. I am also not able to do the other jobs that I agreed to volunteer for while I am here. All in all, I am working 9-10 hours 5 days a week, way more than the 20-30 that is expected of me, and these hours are doing a job that I did not come down to Chile to do.

Later that day, the department asked me to reconsider my decision, stating that it was an emergency and they would not ask an Associate to take this position if it was not. They told me this was not a permanent position and I would only be helping out until they find a replacement, hopefully before vacations. In the end, I agreed to take the position, with the promise that the department would help me make the job as smooth as possible.

I did the job last week and so far, the department has kept their promise, helping me out as much as I can. I am teaching 10th graders about the use of the gerrand, 11th graders about discourse markers and question tags, and 12th graders are working on a project about the Cold War. With exception of a few pain in the ass 10th graders, I enjoy the kids and as far as I can tell, they enjoy me. I do not, however, enjoy my job. Each day makes me question what I am doing. They say that time spent teaching is never lost - but is that true?? I feel like I should be somewhere else, doing something else. It pains me to know that this school would continue on without me, so why do I continue to do this work? Why can't I just say NO, leave the school, and let it struggle on its own? I feel like it would be reaching too much to say that God wants me here, wants me to be a presence in these kids lives. Regardless, I believe these questions will continue for the next three weeks...my hunch is that the department will not find a replacement before vacations.

And so, that is where I am now in my life. I wake up each morning at 5:15am, get in the shower, eat a bit of breakfast, and I am out the door by 6:15am. I walk 10 minutes to the subway and after a 20 minute subway trip, I have an hour long trip by city bus, arriving around 7:30am. I end my day around 4:30pm and if I am lucky, catch the bus before rush hour to make it home around 7:00pm. I eat a bit of dinner, visit with Natalie and Ryan for many an hour, and am usually so exhausted that I go to bed.

If this experience has taught me anything, it has given a glimpse into the world of people who, regardless of their ethnicity or social class, have a job that they hate but get up morning after morning to do the daily grind because they have to in order to survive. I ride to work with these people each morning; I hear them complain about their job, their boss, their low wages. Many of them are men, construction workers who start at dawn and end at dusk. Any women I see are usually in maid uniforms, either child care workers, servants, or both. I feel a sense of solidarity with them, but I know that it is only superficial; I do not depend on this job inorder to survive and in two weeks time, I will leave this job for something that I feel called to do.

God has truly blessed me with such an amazing and unique opportunity, to live in a foreign country and listen to my heart and to God, going where the spirit takes me in order to serve others. While I am not sure if I am using this opportunity at the moment, I will certainly never take it for granted when my teacher position ends.

I look forward to the many phone calls, emails, letters, and blogs in my future. I thank you all so very much for caring and worrying about me; I love and miss you so very much, more than you all know. Have a wonderful 4th of July!

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Please pray

Each time I have posted a prayer request, a good result always follows. While I am definitely not taking credit for such outcomes (God please forgive me if it sounds this way), extra prayers at the result of these postings have not exactly hurt.

This time I am asking that you please pray for Caitlin Early, her mother Patricia, and the rest of Caitlin's family. Caitlin, a fellow Chile Associate, has been in the United States for the last 2 weeks to be with her mother as she goes through operations and treatment for her breast cancer. The experience has been very difficult for everyone as the status of the cancer becomes clearer each day. It is asked that your pray not only for the health of Patricia but the spiritual health of the entire family, that they know God is with them through this difficult time.

Thank you.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Harry Potter Mania


My feelings toward Harry Potter in the beginning could best be described as utter confusion. Why were adults, including my high school history teacher, going crazy over these books when they are for kids? I was convinced that it was another craze that would slowly die out like the Tamagotchi or Pogs. The summer after graduating from high school, I read the fourth Harry Potter book, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (like most Americans, I thought that watching the first three movies was a sufficient replacement for the task of reading the books themselves). I enjoyed the book and continued to the fifth that had already been released, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. My love for the Harry Potter story was sealed as the book was finished in two days.

Looking for the next book to continue the series, I was told that I had to wait two years; the sixth would not be released until 2005. Right then I decided that I would not read the sixth Harry Potter book when it was released, but wait until all seven of the Harry Potter books are in print then start the series reading book one. The advantage to this decision is eliminating the usual one or two year period waiting for the next book to be released. After finishing one book, I would be able to continue reading the series at my leisure. Additionally, small details and characters would be remembered easily as they usually are forgotten within that one or two year gap. The disadvantage to this decision is waiting four years for the entire series to be finished before another Harry Potter book is read.

To no one’s surprise, my life continued without Harry Potter. Four years later, I am a completely different person (some would say a grown adult) with a college degree and on a strange journey living in a foreign country for two years. Despite this, my feelings toward this series have returned as I anxiously await the release of the seventh and last book due on July 21st. Believing the publicity leading up to the seventh book would reveal some secrets of the sixth that I had not yet read, I decided a month ago that now was the perfect time to start the series and re-insert Harry Potter into my life. Thank goodness for the generosity of family and friends of former Associates; between both houses, HCA Chile owns a complete set of the Harry Potter books.

The following schedule, giving more time for the larger books, was developed for fear of a large gap between the sixth and seventh book if all 6 were read too quickly:
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Book 1: May 5-12 (1 Week)
Book 2: May 13-20 (1 Week)

Book 3: May 21-June 4 (2 Weeks)

Book 4: June 5-19 (2 Weeks)

Book 5: June 20-July 4 (2 Weeks)

Book 6: July 4-21 (2 Weeks)
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I knew that this schedule would have to be a bit flexible, particularly as I was giving the third book (320 pages) the same amount of reading time as the 6th book (652 pages). Nevertheless, I started the schedule with a determination to see it done as close to the timeline as possible.

I was right about forgetting small details and characters. It seemed with each book that I was experiencing the story for the first time, not knowing what would happen next. I was wrong about the movies being a good replacement for the books. In fact, there are many fundamental changes between the books and the movies, many of which I have major issues with and am quite frustrated with (this can be reserved for a future blog, haha). What I was most wrong about, however, was the amount of time I would read each book and when I would finish all six books. The schedule actually resulted in the following:
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Book 1: May 7-9 (3 Days)

Book 2: May 10-12 (3 Days)

Book 3: May 13-17 (5 Days)

Book 4: May 17-20 (4 Days)

Book 5: May 21-27 (6 Days)

Book 6: May 31-June 3 (4 Days)
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In short, my 10 week plan was finished in a little more than 3 weeks (26 days to be exact.) As you can see, I finished both the first and the second book combined in less time than I allotted to reading each book one. In fact, each book was finished in less than a week, less than the amount I allotted to finishing each book one and book two. Even more shocking, all six books were finished before I was scheduled to start the fourth book.

I decided to trash the schedule very early on. The mere presence of a schedule took all the fun out of reading the books. I read them at a regular pace (i.e. during any spare moment I had, on the subway, on the bus, during breaks at work, and reading a few chapters before bed each night that occasionally caused me to dream I was a student at Hogwarts, haha.) The downside to my pace is that I now have to wait to finish the series despite my best efforts to prevent such dilemma.

I do not expect to start my finish of the series on July 21st. First, the book will not be bought here in Chile because it will cost twice as much as it would in the U.S. Second, the book will take a week or so to arrive even if the book is shipped from the U.S. on the release date (Amazon does not do international orders, we looked). Lastly and problematically, five of the six HCA Chile Associates are waiting to read the book. This has been briefly discussed among the community. A separate bookmark system and an allotted time system have both been suggested to allow all of us to read the book at the same time. Nothing has been settled at this point, but it will be a real test for the community pillar.

Regardless, Harry Potter mania is back in full force in my life and as the mania will increase each day for the world as it gets itself ready for the last book to be released. Barnes and Noble will have their parties on July 21st and if I were not in South America, I am not ashamed to say I would be there. Harry Potter has been around for the last 10 years (can you believe it??) and I am fully convinced that Harry Potter mania will not end with the last book. Children will read these books for generations to come and a new theme park that is being developed will ensure Harry Potter’s legacy. In fact, I plan to visit the park someday, maybe with my own children after they have finished reading the books themselves.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My New Boyfriend

The end of fall and the beginning of the Chilean winter has arrived. Leaves that changed colors a month ago have started to fall to the ground and each morning brings a cold breeze and frost on car windshields. Under normal circumstances, I would say that it is mid-October or November in the United States. Instead, however, it is the end of May in Chile and as many Americans have just spent their Memorial Day weekend outside, I am inside huddled around an electric heater.

Unlike many houses in the United States, most houses in Chile do not have central heating. This means that typically, houses are the same temperature inside as they are outside (or colder, as demonstrated by the Ictinos house). As Winter progresses, I am finding it a growing task to escape from the cold.

My fellow Chile Associates and I have found many ways to keep warm. Natalie learned to knit back in August and has advanced to knitting each of us head/ear warmers that we always wear in the house. Scarves have been a must for us when walking out of the house. We have certainly got our money’s worth out of the tea kettle and despite the dental effects, I can always be found with a cup of warm tea in my hand. Wool socks have also become my new best friend. Bed attire is not complete without a thick SMC hoodie and flannel pajama pants. Those who know me well know that my natural body temperature is higher than the average person, and thus, I am a cold sleeper who needs several blankets on my bed regardless of what season it is. I jokingly laughed the other day as I realized my bed now contains two fleece blankets, a down comforter, a sleeping bag, and my t-shirt quilt I made and brought from the U.S. in order to combat the chill in my room.

Despite all of this, I have found that my salvation from a chilly night is the presence of my new boyfriend Guatero (pronounced wa-tair-o). No, this is not a public announcement of a new relationship nor an attempt to discredit my claim that I will never date Chilean men. Guatero is the Chilean term for “hot water bottle” and my Guatero has developed a life and personality of his own. It all started when my housemates realized my ritual of boiling water before bed symbolized my attachment to the object and my inability to go to bed without it. The joke is now that I am going to bed with my boyfriend and all subsequent jokes about my boyfriend providing warmth, etc. follow. In response, I tell them that my boyfriend is continuing to serve his purpose as any good boyfriend should. ;-)

I am told that the cold has just begun and this is nothing compared to what I will experience come July or August. If this is the case, my thoughts of Guatero make me feel like Rick Blaine at the end of Casablanca: “this is the start of a beautiful relationship…”




















My new boyfriend, Guatero, and me

Monday, May 14, 2007

Earthquake in Chile

The first time that I felt a tremor was in Bolivia, early in the morning before class. It was slight, about 10 seconds or so, and not strong enough for any significant damage. All I heard was the “clink” of my glass of water against the glass plate under it and my door ever-so-slightly rattle in the door frame, with a small moving sensation in my chest.

The second and third time I felt a tremor were in Pocuro, also early in the morning. Again, nothing large, just enough to wake me slightly and for me to realize what was going on.

The fourth time I felt a tremor I was in the worst possible place – sitting in a dentist chair in Santiago, on the 12th floor of the building, while the dentist was cleaning my teeth. This tremor was a little stronger this time and due to our location it was definitely felt by all – so much so that my dentist stopped his work and went to the door frame, leaving me in the chair with the small hose continuing to suck the water out of my mouth. Real nice guy he was.

At this point, I considered myself no stranger to tremors. They were common, a part of Chile, and ojála (God willing), I would not experience anything stronger than a tremor throughout my two years.

God was not willing. All 7 of the Holy Cross Chile Associates were sleeping in the Pocuro house after a long weekend of packing in order to move to Santiago the next morning. Although it will be remembered as the last night that Holy Cross Chile Associates were in that house, it will also be remembered as the night I was awoken by a 5.2 earthquake at 6:30am in the morning.

It felt like a tremor at first. I felt my bed moving and a hanging picture bang up against the wall. As it became stronger and stronger, I wondered how long it would last, whether anyone else was aware of what was going on, and if not, whether I should wake them. I heard a few pots and pans shift in boxes and heard a loud crash outside (source still unknown). This was legitimate, this was real. I jumped out of my bed, still in my sleeping bag, ran (okay, hopped) to the doorframe and it stopped. Was it a tremor?

After my heart stopped racing, tears came streaming to my eyes. That was scary.

Little did I know, I was completely along in my fright. Natalie, Caitlin, and Emily all felt what I felt, but were not scared like I was in the slightest. The boys all slept through it.

We learned the next morning that there had been a large 6.2 earthquake the night before, 1,700 miles south of Santiago that caused severe damage and mudslides. What I felt happened around 6:30am (I distinctly remember looking at my clock after it happened) and we were roughly 150 miles north of Santiago. What I felt had to be late aftershock – wow, what an aftershock it was.

Four days later I found this article and thanks to the very last tiny paragraph, I now know that I was not going crazy!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Change of Address

In February, the Associates in Pocuro decided that we would move to Santiago. This decision was a culmination of many things, but mostly that the little town of Pocuro had changed, had grown, and the work of the Associates that started 10 years ago was no longer needed.

What happened after this decision is a long tale, filled with changing decisions on where we were going to live and who we were going to live with. At one point, we were decided that those in the Santiago house should move too. The house is in horrible condition and we are spending a lot of money each month for repairs, and also Patrick, Natalie, and I will be living together anyway in our second year. Thus, for some time, we were searching for a house for 7 people, to rent for 2 years, in the same low-income neighborhood as the current Santiago house. This was an impossible task. Not only could we not find the size we were looking for in this neighborhood (remember - one of our pillars is simple living) but we were attempting to rent in an area that does not do anything but sell. In the end we decided on an apartment, for only the Pocuro Associates, just outside the neighborhood we were looking. It is nice and all next week we will be saying goodbye to scenic living, closing the Pocuro house, and moving into our new home in Ñuñoa, Santiago.

My new address is the following:

Asociados de Santa Cruz
c/o Michelle Fitzgerald
Casilla 8
Correo 59
Santiago, CHILE

When I decided to live in Pocuro, I knew I would only live there for a year and move to Santiago to work for my second year. My program is closing and Patrick, Natalie, and I are the last group of Associates that have been coming to Chile since the early 1970s. When I was informed that the program was closing during my orientation in August, I did not think much of it. Sure, it is a large burden for us to carry, closing down both houses and being the last representatives of all the associates who came before us. But, programs close and lives move on. My two years would be the same as any other year in the program only I would change houses after a year.

Last Sunday we spoke to the Pocuro community at the end of mass and explained our plans to move sooner than expected and hopes that someone can help us find a place for our dog Memo (he grew up in the campo and there is simply no way he will survive in the big city). It was then I realized that in August I severely underestimated how this move, regardless when it happens, would be hard for everyone - the Associates, friends of the Associates, and the local Church communities. This was shown after mass by the reactions and many tears of those who lives have been touched by the Associates throughout the years.

Although we still stand by our decision to move now instead of in November, I am finding each day that the position the Church and the Congregation has placed us in, by deciding to close the program, is a difficult and unfair one. We are just a bunch of college graduates wanting to do service because we feel this is what God is calling us to do at this time in our lives. We want to change our lives and touch lives in the process. This requires certain sacrifices, we understand. Being responsible for closing down a program is certainly not one we signed up for. All I hope is that our new home will allow us to continue to do our work and be a presence of God to others. At this point, it is the only way I can see honoring the work of all those that have previously participated in this program as we start to pack up their legacy into moving boxes.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

To busy to write a blog…please leave a message after the beep.

So it has been one month and 11 days since I have posted on my blog, something I thought would never happen and honestly cannot believe. I would like to blame it on some freak occurrence, such as my inability to speak English anymore or my house actually burning down (okay, well maybe not that excuse). The only explanation I can possibly come up with is that I have just been too busy. Time has a way of escaping us here. The days seem to drag on for what seem like forever but the weeks and months just fly by. To think it is April and that I have now been in Chile for more time than I was in Bolivia is simply shocking.

About the time the last blog was written, summer vacation had just ended in Chile and everyone was starting to go back to work (most take off work for the summer months). Work started up for the Holy Cross Associates as well, which meant we, the first years, had the daunting task of finding jobs that would not only fill up our 20-hour a week requirement but would be fulfilling enough to justify not living and working in the United States. Summer camps, trips to the beach, and having enough time to read three books and finish knitting my very first sweater were all nice, but I was excited to get into a regular schedule and rhythm of life, to get into what I am down here to do: work and serve.

From what I am told, the first year is a challenge. We leave Bolivia with the ability to speak a new language and the experience of seeing third-world poverty on a daily basis, ready to start the program we had been accepted to almost an entire year before and been preparing for throughout the last 5 months. Instead we enter Chile at the beginning of summer and the end of the work season, with a lot of free time on our hands. When the job search begins, we are eager and willing to serve in any way possible (as I reflected above). Thus, the typical first year is somewhat frustrating, filled with various odd jobs, agreeing to work wherever help is needed, and “experimenting” with different areas of interest. Such jobs are working in an orphanage, homeless shelter, food kitchen, battered women’s shelter, home for the elderly, or at a nearby school teaching English. The result of this subconscious process is the ability to not only see what Chile has to offer but to discover what talents you possess and can provide the Chilean people in your second year.

As a first year, I have to say that I have been truly blessed with the opportunities that presented themselves to me at the beginning of my search. When I went on the Missions trip in early January, the principal of the high school we were accompanying was in my group. It was only on the 12th of our 14 day trip that I learned what his position was at the school (why no one bothered to fill me in on this major detail is still a mystery to me). Nevertheless, this lack of information allowed me to create an informal relationship with Padre Pepe and at the end of the trip, he offered me a position to work in the English department. Graciously accepting his offer, I emailed him a month before the new school year and had a meeting with the head of the English department soon thereafter. I now work at the high school, coordinate the school’s student exchange program, and teach English to a class of Juniors every Friday. I have permission to do whatever I want for the class and it has now been named by my students as “Fabulous Fun Fridays.”

Within the same meeting with the head of the English department, I was asked, “I know this is random, but do you happen to have any debate experience?” Telling her that yes, in fact I have 8 years of experience, caused her to say that I was sent down from heaven to answer her prayers. I don’t know about that, but I have since started a debate team in order to participate in a tournament sponsored by the Chilean government and the U.S. Embassy. The winners and all schools who show improvement between tournaments receive an increase in next year’s funding of English instruction. Our topic for the first tournament is “Should countries in Africa unite to form a political and economic block?” Yes, a tough one and if have any thoughts on the subject, we are happy to listen.

Also within the beginning of my search, I was eating dinner with one of my Chilean co-facilitators, Isabel, and I told her of my desire to find a job here in Chile in the area of immigrant rights. She told me of Vicaría Social, a social justice non-profit organization sponsored by the Bishop’s Office of Chile where she worked several years ago during the dictatorship. After a few phone calls from my Chilean director, Pedro, I received an interview with the director of the organization and the opportunity to visit each department, determining which I would like to work in. I have chosen the refugee and immigration service office of the organization and for two days a week I will help immigrants from Peru or Colombia, as well as refugees from Africa, become legal citizens and get incorporated into their new life by finding them jobs and housing.

All of my work, combined with volunteering at an orphanage for an hour every night for “homework club,” makes for a very busy week. As I said, I have been very blessed with the opportunities that have been presented to me. This thought did not occur to me at first. My purpose here is to live in solidarity with and serve the poor. I found myself asking, “Is teaching English, coordinating an exchange program, and being the coach of a debate team really fulfilling this purpose? Should I even work at a non-profit, restricting myself to work only in the local food kitchens and orphanages nearby like other Associates?”

Too much as happened for me not to say that God has played a part in what work I am doing. I feel it is no coincidence that the jobs I ended up with are jobs that I am well-suited for. God is with me and with my other Associates as well throughout their search. Sure, my work may change over time and new opportunities may arise. But knowing that someway or somehow, God is involved, provides the comfort that can definitely keep me working here for the next 2 years.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Up in Smoke

Photos for this blog entry were unable to be uploaded at this time, should be up soon. Also, please check the bottom of this blog for a great update about my cousin. Thanks everyone for your prayers, the Lord listened as always!
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We were the first to see the fire. Riding on our bikes to a señora’s house who had invited us over for lunch, Emily and I noticed the large cloud of black smoke that was coming from a field along Pocuro’s main road. The fire was close to the street and we wondered if it was safe enough to pass by; I said yes, Emily followed her instinct and said no. “Maybe we should call the fire department,” she told me. Noticing that there were electrical power lines in the path of the quickly spreading fire, I promptly changed my mind and agreed.

Returning to our house, we turned the corner and saw many people coming out of their houses, smelling the thick smoke and realizing that it was not from the common practice of burning trash or weeds. Others, who had witnessed the smoke from afar, came to either be helpful or just to be nosey. Regardless, in just a matter of minutes, it seemed to us that entire town was in front of our house.

A police officer, who was controlling the situation until the fire department could arrive, told Emily and me that our house was in the direct path of the fire. This did not concern me. We have a large cement wall that separates our house from the field; certainly the wall would save our house from the fire if anything. Five or so minutes later, the same police officer told us that we should start to get our possessions out of the house. I thought, “you have got to be joking,” but Emily and I, just for precautionary sake, went into our house and grabbed the bare essentials. A few moments later, we walked out with two bags each filled with our house money, important papers, iPods, journals, photo albums, digital cameras, and other various items with sentimental value.

I cannot explain to you the look on many of the Chilean’s faces when we walked out with such few items. It was clear they thought we should have more and urged us to go back into the house and grab our clothes. “You have really got to be kidding,” I thought and this time expressed vocally. I did not want to take all of my clothes outside, knowing in just a few moments time I would have to bring them all back in again. Under the infamous pressure of the señoras, we reentered our house. With a sense of urgency that I did not share, about 20 Chileans joined us this time, taking out everything; our clothes, our mattresses and bedding, our television, and furniture from the living room. People were racing in and out of the house, taking items and throwing it in a large pile located just outside of our front gate. Organization and neatness was out the window and before I knew it, our house was bare; almost everything from the inside of our house was now outside in a large pile, in front of the chapel and for all the world to see.

All I could say during this time of complete madness was “this is ridiculous.” If the fire were to burn down our house, I had everything that was important to me. Although I was extremely grateful for the help that was offered to us by our surrounding community, I could not understand why they would want to carry out an old worn-out chair or mattresses that had clearly been used in the house for the last 25 years. My lack of understanding many times caused me to politely tell those who were helping us that the things they were carrying out were not important. This was a lost cause; they would set the unimportant items down and go grab other unimportant items to carry out. Before I knew it, the same items that had been previously set down were again being carried out by people who were unaware of my previous statement.

It took 20 minutes for the fire department to arrive, which I am told is a great response time here in Chile. It took two separate fire departments around 25 minutes to extinguish the flames. In the end, our house did not catch fire, although it did get close…about 10 feet away from the cement wall that I had mentioned earlier. It took us about 2 hours to bring everything back into the house and 4 days later, we felt we had our house back to its original state.

Looking back, a few things have caught my attention. First, I only had two small bags of things that were important to me. I left many items in my room, including my entire wardrobe. Yet, I came here to Chile with three large bags, paying overweight luggage fees along the way. Is this a good thing? Does this say I am not materialistic or does it say that I clearly need to downsize the number of possessions I own? Will I feel the need to bring all of these things back with me to the U.S. when I return? Second, I was so quick to let everything that was not important to me go down in flames. Despite the fact that I did not take the fire seriously, I know that if those items would have burned, I only would have been upset with the inconvenience of finding a new place to live. Possessions lost would not be a problem because my program would replace each item we had lost. Would this have been my reaction if the same were to happen to me in the U.S.? Or would I have run into a burning house to save what I could? Lastly and most shockingly, I did not understand the actions of the Chileans who helped us remove items from our house. Didn't they see that these items were not important? If not, why did they continue to remove items from the house knowing we deemed them unimportant?

Soon after the incident, I learned that in Chile most do not have insurance. An owned house is the most prized possession that one can have here. Most houses are passed down from family to family and the items within it are an accumulation of purchases throughout the years. If their house was to catch fire, their entire life would burn up with it and they would have to restart again from scratch. This is an unthinkable option knowing how little a month’s salary is here. Their willingness to help us and save everything we own when our house was in danger is therefore not only appreciated, but very understandable.

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Thank you everyone for your prayers! Katelynn has had eight operations thus far, the latest providing the best news: despite opposite reports received earlier, doctors will be able to save her foot! Doctors grafted skin from her theigh and muscle from under her arm on to the side of her foot; they head surgeon stated Katie's excellent physical condition allowed her to be the best possible patient a doctor could ask for in this type of procedure. Although she will most likely be unable to continue track and basketball (what the doctor considers extreme sports) she will be able to jog as well as participate in her high school's marching band if everything continues to go well.

All others in the hospital due to the accident have been released from the hospital after a full recovery.

Katelynn was in the spotlight after all this happened; an interview with her appeared on the local news stations several times daily and an article about her was featured in the Kansas City Star. You can check it out here.

She is recovering and continues to improve each day. Thank you again everyone for your prayers.

Also, Roy's grandfather is doing great after a double-bypass heart surgery and has apparently "returned to his good ol' self, giving the nurses a hard time." See - prayers do help and the Lord listens!! :-)

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Please pray

Last night, my two cousins were in a serious car accident. They were returning from a basketball game they had attended with a neighboorhood family when a man ran a stop sign and hit the vehicle. Directly after hitting the vehicle that carried the family and my two cousins, the man hit another vehicle, killing the 19-year old girl who was inside.

The accident smashed the foot of my oldest cousin, Katelynn, causing the firemen to use the "jaws of life" to remove her from the car. The foot lost most of its muscle tissue and fat. Also, the mother of the family (name unknown) endured serve head trauma and possible brain damage caused by a 17 inch cut to head. Both are currently in the hospital. While the son of the family (also name unknown) had to have a few stiches on the forehead, the son, my other cousin, and the father who was driving the vehicle are physically okay.

Many many prayers are requested at this time. Please pray for strength and peace of the families and friends of those involved in the accident, particularly the family and friends of the 19 year-old girl who was killed. Please pray for the mother as she remains in critical condition and will have a long recovery process to reduce the swelling and damage in her brain. Last, but certainly not least, please pray for my cousin, Katelynn Witt, as she undergoes multiple surgeries within the next week to save her foot. Katie is a junior at Basehor-Linnwood High School and her feet are everything to her at this point of her life. She is a star baskeball player, cross country runner, and member of the track team. She also a top piccolo player on the school's Marching Band and has hopes to attend the University of Kansas or Pittsburg State on a track and/or band scholarship. While we are SO grateful that she is alive and does not have more serious or life threatening injuries, my family and I are hoping against the odds that the operations she will undergo within the next week are a success and will allow her to live her life as normal as possible after this traumatizing event.

God Bless and thank you.

Monday, February 05, 2007

CEVA 2007

This blog entry was written on January, 31st but has not been published until now due to the fact that sometimes, the internet cafés are just to damn slow. Thanks for your patience.

Also, please be sure to include the Pequeño family in your prayers. Roy, one of my fellow associates, had to return to the United States yesterday due to sudden complications in his grandfather's health.

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Last week, along with 6 other Chilean volunteers, the Holy Cross Chile Associates organized and participated in CEVA 2007, or Centro de Vacaciones. Each year the local parish center here in Calle Larga sponsors this week long day camp in order to educate the children of the importance of Christian values and how to live out the values in everyday life...and of course, provide a fun filled week filled with activities, crafts, games, and field trips to children that would otherwise not have such opportunities during their summer vacation. I felt that the “fun” aspect of this is crucial to the success of this program; afterall, it is not called “Vacation Central” for nothing.

This year CEVA, with the theme “Yo tambien quiero ser santo!” (I want to be a Saint too!) was located in Valle Alegre, a small pueblo town filled with wine vineyards and beautiful scenic Andes mountains, just located on the outer limits of Calle Larga. Valle Alegre certainly fit its name “Happy Valley” after the end of the week. Outside of the activites that happened each day, such as a usually funny morning theater that presented the value and Saint to be learned that day as well as crafts in the afternoon, the children, ages 4-13, had a great time being sprayed by the hoses of the local firemen one hot afteroon, going to the local pool, and even making the hour bus ride to Santiago for the day visiting the Children’s Interactive Museum and the Santiago Aquarium.

There were plenty of hard days for the Associates throughout the week. The sun was scortching hot and with 50 kids to look after, rarely there was a scheduled break throughout the 10-hour day. I worked with the smallest group, ages 4-6, and it seemed my main task for the week was to run after the kids and keep them in their assigned area and on whatever task we were doing. There were times that kids did not listen to me and moments where I literally thought I lost a child due to their constant need to run off from the group (I swear...I turned my head and the next second they were gone!). Yet, there were also times they never seemed to want to let go of my hand or where they would hug me and say something sweet to me through their baby teethed smiles. Sometimes they even wanted to play “pato pato gonzo” (duck duck goose) with me for what seemed like forever.

In the end, I am exhausted. Even though it is a week later, I am still catching up on sleep. I find myself glad that I can now escape back to my own reality and do not have a child of my own to look after each day (haha). Nevertheless, I am very happy to have had this experience. I have never had so much fun than when I did running in a soccer field and being sprayed by a firehose, running in the muddy water and splashing around with the kids and my fellow associates. The trips to the pool, the Museum, and Aquarium were amazing to experience through the lense of a child. Even the bus ride to Santiago, which I have taken numerous times and usually used as an opportunity to read a book or take a quick nap, was a first time experience for most of the children and seemed to be a fun filled adventure for all, singing songs and constantly looking out the window to point out “bakan” (cool) things to me and the other Associates. Did the children learn the values that we tried to teach them? Do they know what it means to be a Saint? Probably not, but at least we were able to provide them a fun week and, ojalá (God willing), I will be able to do it again next year.


To see a complete set of pictures from CEVA 2007, click here.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Missions 2007: An Arctic Adventure and much much more

Back in November of 2006, when I was still in Bolivia and just beginning to feel confident about my Spanish speaking skills (I had yet to talk to a Chilean…), I received an email from Chile asking if I would like to participate in Misiones, an annual 10-day trip with 100 Chilean high school students from Saint George, a high school in Santiago. This year, the trip would be the first of three to the island of Tranqui in the southern region of Chile. I was told that each new associate would be paired up with an associate who had already been living in Chile for a year, and that each pair would be placed with a group of 15-20 students, ages 16-18. Our jobs would be to chaperone and accompany the group, participating in all activities throughout the trip. Other than this email, the only thing that I had heard about Misiones was that past associates had attended the trip and they felt it was a good and challenging experience, also expressing that it helped with their integration into Chilean Spanish. Knowing my past work experience with this age group, I felt confident that I could handle such task. Also realizing that it was a great opportunity to travel and see the south of Chile, at no expense, I responded to the email with an enthusiastic “yes.” Fortunately for me, all of my other associates did the same, and thus, the HCA Chile Associates were signed up for our first trip together in the new year.

The first thing that I learned on this trip was that the island of Tranqui is actually an island off the coast of a larger island, Chiloe. This meant that after our 16 hour overnight bus ride to the south of Chile, we had to cross to the larger island first; this was done via a barge that carried our two buses as well as several cars across the strip of ocean for about an hour. We quickly felt the chill of the air; this point of Chile is so far south that it rarely warms up, even though it is summer. Once on the larger island, we drove about 2 hours to the other side. At this point, our larger group split into our assigned smaller four groups; each group would “mission” on a separate point on the island of Tranqui. I was assigned to go to the town of Nepué with Roy, another Chile Associate. In order to get to Nepué, we had to take another smaller boat, named the “Doña Ester,” for three hours. On this last boat trip, we encountered what I like to call our “Arctic Adventure”: an icy-rain storm in the middle of the sea that provided difficulty with keeping our luggage dry and at times seemed unbearably cold, yet, we all realized that every moment was an opportunity to truly see beautiful landscapes as well as penguins, sea lions, dolphins, and jellyfish in their natural habitat. It is definitely a memory like no other, but needless to say, when we arrived at Nepué we were exhausted and ready to relax in some place warm.

Little did we know that the island of Nepué, and the warmth of its people, would provide such a place for us throughout the duration of our trip. Since something like 90% of Chile is Catholic, the idea of the missions trip is to “mission” by visiting people in their homes, speaking to them about their daily life, praying with them, and thus, building Christian communities and reaffirming their faith. This concept did not sit well with me at first; I was not the “missioning type” – I certainly did not want to go door to door trying to convert others. I was also worried about the language; Chilean Spanish is completely different than Bolivian Spanish and I already had a hard time communicating. However, upon visiting with the people of Nepué, I quickly realized this my worries were unwarranted and this trip is not what it is seemed to be. Sure, I went with two other high school students every day and knocked on a few doors, but once the visit started it was nothing of a conversion process. We were always welcomed kindly, given tea or instant coffee and some type of bread, and many invited us to stay for lunch. I realized very early on that my visit was not about talking about God, but rather be present and listen to the people of Nepué. Many of the “Nepuanos” never get a chance to take a break from their daily life and talk to someone outside of their town; with a town of no more than 25 houses and one church, everyone knows each other and it is a 3 hour boat trip to the larger island. Also, most, if not all, were excited to meet and speak to me (even if I couldn’t understand them, they could not understand me, or both.) For many, it was their first encounter with a “gringa” (a Spanish nickname given to those from the U.S.). In fact, Señora Felicinda (picture shown here), a vibrant, spunky, and very involved woman at the young age of 84, took a liking to me and nicknamed me her “Little Gringita,” always sure to call me this and give me a little pat on the butt when I saw her. It was only at the end of each visit, usually stuffed full of bread products and tea (those little ladies have a way of pressuring you to eat more and more…), that we would discuss the Church’s daily reading and ask those present if they would like to pray. Yet, although the word “God” or “faith” was somehow saved for last, I truly feel that these visits sent the message that, we as Christians, care for them and want to include them in our Christian community. Anyone who is not shy or embarrassed about their faith should not be ashamed to take such a role.

As a side note, when I say that the Nepuanos never get a chance to take a break from their daily life, I don’t feel I am exaggerating. Daily life is in Nepué is spent cooking, cleaning, tending to house matters, and caring for animals and crops on their farm. If there was a man of the house, he either worked in the seas, collecting seaweed from the sea to sell (apparently they use it to make shampoo but also to eat) or working on a salmon farm. It amazed me to think that the nearest grocery store, post office, and any source of medical care were located on the large island, the 3 hour boat trip away. Even more, the people of Nepué are not able to travel to the island during the winter months, usually 4-6 months out of the year; the sea is just too dangerous for the boats during the winter months. Thus, the people of Nepué are completely self-sufficient, relying on the land and the products of their hard work in order to survive. In a day of globalization, filled with supermarkets and technology to “make our lives easier,” this is becoming harder to find.

Our days were spent “missioning” in the morning and facilitating activities with the children and teens of Nepué in the afternoon. By the end of the week, we could see the fruits of our labor in the attendance of the daily masses – the original attendance of 8 people for Mass when we arrived had increased to about 45-50. In the evening, after a meal prepared by the students on a rotating schedule, we left time out for reflection and of course, fun (afterall, I lived with 20 16-18 year olds). Many of my favorite memories from this trip come from our time in Nepué’s one-room school house, our lodging for the week. Surrounded by mountains, a beautiful ocean view, amazing people, and many things that many are never able to experience in their lifetime, I am excited and anxious to return next year.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

First Christmas away from home, first of two in Chile

I honestly thought that Christmas would be hard for me this year....particularly Christmas Eve. Every year since the day I was born, I have spent Christmas Eve with my family, exchanging gifts, eating amazing food, and just joining each other's company. In fact, this day is probably my favorite day out of the entire year, although some who know me would say it is my birthday. :-)
Despite the fact that it did not even seem like Christmas, due to the hot summer sun that beats down on us every day, the Holy Cross Chile Associates created the Christmas spirit and made my first Christmas away from home (and the first of two that I will spend in Chile) an event that was absolutely amazing and one that I will never forget.

On Christmas Eve, we started the festivities by looking great in our Christmas best and attending the 10pm Christmas Eve Mass celebrated in the Pocuro chapel. The mass was complete with a live renactment of the Christmas Story, a first for me, especially in spanish. After the mass, we enjoyed a delicious Christmas dinner (preparation a definite community effort) and ate under the grape arbor located in front of my house. The cool Chilean summer night, the grapes hanging above us, the beautiful table that Emily decorated, amazing food, and great company made for an incredible memory that will always stay with me. After the meal, we went inside and sang Christmas carols as Ryan played the guitar. It may sound corny, and in fact, it was; but, we sang and giggled like little kids. This continued as we exchanged our Secret Santa gifts soon thereafter. All in all, it was a perfect ending to a night that I thought would be spent depressed and wishing I was in the U.S. with my family. Sorry family...maybe next year. :-)

Many would end there, but being Holy Cross Asscociates and typical overacheivers, we woke up the next morning at 7:00am and headed to a camping resort in Los Manatiales in Panquehue. There we did the basic camping routine - swam (although the water was freezing cold), sat around a camp fire, cook, rested, made smores, and slept in tents. Despite my love and much experience in camping, I do have to say that the ground we slept on was hard, complete with many rocks embetted in the ground that we simply could not move or avoid when setting up our tent. Everyone woke up with back pains; in my experience, only those who are "older" experience back pains when sleeping on the ground. Could this mean that we are getting old? I am going to use the rocks for an excuse, at least for now.

After two days, which included a mini-retreat to welcome in us "newbies" and discuss HCA, we packed up and went home, satisfied with the way in which we celebrated our Christmas and ready for the new year. The bar has been set high and the second Christmas in Chile definitely has a high standard to meet.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas as well! On Sunday I leave for a two week trip to an island of Chile in which I, and the other HCAers, will chaperone and participate in a missions trip with St. George's, a school in Santiago. My next blog will not be until after then, so this is my last opportunity to say that I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed start to the New Year!

To see a set of 38 photos from my Christmas adventure, click here. Thanks Ryan for the pics, you are best!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Building A New Community

For about 5 days, I have been adjusting to my new life and building a new community here in Chile. It has been tough; I miss my Bolivian family like crazy and the environment they provided for the last 3 ½ months, Katie has recently decided to no longer participate in the program (leaving me the only new associate in the Pocuro house), the culture and the people in Bolivia are completely different from those in Chile, and the spanish is really giving me a hard time...the accent and the way in which people speak here are so hard to understand. My language is currently a one way street – I cannot understand Chileans, but when I speak they can understand me.

Despite these difficulties, I find an unamazing amount of beauty and support surrounding me. Chile is beautiful (it is definitely wine country...so many vineyards!) and I know that this little town of Pocuro will provide me a sense of joy and pride in the work that I will do over my time here. In addition, Natalie, Patrick, and I are joining four Associates who have already lived in Chile for one year. These four people are great and have already provided an unspeakable amount of support in my transition to the life I will live for the next 2 years. For Christmas, we are planning a camping trip in which I am sure I will get to know them even more and have plenty of great stories to tell.

In the spirit of my transition from one community to the other, I am a posting a few pictures of my “old” community and my “new” community. I will have pictures soon of the people in my new community - as for now, thanks to my housemate Ryan who is a tech guru AND writes a fabulous blog that everyone must read everday (link is on the right of my blog), I just have pics of where I live in Pocuro, etc. Plenty more pics of Bolivia, my house in Bolivia, and my Bolivian family can always be seen on my online photo album, by clicking on the MY PHOTOS link on the right hand side of this blog.

And...just to get the feel of my new community, check out this short blog entry from my Pocuro housemate Ryan. It is a great read and apparently not out of the ordinary....

Missing you all, have a wonderful Christmas and know that I am thinking and praying for you all during this holiday season!

M

My Bolivian Family and Me

(From left) Dad Nestor, Mom Juana, Brother Jorge

Nestor - works as a Principal at one high school in the morning and an Assistant Principal/math teacher at another high school in the afternoon







Juana - works a home, but works long house throughout the day cleaning, cooking, laundry, etc. She is hilarious - she always gave me a hard time about my height for a gringa!






Jorge - definitely my best friend in Bolivia. 24 years old, Univeristy student studying to be an technical engineer, working with computers and computer systems. Soooo hilarious and such a great guy, miss him like crazy!









My new community - Pocuro, Chile

The valley of Los Andes/Calle Larga - how beautiful...and its my new home!










(from left) The capilla (small church) that neighbors my house, my house with our bikes in front, my kitchen with my housemate Emily washing dishes, and my dog Memo walking into the gate in front of our house




Tuesday, December 19, 2006

¡Hola Chile!

Hello! This is my first post from Chile, just to let you know that yesterday Katie and I arrived in Santiago, Chile safely and without many complications. This morning, I traveled to Pocuro, a small pueblo town 2 hours north of Chile, where I will be living and working for the next year (2nd year will be in Santiago). I have unpacked and have begun to get settled in, having a great time getting to know the surrounding area with my new housemates Ryan and Emily.

Here is my new contact information, it would be great to hear from you!

Michelle Fitzgerald
Parroquia La Merced
Calle Larga
Los Andes V Region
Chile

#:011-56-9-9-693-5626

Hopefully my next post will include pictures! Until then, !chau! M

Sunday, December 17, 2006

¡Chau Bolivia!

Sitting here in the computer room of the language Institute, checking email with my host mom Juana and looking at a few photos on line...taking advantage of the free internet and enjoying our last few moments together.

I am all packed and ready to go, trying to fight back the tears because I will absolutely miss Bolivia and my family... they have both definitely stolen my heart.

Katie and I will be flying out at 8:00pm Bolivia time to La Paz, then spending the night, flying to Santiago, Chile at 10:30am on Monday morning.

My next post will be from Chile! ¡Chau!

M

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Surprise!!! ¡Feliz Cumpleaños!

On the Friday before, I was assured that they would be back in town for my birthday. "Don’t worry, we will be back by Tuesday to celebrate your birthday, we promise,” Patrick told me. When Katie, Patrick, and Natalie, who made a weekend trip to a Santa Cruz pueblo for the weekend, did not show up for classes on Monday, I wasn’t worried. When they did not show up for the class on Tuesday, I realized they still had not returned to Cochabamba. To be sure, I asked many of the professors if they had seen my compañeros. “No, no I haven’t,” they all replied. Professor Oscar then delivered some shocking news: “Michelle, didn’t you hear? There is a bloqueo near Santa Cruz and they are stuck there, will not be able to return for a few days.” Curiosity quickly turned into worry. All throughout my second class, I kept asking myself, “Are they okay?” “I wonder if I should call Juana and tell her to cancel the special dinner she has planned for tonight.” I had made the decision to call Katie after my class to see if they were safe, knowing that my birthday would have to be celebrated another night.

As I left my class, I saw a sign: “¡Feliz Cumpleaños Michelle!” it said. I thought, “Oh, I bet Liliana (a young professor) here made that for me, how sweet.” Another sign: “¡Feliz 23!” “Wow, another…how great,” I said, not realizing that the next moment I would hear SURPRISE! and see my three compañeros, standing in the fully decorated institute with cake and candles in hand. “What are you doing here?!!! I thought there was a bloqueo in Santa Cruz! I was so worried!” Come to find out, they had returned at 6:00am on Monday morning and had been preparing the prank ever since. I also realized most of the professors were in on the joke too and had laughed at me when I questioned them about my friends. Apparently, the three HCAers were in the institute the entire time that Tuesday morning, hiding from me and making signs to decorate during the second class; they had actually heard me query about their whereabouts and Katie let out her boisterous laugh in response - they were sure I had heard it and they had been caught. After the entire institute sang Happy Birthday to me, blew out candles, and said a few words of thanks, I smiled, knowing that my birthday had gotten off to a great start and that I am blessed to have such wonderful people in my life, people who would make such an effort to provide a special day for me.

Not particularly caring for the texture of the cakes here in Bolivia, I made my own birthday cake, shown here. For dinner, Juana cooked a special meal for my family, my compañeros, and me. We had a great time, laughing, eating, opening up presents, and drinking wine. As always, I provided a bit of extra entertainment for the night by breaking yet another glass (so clumsy…) and by being a victim to the Bolivian tradition of having your face pushed down in the cake by someone while you are blowing out the candles. Natalie’s picture of this for her birthday is cute, her cake was vanilla. My picture is simply disgusting because my cake was chocolate. It doesn’t quite look like chocolate on my face now, does it??? Realizing it is all in good humor, I am willing to accept a few moments of humiliation and publish this picture on the internet for all to see.

Between going out dancing with a few other friends on the Saturday before my birthday, the events that surrounded the actual day, and all the phone calls and emails I received from around the world, there is nothing I and do but give a giant THANK YOU for all who made my first birthday outside of the United States truly special. My 23rd birthday is one that I will never forget.

(Pic #2, from left) Bolivian mom Juana, Katie, Bolivan brother Jorge, Natalie, Patrick, Bolivian dad Nestor and me in front

Friday, December 01, 2006

El Día de Acción de Gracias

This blog entry was written on Tuesday, November 28, 2006. Due to recent technical difficulties, it has not been published until today.

This morning as I was thanking God for the absolutely beautiful weather and the relaxing walk to my classes at the Language Institute, I remembered that I have not yet written on my blog about our Thanksgiving festivities we celebrated here in Bolivia last week.

Thanksgiving, or El Día de Acción de Gracias, was an absolutely remarkable day for the U.S. citizens here in Bolivia, despite the fact we had to go to class instead of sitting at home and watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade in our pajamas. A while back, Natalie, Carrie (another student at the institute and 1996 Notre Dame graduate), and I had spoke about celebrating the holiday by having some type of pot-luck dinner with the 12 or so students from the U.S. This idea quickly developed into a pot-luck dinner for all of the students and professors at the institute, as well as a presentation for the entire Institute (in Spanish of course) about the history of the day, current status of indigenous nations today, and various examples on how the day is celebrated within the United States. Seeing that there are about 150 total people that would view the presentation and sample the food, we were certain that everyone would just get a small portion of the food and would not walk away from our pot-luck with full stomachs. Boy, were we wrong – two turkeys, two zapote pies (zapote is Bolivia’s version of a pumpkin), mashed potatoes and gravy, handmade stuffing, two fruit cobblers, sugar cookies, choclo on the cob (Bolivia’s corn - white and extremely large corn instead of the small and yellow we are used to), 3 green bean casseroles, and 2 apple pies (my contribution) later, we had so much food that we had enough for seconds if people wanted. All the food was absolutely delicious; it never dawned on me that for many of the Bolivians, eating such food would be a new and cultural experience. Because of this, and our willingness to share our culture, the staff at the Institute was extremely grateful; apparently, a celebration of the holiday had never been done by students before at the Institute in its 40 year history.

While I will always reminisce about the food, the presentation, and the great conversations I had with the other U.S. students about various family traditions or how our families cook certain foods (who knew there were so many different ways to cook stuffing??), this day will be always be remembered as the day that I learned what it truly means to give thanks. As I walked home with a full stomach, I thought about the family festivities that would be taking place at my Uncle’s house later on that day and the many changes or “firsts” that this day would bring to my family. It was my sister Melissa’s 18th birthday, but she would be celebrating it in Dallas playing soccer in a tournament. It was my niece Aubrey’s first Thanksgiving, but she would be with my sister Maegan and brother-in-law Derek in their home in Nebraska, celebrating the day with friends instead of making the long drive to Kansas City. It was the first holiday that my “unofficial step-dad” Tom and his family would celebrate a holiday without their mother. It was also the first time that my family would celebrate Thanksgiving at my Uncle’s house, instead of the 20-something year tradition of spending all holidays at my Grandparent’s house. I knew that the absence of people would be noticed and missed by my family, but they had so much to be thankful for. They are alive, healthy, have the means to travel to each other’s houses, and be able to afford to cook and eat amazing food in order to share in each other’s company. Is there anything more that my family would need in order to make this day more complete?

This thought spurred the question: What about my life? What am I thankful for? I had not yet thought about the answer to this question as I walked into my house and was greeted by my host mom Juana with a giant plate of food for lunch. I grumbled at the thought of eating more food, I simply could not eat another bite. Then I remembered three things: 1. I was taught, and my family is loving proof that, food equals love in Latin America. 2. I had told her that I didn’t expect us to get full from our celebration. And 3. It is an old and cliché saying, but there are people in this world who do not have food to eat, many of which I who are Bolivian and I had walked by on my home from the Institute. (This thought was reinforced later in the day by the news report that a woman in the campo had killed and burned alive her five children, all under the age of 8, because she did not have any money to buy food and her children were starving to death...how terrible, even orphanages to place the starving children in are not an option here as many are filled with workers who sexually molest and abuse the children). At this moment, I looked around the room. I have a Bolivian family who love me and take care of me. I have family back in the U.S. who love me and support me no matter what, think of me often, and send amazing notes of encouragement as I struggle through this South American adventure. I have friends who support me and who constantly keep me up on the celebrity gossip, also sending me amazing notes of encouragement. I have a group of people that I call a “community” who challenge my faith and who I can turn to not only for words of advice, but support in which I feel comfortable enough with to cry with in frustration of my experience and be goofy with all in the same conversation. I have a college education, I have God, and I have this amazing experience here in South America. And most importantly, I have a full stomach (haha, just kidding). Sure, there are a lot of “wants or needs” in my life (just ask my family – I sent them a whole list for Christmas/Birthday packages), but are any of these significant enough to make my life incomplete? I am tempted to say yes, in hopes that my family will take the hint and send me all the things I asked for, haha, but in all reality, the answer is no. My time here in Bolivia has been so amazing and has taught me what really matters in my life, what I can truly be thankful for. I have seen lives and talked to those who do not have what I have, who only dream of one day having running water in their house, send their kids to school with the proper school supplies, and be able to let their kids play outside without fear that the violence of Bolivia will affect their family next. This was the first Thanksgiving that I am just not stuffing my face full of food because I have nothing else planned for the day, but am truly enjoying all the wonderful things that I have in my life. Thank you to all who make my life so wonderful. Most of all, thank you to Bolivia; it is because of you that I will never celebrate this day the same again and, that regardless of the day, I will always have something to be grateful for.

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Written today, Dec. 1, 2006: Heard about the snow that the Midwest received last night, hope everyone is enjoying the winter wonderland and the kiddies are having fun with a few days off from school! Everything is going great here, enjoying absolutely beautiful weather as the seasons are changing from Spring to Summer here in Bolivia. Only 15 days until I leave Bolivia and only 4 days until my birthday :-)

Check here to read the awesome November 11 blog entry written by Chris, a volunteer who is spending a year living and working at an orphanage here in Bolivia (and someone that I have been hanging out a lot with lately). His list of sixteen aspects of Cochabamban life adequately portray many of the adventures I experience here in Bolivia on a daily basis.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Aren’t you ready to come home yet?

This question, asked by my mom yesterday, has been on my mind lately. Now that our return trip to Chile has been booked, scheduled for 3:00pm on December 16 and making today one month until I am officially scheduled to leave Cochabamba, this question seems even more relevant. Am I really ready to come home yet?

I didn’t have an answer for my mom at the time, but I did tell her that thinking about the option of going home is something that I simply cannot let myself do, as I still have 2 years ahead of me in South America. Since then, I have realized two things:

1. Although I have enjoyed my time here thus far and have a good chunk of the language under my belt, my work has not even started. The life that I am experiencing here in Bolivia is nothing like what I will experience in Chile, and if I were to leave now, my mission and what I came to South America to do will be left unfinished without even giving it a chance to start.

2. Without any offense to my mom, I wonder what exactly she and we mean when we say “home.” Do I really have a home? Is home just a place where you grew up and where your immediate family lives, or is it “where your heart is” according to the famous phrase? With the first definition, I would call Parkville and Kansas home. With the second, I would call Parkville, Kansas, South Bend, Washington, DC and Bolivia home, hoping to add the pueblo town of Pocurro, Chile to the list; thus, it is simply not possible to return “home” and returning to any of those places would only be going to just a part of “where my heart is.”

Despite the answer, I do have to say that I am experiencing a lot of emotions about my return trip to Chile. I am excited to once again see the current HCA Chile group, who I consider friends made during that first week in South America. But I am also anxious about my first “real life” work experience after college. Will the experience in Chile be all that it is cracked up to be? Will it meet my expectations? Will I be able to fulfill what I am called to do? Only time will provide the answers and my last month in Bolivia will definitely be time to prepare me for what I can only see is an amazing journey ahead.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Aubrey Lynn Drummond


It’s a girl!! Yesterday, November 10, 2006 at 9:19am, my baby sister Maegan gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, 6 lbs 12oz. and 19 inches Aubrey Lynn Drummond. Mom and baby are both doing great, Grandma and Aunt Melissa were able to make the trip up to Nebraska to be with Mom and Dad as they welcomed their first baby as well as the first baby to enter into our immediate family in quite a long time (13 years!).

I am quite excited to officially be “Aunt Michelle” – so much so that instead of “Aunt Michelle,” I am thinking of asking all of my siblings to have their children call me “Tia,” which is “Aunt” in Spanish. :-)

Although reality has set in a bit and I am starting to feel old (this means that I can have a child too…but don’t expect that anytime soon, haha), I do have to say that when I received the news via email that my sister finally had her baby, it did not seem like reality. I knew my sister was pregnant…after all, I saw her when her belly first started to show way back in July and we all knew that this day would someday come. But it is really craziness to think about it: someone, with almost the exact same genetic makeup, same blood, and only 15 months younger than me, had produced a child with parts of the same blood and same genetic makeup that we both share. God truly is amazing and life is a wonderful gift.

I am sad to think that I will not see my little niece until just after her second birthday, but I am comforted by the fact that my family went through the exact same thing when Maegan was born. When Maegan was born, my Mom, Dad, and I were living in Berlin, Germany (my Dad was in the Army and was stationed there). The four of us did not return to the U.S. until just after Meagan’s second birthday and thus, no one in my family saw Maegan outside of pictures for the first two years of her life. Although there were missed opportunities of watching a child grow, this amount of time did not have an affect upon Meagan’s relationship with any members of the family. This being said, I am truly looking forward to not only keeping in touch with my sister and receiving pictures of my new niece, but returning to the States to meet Aubrey and see the wonderful mom that my sister has become.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Just call me "THE DESTROYER." It´s "mí vida."

The Destroyer. This is the name that I have given myself within the last month or so here in Bolivia. For those who know me well, it comes as no surprise that I maintain my clumsiness here in Bolivia, sometimes at the expense of certain items that belong to my Bolivian family.

My family first got a glimpse of my inelegance within the second week of my stay here in Cochabamba. One evening I was walking with my Bolivian brother, Jorge, who had picked me up from fellow HCA Associate Natalie’s house so that I would not have to walk home by myself in the dark. We were talking and I tripped over a large crack in the sidewalk, scraping my wrist up pretty bad (photo is in my online Bolivia photo album). Now I have small scars on my wrist – but I guess that is the price you pay for the first “recuerdo” (souvenir) from Bolivia. In all fairness, it was dark and the sidewalks in Bolivia are nothing like the sidewalks in the US, torn to pieces due to lack of maintenance and earthquakes. This excuse worked with my family for a while…that is until I cut my foot on a rock just last week while walking in pure daylight, haha.

Since then my family, not my “cuerpo” (body), has suffered the effects of my inability to be cautious, careful, or just conscientious of my own strength or the largeness of my body. I have broken the showerhead in my bathroom (causing my family to buy a new one), stained a beautiful tablecloth due to spilling soup and Coca-Cola (both on separate occasions), pulled out a door handle trying to get a door unstuck (causing Jorge to work 2 hours to fix it), and scraped off a large portion of Teflon from the bottom of Juana’s pan while cooking no-bake cookies, not realizing that I should have used an older pan because melting and stirring sugar in a pan would cause such damage (she was not as forgiving about this one).

The worst and probably the most embarrassing moment of clumsiness and unawareness of the largeness of my body came last Thursday when we visited the Cementario for Dia de Los Muertos. It was not a terribly sad day, as it is not supposed to be, but it was the first year that my family would be visiting their son in his final resting place (check out my October 28 blog if you do not understand). Our first visit was to the permanent niche of my Bolivian “abuelo” or the father of Nestor, my Bolivian host father. Upon arriving, I discovered the customary practice of cleaning the name plate along with changing the flowers that had been placed there the year before. Deciding to be the good “hija” (daughter), I told Juana that I would help her take off the thorns and petals and cut the stems of the roses that we had bought for the niche, helping her place them in the now clean vase. On my second rose, I had cut the stem too short and thus, one less rose in the vase (oops #1). Reaching for another rose, my butt graced the vase, knocking it over and breaking it – a vase that had been used by the family every year for 25 years since the man had died (BIG oops #2). To my horror, I cried out loud all the Spanish I knew to ask for forgiveness and to tell them that I was sorry. To my surprise, all my family could do is laugh – their response: “Es tú vida.” Translation: It’s your life.

My family assures me to this day that the incident at the Cementario is okay, the vase only cost one or two pesos (about 12 or 24 cents), and that it was a blessing in disguise because the day was fun as I continued to provide a bit of entertainment for them. We ultimately bought a new vase, said a small prayer, and continued on to the final resting place of their son. We took the short rose along (what we had named by this time “my accident”) in order to place it in the son’s smaller vase along with beautiful white flowers that we had also previously bought. What did I do while walking? Dropped the damn rose on the ground (oops #3). That’s right, and I nearly caused three or four people to fall down as I stopped the large flow of traffic in order to save this rose from being trampled. As I stood up, my family just gave me a look and all I could say is “Es mí vida.”

Needless to say, I was not allowed to touch the vase, or anything else for that matter, for the remainder of my time at the Cementario. Now, it’s is just a matter of time until THE DESTROYER strikes again.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Culture Lesson In Living and Dying

While talking about the differences between the U.S. and Bolivia when it comes to funerals and the grieving process of the dead is an usual topic to discuss in a grammar class, it is quite relevant due to the passing of Tom’s mother as well as the upcoming Dìa de Los Muertos that is celebrated on November 2nd throughout Latin America and is a national holiday for Bolivia (I also do not have classes that day).

I was quite surprised when my teacher used to the word "falso" (fake or untrue) describe the funeral and grieving process in the United States. While I have never attended a funeral or had any immediate family member of mine pass away (Gracias a Dìos), I do believe that I have a firm grasp on what this process is to firmly see the differences between Bolivia and the United States in this topic - it is quite fascinating. Is it fake? Well you can decide that:

First, the simple language and spirit toward the dead here is different. In the States, it is better to say the dead has "passed away" or "left us." Here, no such phrase exists, merely "they died." Also in Bolivia, although sad and sometimes traumatic for those close to the dead, the deaths are celebrated. So much so that they have a special day reserved for going to the cemetery and bringing all of the favorite food of the person with them, knowing that on this day the dead is with them and celebrating with them. It is one huge party to celebrate with the living and the dead, all day long. Having a table in the house with all the dead person(s) favorite food for this day is also quite common, which the people here believe that the dead comes from the heavens to the windows to feast along with the family.

In the United States, there are two options after a person has died: cremation or burial. After cremation, the remains are either scattered in a location or are placed in the possession of someone in a fancy vase, container, etc. The burial consists of a coffin that is either half open or closed during the funeral, the funeral of which is anywhere from 4 to 9 days after the person has died, a process possible through preserving the body by "bombing" it with chemicals. If the coffin is half opened, the face is covered with makeup and the dead is generally wearing nicer clothes or their favorite clothes, in attempt to make the person appear as they did when they were living. At times, the coffin may consist of the person’s favorite items when they were alive such as a book, football, stuffed animal, etc. Correct me if I am wrong on this part, but depending on the ceremony, the coffin is either placed into the ground during the ceremony or after when everyone has left. Either way, all of the ground is placed over the coffin and the final burial is completed without anyone present.

In Bolivia, after a person has died, there are three options: immediate cremation, immediate underground burial, or placement of the coffin in what are called "niches" for five years and after five years, the coffin is taken out and the body is exhumed and cremated, with the ashes being placed in a container and the container permanently being planted in burial ground along with thousands of other small containers (this is the same after immediate cremation). A niche is an insert in a giant wall that is located within a burial ground. The niche is covered by a door, in which the body is placed in the wall. The only thing that I can compare this to, while morbid, is a giant filing cabinet in which bodies are placed in the wall, each with their own door, and a plaque is placed on the outside with the information about the person, date, etc. I believe I have seen these in the States, while rare, but I believe they are permanent - the bodies and plaque will not be removed after 5 years and a new body inserted in the "vault." Someone can feel free to correct me if I am wrong.

Immediate cremation and immediate burial are only for the very wealthy here because both are very expensive - particularly the burial because land here is a precious commodity. In Bolivia, it is very hard to have that much money that quickly to pay for a burial or cremation, particularly for such a poor area in which nothing runs on credit. Thus, the third option, that of placing the body in a niche and exhuming the body 5 years later, is the most common for Bolivians. The niche is cheaper and it allows the family time to save up money to get afford cremating the body and also allow a resting place for the body. If, after five years, no one has the money to pay for a cremation, a fourth option is available - completely mortifying to think about: the body is placed in a bag and put on a boat, sent to an island in which it is dumped. Bolivia does not have a coast line nor does it have any islands around, so I have no clue where exactly the boat is or where it goes, but I really did not want to ask.

Regardless of the option, the body is kept in the person’s house for a day or so until the ceremony that precedes the cremation, burial, or placement in the niche. Because the "bombing" process in order to preserve the body that we have in the States is also expensive, any ceremony happens within two days of the person’s death, even if not every family member can make it. (When we were on our Santa Cruz trip, the father of our driver Carlos died but because he was far away from home, he was unable to make it back in time for the funeral because they had it the very next day.) For the ceremony, the body is placed in a coffin, even if it will be cremated, the coffin of which has small window on the top of it(no bigger than the size of your hand) so that those attending the ceremony can view the dead and say goodbye if they wish. As described earlier, this is drastically different than the half open casket of the U.S. The body within the casket does not have on any makeup, does not have items they possessed when they were alive, and the body is not wearing fancy clothes, simply the clothes they had on when they died. If the person died while in the hospital, the body usually still has its hospital gown on. According to my professor, this is just an acceptance of life and death, not to pretend that the body is something that it is not and that it still contains the spirit of the person by placing makeup or clothes on the body - why she calls the U.S. process "falso."

After the ceremony, everyone returns to their homes and some stay to grieve with the family for the evening. Here in Latin America, it is usual that for the passing of an older person, the closest relatives, particularly the women, will wear nothing but black for one year as part of the mourning process. After the one year, what I believe is a result of the year grieving process, it custom to celebrate the life of the dead, particularly on the Day of the Dead, or Dìa de los Muertos.

As a closing note to these insights, I do believe that the niche option is particularly traumatic (one that I will thankfully never have to go through) and it is just another horrible thing that people have to endure in their lives simply because they are poor. Juana, my host mom here in Bolivia, lost her 12 year old son 6 years ago through what I only know was an "accident." (I hope to find out what this accident was by the time I leave in December...it is just not something you can bring up any time). Often Juana speaks of her "hijo" while pointing to the heavens; I can tell that he was a real joy in her life and through stories, he was an amazing, loveable, and spirited, yet typical,12 year old. The death was extremely hard for her in which she battled years of depression. Last night when we were knitting together (something we do on occasion), I talked to her about what I had learned in class about the burial options. She told me that when her son died, they chose the niche option and because last year was the 5 year anniversary of the death, she had to revisit the experience of losing her son all over again by viewing her son’s body being exhumed from the niche and from the coffin. (WARNING: THE FOLLOWING IS NOT FOR WEAK STOMACHS) She told me that when they took the body out, the bones were so small and fragile that when they picked up the body, the bones in the arms broke. She told me that it took her a long time to not think about this when she would think about her son and all the good that he brought to her and her family’s life. Now, the ashes of her son’s body are located in a burial ground which we will visit next Tuesday at 6:00am in the morning for Dìa de Los Muertos.

So call it what you will - "falso" or just different type of culture - all I know is that before Bolivia I would have never thought that such aspect of our lives would vary so much from culture to culture and that I would actually look forward to celebrating the life of the dead with my family next Thursday, experiencing such an important part of the Latin American culture and being a part of something that has such a profound impact on my host family’s every day life.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Check out the October 14th entry

I finally posted about my trip...but, since I started working on it (it is crazy long) on October 14th, it posted with the date of October 14th. Thus, you have to go down two blog entries in order to see it - it is not hard to miss, no worries, haha.

Hope everyone is well. I mention about Tom´s mother in the blog, again, please keep them in your prayers.

GIANT shout out to all my BELLES! Miss ya bunches :-) M

OH - PS - Check out Patrick´s blog anytime you can. I have linked it on the right hand side of my blog, just click on his name. Seriously...he is as great of a writer as he is a friend, his insights on our experiences are amazing. Too bad I cannot write as elequently as he does, but I guess that is what is going to make me a great lawyer someday, haha.

Monday, October 23, 2006

hola hola

The computers have been really slow lately, just wanted to let you all know that I am doing MUCH better these past few days or so, despite my last few posts. I am really enjoying life and cannot wait to tell you all about my crazy every day adventures here in Bolivia. Also, I have not been able to put up anything about my trip because of the damn computers...so, I am hoping this will post, to let you all know that everything is great.

Call me at home if you want to say hi. I know I keep saying this, but hopefully tomorrow the post about my trip will be up followed by a more specific post later in the week about my life here (which includes getting scammed by a really old lady after church to pay for her cab ride home...yeah, that´s right, she cannot walk well, but she sure is smart!).

In the meantime, check out my photos by click on the MY PHOTOS on the right hand side of the blog. I pretty much have all of them up, although they do not have captions. Also, I have added a whole bunch of quotes too, check them out by clicking on the THEY SAY IT BETTER link, also on the right hand side of my blog.

Love and miss ya all, thank you so much to all those who have sent loving emails and notes! They were very much appreciated! - M

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Gracias A Dios para mi vida

For the past couple of days now, I have been working on a blog entry telling you all about my trip a little more than a week ago. Today I had planned to post it, but I am not quite in the mood to do so.

The reason is that today I am extremely sad. This life is not easy here. Even more so, today was the worst day that I have had at the institute here thus far, as I am moving from great comprehension in everyday usage of the spanish language to becoming advanced, finding more and more difficulty in maintaining what I have learned and at the same time progressing further into a native speaker. It may be hard for those who have not studied a second language to comprehend, but I am told by those that have that this is a completely normal process...particuarly in the 6th week of language school, which I am in at this moment. Oh joy.

At the same time, I find it very difficult to express my frustrations to my family here in Bolivia because I feel so very guilty for feeling frustrated, for thinking that this is a major problem in my life, when at the same time I hear stories of, and see here on a daily basis, the hard and difficult Bolivian life. So many people here are struggling, completely re-defining my defintion of the verb "to struggle." The health care is bad; my professor here told me about a doctor that continues to practice medicine depsite the fact that he has killed 3 young children before due to his negligence when using anesthesia...and there is not system for reprocussion for the families here. No money from the doctor, nothing. In the States, this means a nice big fat check for the family AND the doctor is not able to continue to practice medicine...particularly after the 3rd time of killing a child. One child went in to fix his broken finger and thirty minutes later, the family was told that their son died. He didn´t even need anesthesia to fix the finger, but he was given it anyway, and died from the doctor´s negligence when giving it to him. It is so expensive to go to the doctor here, combined with the distrust of the medical system, it is wonder why people are dying everyday because they either can´t aford to go or they are too afraid to go to the doctor. At the same time, there are protests here and bloqueos that block the passage of food and water throughout the country in order to make a point with the government. Some days it is a mystery as to whether we are going to have water or not. Even so, there are a lot of people here in Cochabamba that do not have water in their houses; I see them bathing everyday in the river that passes by my house as I walk to the institute for my classes. The water is not safe enough for me to drink, but for these people, it is used for the many purposes in their everyday life - drinking, bathing, washing animals, and washing their clothes. These are just a few examples of the many that I see and hear on an everyday basis.

Despite everything that these people experience here, and although they have accepted that this is the way their life is (which frustrates me - why won´t they work for change?), they have an amazing sense of optimism and hope in the future. My professora actually said to me today (of course in spanish), "it´s okay Michelle, this is the way life is for Bolivia, but I have hope and confidence that it will one day change." Do I have the same hope for these people? If I was in the same situation, would I say the same thing as my professora? Today was the first time that I actually questioned my strength to continue working and serving with these people for the 2 1/2 years.

So I am sorry for not posting photos of smiling faces, beautiful places, and a trip of a lifetime that I was only able to take because the program I am with and support system I have here in Bolivia is financially secure. I know I will in the future, but not today. Right now, I am just living in the moment and repeating the phrase that is constantly said by Bolivians "Gracias A Dios" or Thanks to God , particuarly for mi vida (my life) and the life of all those I love.

Thanks for your understanding and patience, reading my roller coster ride of emotions - M

Saturday, October 14, 2006

So it was almost a month ago...all about my trip!

Hi everyone. Hope all is well. Everything is great here, just realized today that I only have 6 more weeks of classes left...craziness how time flies. I cannot imagine writing on this blog in two years about my experiences in Chile, but they way that things are going, that day will be here sooner than later.

Before I share about my trip, I want to let you know of some very disheartening news. The mother of my mom´s boyfriend (the boyfriend that I consider an un-official stepdad), passed away last night. Por suerte (luckily), my mom and Tom were able to arrive back from their vacation in time to be with her in her last few moments. She was an absolute delight and a wonderful person, true at heart. I know that this is going to be a tough loss for both my mom, my stepdad, and his family. Please keep them in your hearts and prayers at this time.

Alright...

I am super excited to FINALLY share with you about my 10 day trip that I took almost three weeks ago to Chiquitos, Santa Cruz, and Sammaipata, Bolivia. Below is the best account of my trip along with a few little stories and pictures along the way. There are plenty more pictures of my trip included in MY PHOTOS, so these are just a few highlights. Alright, happy reading...but beware - it´s a long one! (And PS: don´t feel bad if you cannot read it all today or you don´t read it at all, totally understandable, haha).

15 students, one director, and one tour guide flew for 45 min. to Santa Cruz, Bolivia on September, 30 at 7:50am. Once we arrived in Santa Cruz, we were greeted by our driver, Carlos, and our bus that took us to Chiquitos, Bolivia, about 4 hours away. Oh, and I cannot forget the fact that we were greeted by Subway Sandwiches too...who knew I would ever eat Subway in Bolivia?? Was definitely not the same, but still pretty good. Here is a picture of the bus that we took - let´s just say that when I saw this, I had no idea what to expect for trip ahead. Oh, here is also a picture of the peanut butter cookies that I had made for me and my buddies during the trip! They were sooo good, thanks Gma for the recipie!

Throughout our four hour journey we passed through some really small towns, including the famous Rio Grande river, which you can tell would be incredibly large if it were fully but it barely had water in it, smaller than the Missouri River. Also on this four hour journey, we passed through two refugee camps set up by the Bolivian government. I have now realized that this was my first of many glances at poverty in a third-world country. It allowed me to realize how lucky my family, friends, and I truly are. It was also the first time that I realized how odd it is to be a "tourist" in this country...all I wanted was for these people not to feel like they were in a zoo, something "new" for us to see because it does not exist on such a scale in our country.

Also along they way, we would stop to pay a toll of some sort to cross a bridge or go through a town (not like the US at all, ropes and people stopped traffic until they paid the toll or tax). When our bus stopped, young mothers and children (ages 5-12) would come up to the bus selling yelling out the items that they were selling, which was all kinds of things from oranges, popcorn, pork on a stick, and cold drinks. It was crazy hot all of the days, so needless to say some items were sold more than others. Well, I did not want to buy any of it, but I felt horrible that these young women and children were slaving away in about 95 degrees heat all to sell a bottle of coke for about 24 cents, popcorn for 12 cents, or the large pork stick for a mere dollar. So, I opened up the window and offered the children the leftover peanut butter cookies that I had. Boy, was this a shock to them, haha - I don´t think anyone had ever offered them anything from the buses, let along cookies. The joy and bright big eyes of the little kids was great as they took the cookies and gave it to their friends to have...some of them even went over to their moms to show them what they got. As we drove away, I saw them eating and smiling - it was definitely worth bringing those cookies along for the trip.

We arrived at San Javier, our first mission town, for lunch. The Jesuit Missions of the Chiquitos have been located in the center of the Bolivian forest for more than 3 centuries. They are the only Jesuit missions in South America that have not been destroyed. Declared a Cultural Patrimony site by UNESCO and considered the main settlements of the Jesuits in the new world, they were built from 1691 to 1760. They Jesuits remained in the Chiquitania land for less than a centruy, creating societies of productivity and archectecture while converting nomad tribes into communites called "reductions" with the purpose of initiating the natives in artistic, civil, and religious activities. On October 13, 1767, the spanish king ordered the expulsion of the Jeusit missionaries from the new world in the lands of the Spanish and Portugese.

San Javier was the first of the mission towns founded in the territory of the Chiquitos by the Compañia de jesus in December 31, 1691 by priest Jose de Arché. Today the town has 15,000 inhabitants skilled in eaborate craft works. The church has a boroque style, bult between 1749 and 1752 by Priest Martin Schmid and restored between 1987 and 1993. Here is a picture of me infront of the church - how beautiful! We took a tour of the church as well as the museum where we observed instruments that are manufactured in the poor pueblo, such as harps, violins, and violas (I loved that part, hehe). The highlight of our tripo, however, was a short concert of Baroque music presented by the town´s renowned youth choir and orchestra. Absolutely incredible to see and hear...who knew that such beautiful music and church can come from such an impoverished area.

After leaving San Javier, we another one and half hours to the town of Concepción. On the way, Maria, our tour guide, decided that we should stop at a small town on the way to say hello - she knew that the small town of about 300 people (200 of them children) having a festival. So, we stopped, and planned to stay there for about 30 minutes. Well, the stop turned into 3 hours but THIS EXPERIENCE WAS BY FAR MY FAVORITE PART OF THE CHIQUITOS MISSION TRIP. As soon as we arrived, the local women were doing a festive dance and a group of men were native music with native instruments. I have included the picture here. The women came over and grabbed all of our hands and we danced with them in a circle, laughing the entire way. After, the pueblo included us in their festive games such as musical chairs (picture seen here) and sack races. I was included in a game too, ALL BY MYSELF! I was blindfolded along with another young woman from the pueblo. We were handed a spoon and a cup full of a honey like substance...our task was to take a spoon full of the stuff and try to put it in the opposite person´s mouth! Haha, it was quite hilarious for all as we failed miserably and got the stuff all over our shirts. The honey stuff was actually quite good, too. :-) This was the first time that I actually felt that I was in an episode of National Geographic. Here I am, tall, large, light skinned girl surrounded by 300 shorter and darker skin people who were all soooo welcoming and so happy to see and speak to me and my group, wanting to touch all of us to say hello. The skin difference of course does not concern me, but really was the first opportunity to recognize the beauty of differences of people all over the world. The children were just absolutely adorable and after we were leaving, I shed a few tears as children were chasing our bus, wishing us goodbye. Yeah, it may be a little cliché and it definitely seemed as if it were right out of a movie, but being there was everything I expected out of my time in South America and more. I bought a necklace made of what looks like pinto beans for a mere 60 cents from a young mother who was selling them to help feed her children. I hope to keep this necklace always as a reminder of this experience and what I learned while I was there.

For the next 4 days we visited 5more mission towns, that of Concepción, San Ignacio, San Miguel, San Rafael, and Santa Ana. Below is a bit of information about each mission town and my personal highlight of each trip (the print is smaller because it is long). Trust me, the pictures do not do these towns or the capillas justice - check out more on my online photo album.


Concepción: Founded on December 8, 1709 by Jesuit Preist Lucas Caballero, who settled here with the Menesia and the Bococa Natives of the Chiquitan origin. This population was almost extinguished because of the resistance of some aborignial groups but was finally consolidated in 1722. Today, Concepción has 20,700 inhabitants. The church is of baroque style that was restored in 1975 by the famous architect Hans Roth and opened again on August 125, 1983. This basilica opens its doors to offer the beauty of its construction in naves of three bodies, large columns carved entirely of wood, altars and paintings done by the locals. The church was bilty by Martin Schmid between 1753 and 1756 and was declared a national monument in 1950, along with its wooden bell tower.

San Ignacio: Was founded at the point of origin by the Paraguay River by Jesuit priests Miguel Arieljer and Diego Contreras. the mission was established with the help of the Chiquitanos, Guarayos, Zambusos, and other natives on July 31, 1748. San Ignacio now has 3800 inhabitants and the church has a Chiquitano style, presented in the altars, pulpit, and confessionals.
THE RIDE TO SAN IGNACIO is the most memorable of the whole experience. It was four hours from Concepcion to San Ignacio, which is a beltway to three other small towns, in which three of the hours were on a dirt road. The bus was not suited for this ride, quite uncomfortable and very hard to sleep, let alone hear enough to talk to your neighbor on the bus. Despite this, we were able to see small villages and pass through the forested region (little more rugged than the jungle) of the Mercado Kempf National Park. The National Park is so large that there are still unexplored parts, unknown animal inhabitants, and unidentified plant life living in the Park until this day.
The church was beautiful, I was even able to climb up to the pulpit and look out over the church. When I climbed down, an older lady, about 70ish years old, asked me for money, typical in these very small impoverished towns. I spoke to her for about five minutes in which we exchanged bits of our lives, during which she told me that she had a young son that she could not feed and just needs a little bit for today. At this point in Bolivia, I have given up on trying to guess whether or not these type of stories are the truth. I gave her 5 Bolivianos (about 60 cents to those in the US, but a big deal in these small towns) in which she was absolutely thrilled, she had tears in her eyes. She hugged me and told me God Bless, I kissed her on the cheek and said the same, and we both said goodbye. I love those type of encounters.

San Rafael: Was the second town founded by the Compañia de Jesus during colonial times by Jesuit priests Juan Bautista Zca and Francisco Hervas on October 24, 1696 with approx. 1000 indians and several Chiquitano tribes, today, it has 3500 inhabitants. The church was built between 1747 and 1749 by Prist Martin Schmid and a team of artisans recently restored the mission.
During our tour of San Rafael, I had to go to the restroom. The restroom was located in another building just outside the church, where a group of Austrian nuns live. So I go to the restroom and return to the church to find that the doors to get back into the church were locked. Although I knocked on the doors, no one heard me because of music that was playing inside the church, the source of the music I would find out later. Anyway, after knocking, I saw a little old nun, habit and all, walking across the courtyard toward the building. I ran up to the woman (I think she was kinda scared because I was about 3 feet taller and had about 150 pounds on her) and asked her in spanish how to get back into the church. She shook her head - she didn´t understand me. Another little old nun saw my predicament, came over, and spoke to me in broken spanish, telling me that the nun does not speak spanish...in which I replied in broken spanish that I do not either and just need to get into the church to rejoin my group. The little old nun took my hand (how cute!) and walked me over to the door, in which she gentlely turned the knob in the other direction...it was not locked afterall. Haha, for me. Anyway, when I joined the rest of group, thankful that no one saw me make a fool of myself, I saw that a young boy, about the age of 14, was playing the violin for my group. He was soooo good. Apparently, he takes lessons once a month from a woman that travels three hours from Santa Cruz to the small town to tutor him. After he was through, everyone gave him a little bit of money, I think he made out with about 50 Bolivianos which is HUGE. I hope that he continues his studies and gets to acheive his dream of playing in a professional orchestra one day in the United States. He is certaintly good enough to play in a University orchestra now - and he blushed when I told him that, haha.


San Miguel: Jesuit priests Fanscisco Hervas and Felipe Suwarez founded the mission of San Miguel on September 29, 1721 with help by the Chiquitano natives and part of the population of San Rafael. Today, the town has 10,000 inhabitants. The church was built in 1760 and restored by Hans Roth between 1980 and 1983.
Adjacent to San Miguel is a wood workshop and a school for the community, in which the locals create beautiful wooden artwork for both the church and to sell in order to feed the community. Here is a picture of me with a group of children at the school. They were playing outside during their recess and I was more than happy to join in their games and chat with them for a bit.







Santa Ana: Was one of the last Chiquitano missions founded in 1755, 12 years before the Jesuit expulsion. The church was not yet finished when the priests left, but the native population raised it using the materials already manufacutred under the control and supevision of a group of remaining priests. The result is a rual touch of reduced dimensions in comparison to the other churches.
Despite the fact that this was one of my favorite capillas due to its inculturation with the local culture that included carvings in the pews and gorgeous paintings that incorporated the local culture with the stations of the cross, in this capilla there was an absolutely beautiful organ from the 18th century that had been restored along with the chapel. Martìn, a young British priest from our group, sat down and played a few tunes for us on the organ - absolutely beautiful. After, an older man about in his late 40s or early 50s, sat down with a violin in the church to play some local music for us. Nothing like the young kid that we say just a day before, but it was amazing to see a man that had no type of formal education and who taught himself the violin, play in front of everyone, just for our enrichment. I would never have that courage, even with my years of experience playing the viola.


Alright, so after our time in Chiquitania and after returning with the group to Santa Cruz, Kerry, Kelly, Patrick, Natalie, Katie, and I decided that we would leave Sunday while the rest of the group returned to Cochabamba on Wednesday. What we would do was still up in the air, but it was nice to have the freedom to do what we pleased outside of a scheduled itinerary. After looking through some guidebooks, we decided that we would spend the rest of our days in Sammaipata, Bolivia known for its waterfalls and pre-Incan ruins.

We stayed in a beautiful hostel (shown here), owned by a Dutch man and his Bolivian wife for a mere 30 Bolivianos a person, or about less than 4 dollars. The hostel included breakfast consisting of bread and fruit, a wonderful change from my Cochabamba breakfast which is always two fried eggs and two small loafs of bread.

Sammaipata was absolutely beautiful. Here are pictures of me in front of El Fuerte, the pre-Incan ruins, and Las Cuevas, the waterfalls. Again, these pictures do not do the place justice and there are some beautiful photos in my online photo album. The first picture is of Patrick, Natalie, and me under a large waterfall at Las Cuevas.



During our free time, I was also able to take a few moments and walk around the gorgeous small town. I loved it and definitely want to return in the future. There are plenty of great and beautiful pictures within my online photo album.

Alright, that is it! I am not going to include a detailed account (surprising, I know) of how I lost my plane ticket and had to take a 12 hour bus ride back by myself to Cochamba instead of taking the 45 minute plane flight my friends from Santa Cruz. Why not write about it? Well, this is long enough, but really there is nothing much to tell - for lack of better words, it was horrible and I didn´t sleep for fear of my things being stolen...the best part the trip was being greeted by my host dad and host brother when I arrived at the bus station at 6:30am in the morning. All I can account it for at this point in my foreign travels is that it is completely normal for me...each day is a crazy adventure.

So, I am done, and f you read all of this, good for you and hope you enjoyed it, you definitely deserve some type of cookie, haha. If you didn´t read it but just scanned through to look the pictures, I don´t blame you - I would have done the same.

Hope everyone is well, love and miss ya bunches, please keep Tom and his family in your prayers.

Love - M

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Estoy mejor, gracias

Hey everyone, I just wanted to let you know that I am feeling much better. I left the conference on Tuesday early and did not go to my classes on Wednesday because I was not feeling so hot. Today is better, although I am quite exausted catching up on my work. Tomorrow I am going to tell you all about my trip, honest. ;-) (By the way, that whole 5 part series thing is a stupid idea now that I think of it...not going to do that, tomorrow´s update about my trip should suffice, I hope to include lots of pictures for you to see!)

After tomorrow´s update, I plan on telling you some interesting things about my life that I have been meaning to put up on my blog, such as about my family, the food here, life here, etc. I also want to start telling you about simple insights that I have had living in a third-world country. Despite the exclamation points that I have a tendency to overuse in my sentences, sometimes life here is not as rosey as it may come across. For a more some stuff like this, look to Ryan and Natalie´s blog - they have elequently said some really ensightful things about life here.

I am just getting back in the swing of things, that´s all. Being sick really made me miss certain things from my life in the United States, such as being comforted by your mom when you are not feeling well or eating her food on a daily basis, or not living in the culture that discusses digestive or bathroom problems over dinner with other members of the family (it is both discusting and funny, but oh lord...seriously, do they have to do that??!). With current political events I have also realized that I SERIOUSLY miss having the ability to watch the news or read the paper and understand everything that is being said, remaining to be an informed person on world affairs. Thank goodness for the internet...it is my only hope these days to be connected to the political world and at this point it is not really all that I want it to be.

Alright, "ciao ciao" for now. I would really like to receive phone calls at my house if you can - "wink wink" Gma, Mom, BRails, Amy K, and Sue - haha.

Hope everyone is well, miss ya bunches - M

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Ugh...

Hey all - so I said I was going to start posting about my vacation yesterday, but I am crazy sick...my stomach is killing me, and the same with everyone else who went on the Santa Cruz trip this past week. Looks like one of the restaurant´s food was not so safe for us to eat afterall...

I am going to a conference today about theology, politics, philosophy with the Institute. Really excited, wish I felt better. Needless to say, if I did not have this conference, I would not be going to classes today.

Hope everyone´s day is going better than mine, hope to update the blog tonight or maybe tomorrow depending on how I feel :-/

Ciao ciao - M

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Back from vacation!!

Just wanted to let you all know that we just got back from our 10 day excursion through the beautiful country of Bolivia! We had a great time, but we are sure tired!

Check out the blog tomorrow for the 1st in a five part series letting you know all about my trip that included visits to 6 amazingly gorgeous and historic mission towns and chapels founded by the Jesuits in the 17th century, as well as hikes to see beautiful waterfalls close to the Amazon and ancient Incan ruins!

Hope everyone is well, miss you bunches. Until tomorrow - M

PS: If you have subscribed to my blog but are not receiving automatic email notifications that I have updated, please let me know. My service has been a little iffy with them and just want to make sure all who want to subscribe can, thanks!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

It´s a girl!

Hey everyone! Hope all is well!

Great things seem to be happening to ones that I love!! First, one my bests friend from college, Amy, gets engaged, then Abby, a best friend since the third grade, had a baby! That´s right, I am an serogate aunt to a beautiful baby girl named Emmersen. You can check out all the wonderful pictures and information about the little one by clicking here. Congrats Mike and Abby! I am sooo happy for you!

As for me, same ol´same ol...taking classes and such here at the language institute. I did, however, start a week long class on Monday titled "Espiritualidad Misionera" at the local university here, La Universidad Catolica. It´s pretty much a class on spirituality, missionary work, and serving the poor, posing some really interesting points and perspectives...I think ;-) It´s obviously an upper level theology class and it is obviously all in spanish, so I understand about 60% of what is being said. A lot of the difficulty comes from not knowing the technical terms or formal labels for various areas that are discussed. Lucky for me, I am attending the class with my friend Kerri, who is also a student at the language institute and received her Masters of Divinity at Harvard, and Brother Tomas, who is from the US but has lived in Bolivia for about 18 years and works at the institute. Through Brother Tomas´help with the spanish through a discussion after class, Kerri and I are really enjoying ourselves. It feels so good to be in an academic environment studying theology again!

Again, hope everyone is well! Hope to finish putting up pictures for you soon...the computers here for that kinda thing are seriously slow and seriously a pain in the rear end.

Love - M

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Subscribe option, photos, and reality check on calling me

Hello everyone, hope all is well! I just finished classes and found the computer available on my way out the door...so I thought I would take a moment to say hi and that I hope everyone is having a terrific day.

Also, as you can see, the subscribe option for my blog is set up - simply enter your email address if you would like an email sent to you, notifying you that I have updated my blog.

The pictures link is up on the right hand side, but don´t check it out just yet because I do not have any pictures loaded into my account. This computer is kinda slow and I think I will have to go somewhere else tonight to put the pictures on the internet; I will let you know when I do.

****REALITY CHECK/CHANGE OF CALLING PROCEEDURE**** Okay, so I get home and I tell my family here that I have put up my number on my blog so my friends and family can call me. I also tell them that I put up some spanish that you should say when you do call. What do they do? They laugh. That´s right, they laugh. Why? Well, there is only one person in the house named "Michelle." There is no point in having someone attempt to speak spanish when all they really have to do is say my name. Additionally, I said myself that if I am home, I am usually the one who answers the phone. So why should you have to attempt speak spanish if you are going to be talking to me in the first place?? So, though mocking myself with my Bolivian family, I got a reality check and realized that you do not have to speak spanish in order to call me at my house here in Bolivia. When you call, simply say my name (Destiny´s Child song reference simply a coincidence)and they will hand the phone to me...that is, if I am the one who does not answer the phone. SO CALL ME - all it takes is buying a $5 international calling card from the gas station - most cards are $5 for 600 minutes. Good deal and you get to talk to me, who can beat that??

Alright, I am off to eat some fabulous traditional Bolivian food for lunch (usually consists of a giant bowl of soup followed by the "segunda," or second plate, that is full of rice or pasta, meat, potatoes, and a little salad with tomatoes and onions.)

Have a great day everyone - check for the photos very soon!

- M

OH - PS - ABSOLUTE congratulations to one of my best friends Amy Kelley. Her beau Josh proposed marriage yesterday and she said yes (of course)! Sooooo excited for ya Aims, looking forward to talking to you again soon!

Friday, September 15, 2006

¡Finalmente! An update

Hi everyone! Well, I have finally got around to updating the blog, so this is going to be a long one. Thank you everyone for your patience, I just needed a few weeks to get settled in here and really process everything that I am experiencing here in Cochabamba, Bolivia.

First: A few people have been asking for my mailing address and phone number while in Bolivia...good thing too - thanks to Patrick, I found out that you can buy a Latin America calling card at your local grocery store or gas station and it is cheaper if you call me rather me call you. :-) So, if you wanna chat, my phone number is 5914.424.2620

If I am home, I will most likely be the one to answer because my family is very keen on having me practice my spanish at all times...that includes answering the telephone, haha. If I don`t understand what the person on the phone is saying, I usually respond with "un momento, por favor" (or "one moment, please) and hand the phone to someone in the house. Anyway, when you call, just say "Con Michelle, Por Favor." If I am not there, they will not hand me the phone (obviously) and say a sentence in spanish that has a "no" in it. Just say "Bueno, Me llamo (your name goes here). Voy a llamar mas tardpronouncedced "voy a yay mar mas tar-day").

Also, my address is:

Michelle Fitzgerald
Instituto de Idiomas Maryknoll
Casilla 550
Cochabamba, Bolivia

Please keep in mind I can only receive items under 2 kilos (about four pounds) or else the Bolivian government charges me a tax in order to pick up the item.

Second: I unfortunately do not have a lot of pictures from Bolivia so I will not have a lot to share with you while I am here. Cochabamba (city I am living in), while I do feel safe in the area I live, has its danger spots and we are told to never take out our digital cameras for fear that they get stolen or that they send off a signal that we are a tourist who has enough money to buy a digital camera...who has enough money that it is worth robbing them. Anyway, I am in the process of setting up a photo account that I can link to this blog so you can see all of my pictures from my next 2 years. When I finish, I will let you know and place a few of my favorites up on the blog directly.

Third and final: Check out the blog in the next few days - I am going to add a "subscribe" option to the blog so you are able to subscribe to my blog. What does this mean? Simply adding your email address to the subscribe portion of my blog will send you an email everytime I update my blog so that way you do not have to check the blog every day and read the same thing over and over.

Alright - the real update. As far as my life here in Bolivia, I absolutely love it - although it does have its own downfalls. I absolutely love my host family. I am living with a mom (Juana), dad (Nestor) and brother (Jorge). Jorge is 24 years old, so it is different but super fun to have an older brother. I will hopefully put up a picture soon. We get along great and have a good time - he is so patient helping me with my spanish. The family does not speak english at all, so it comes down to speaking english about 2 hours total in a day...thank goodness for topportunitynty to talk to Natalie, Patrick, Katie, and the other students here at the institute in between classes! But, I have really grown to love the spanish language and I can´t believe how much I know so far...the day to day speaking and conversations are great with my family (we are hilarious together). In fact, we just took a test the other day in our spanish fluency and I tested at medium Intermediate - who knew! It is amazing how the brain works...pulling out all the old spanish files from college. Sometimes I use vocabulary words without even knowing if they are correct (i.e. bolsa is "bag" or "purse") and they are right! Yeah for me...but still have tons to learn.

I am spending my days as a student at the Maryknoll Institute of Idiomas (Languages). I have four classes that are one-on-one...that´s right, me and the professor. So if I don´t feel like having class (which has already happened a few times), I don´t really have a choice. Crazy, but it is all worth it in the end.

When I am not in class, I am playing tons of volleyball. Boy, do I love that sport - and I am actually good at it...I think I am better now than when I played in high school, haha. Anyway, volleyball is incredibly popular in Bolivia and I will tell you more stories later about that. When I am not playing volleyball, I am hanging out with my host family, knitting a baby blanket for my sister (I will have a neice in November!), going out to drink cervezas (beer) with friends, or dancing at a discoteque (club). All in all, it has been a new experience but one already worth the trip.

Again, I will definitely be updating the blog often - I cannot wait to tell you about how CHEAP everything here is in Bolivia, about the culture here and about living in the poorest country in South America and the 3rd poorest country in the world behind Hati and Bangladesh. If you still want more info about me and my compañeros, check out Natalie and Patrick´s blog - they are linked on the right hand side and they update them pretty often with some pretty funny stuff. Oh - btw - check out Ryan´s blog today (09-15-06). It is pretty real account about how our jobs are sometimes harder than we ever expect.

Hope everyone is well - please call me and say hello, it would be great to hear from you. Otherwise, keep the emails and letters coming! Talk again soon, miss ya all!

PS - Send me updates on Notre Dame football games, particularly if you attend them! Checking on the team through internet is just not the same... :-P

Thursday, August 31, 2006

We are here!

Just wanted to let you know that we have arrived safely in Bolivia and I am now living with my host family! They are absolutely terrific and I cannot wait to post information about them.

Bolivia is beautiful, hoping to put up pictures soon! I am having a terrific time - will have a social/orientation tomorrow for the language institute.

Hope all is well, thinking of you often.

Love - M

Monday, August 28, 2006

A busy first week!

Hola hola! I hope everyone is doing well, I am thinking of you often. At the moment, I am sitting in an internet café in Los Andes, Chile and to my right is a huge window with a view to die for...snow capped Andes Mountains and a beautiful sunset. I am ending my third day in Pocuro, the other HCA house - more about that later.

Since it has been some time since I have been able to give an update about my first week in Chile, I think it is best to describe it day by day. Sorry I do not have my camera with me, but I will be sure to put up pictures later.
I already talked about my first day in South America in my previous post, but let me just say that the second school, Andacollo, was such a blast - we played ¨Duck Duck Goose¨ with about 8 five or six-year old boys. Managing their behavior in espanol was a challenge, but it was a learning experience at the same time. Despite this, my favorite class was in the school Cervantes, with the 16 and 17 year-olds. Later that night, we had community night with a little Chilean wine and we met Isabel, the co-facilitator/director for the Santigago house.

On Thursday, Natalie and I went with Roy again, this time to St. Geroge's school. Again, I already referenced this in my last post, but it was another learning experience as these kids were more wealthy than the others and thus, more educated. In fact, they were correcting my spanish more often than I would have liked and I had to patiently teach them how to correct someone's english politely...this was a challenge. Later that night, after we returned home exhausted and ate some food, I taught Natalie how to knit. The event turned the night into knitting night with wine, as all the other girls in the house wanted to learn how to knit or help them with their kitting projects. I had no idea that Chileans love to knit, but apparently it is a HUGE hobby for the Chilean women...looks like I will fit in just fine! At the moment, I am working on black scarf...I don't need a scarf, but it is something different just to pass the time (when I have any, haha).

On Friday, Natalie and I once again hung out with Roy (good thing for us he worked at all the places we wanted to visit!). Around lunch time, we went to the comedor, or soup kitchen. After serving food to about 15 or so Chileans who ate at the soup kitchen that day, we ate lunch with a few priests who belong to the congregation in Chile. The comedor is located at the seminary, where the priests live. After good conversation and a little rest, the three of us went to a hogar, or orphanage. It was so much fun - sure, I did not know as much spanish as I needed, but the girls that lived there were amazing and hung out with me instantly. As soon as I walked in the door, they grabbed my hand and were shouting ¨tia, tia!¨, which is the name that they give to the volunters (just an informal name for teacher or older adult...although it translates into aunt). The girls that were in the hogar were ages 8, 10, 12, and 16. Many other girls live at the hogar but were not there for various reasons. Anyway, we talked about anything and everything, hanging out and playing a little bit of soccer. One of the girls even taught me a new game that she and her amigas like to play...I plan on using this later when I visit other hogars to become instant friends with the girls, hehe.

On Saturday morning, the Santiago house was again joined by Isabel as well as Pedro, the director of the progrm here in Chile, and the kids from Pocuro. After a great brunch, my four housemates and I packed up a few things and came here to Pocuro, the other HCA house. The house is in a very rual area, surrouded by a large agricultural community and MUCH different than the Santiago house that is in the middle of a city with 4 million people. Last night we walked around the nearby city, Los Andes (where I am writing from now), and stopped at a bar for a drink or two. While at the bar, we played Cacho, a Chilean dice game that is apparently very popular and a somewhat different version of Yatzee in the United States.

Yesterday, Sunday, was a very chill day as we attended mass in Pocuro (my first in spanish, quite different). We spent our entire day at a birthday party for a girl in the town named Antenella. She turned two years old and the party was quite extravagant, complete with pink decorations, a princess cake, a barbie piñata, and lots and lots and lots of candy. It seemed if everyone in the small town of Pocuro was at this party - it was a lot of fun to speak completely in spanish and hang out with kids who were hyped up on sugar. We ended the night by building a bon fire and relaxing under the stars, drinking pisco sour, the national drink of Chile which Ryan makes so well. It pretty much tastes like a margarita with a little more sugar and you can taste the alcohol a bit more.

Anyway, I gotta jet - my time at the internet cafe is almost up. I have had a great day as I was able to tour the surrounding village, help teach an english class at a nearby agricultural school (the kids this time were by far my favorite), and work at two more hogars (this time with more kids and a lot more attention and spanish being used!). I am quite exhausted but cannot wait to see what tomorrow has in store.

I am sorry that I have not been able to call you or write more on the blog, but please know that everyone is in my thoughts and prayers. Ciao for now - M

PS - My sister found out that she is having a girl! We are going to have another girl in the family, I am going to have a niece!! :-)

Thursday, August 24, 2006

We have arrived!!

Hola from Sur de America!! After a 22 hour trip, we arrived at 4:15pm yesterday morning and were greeted by all the current associates - it was sooooo great to see them after hearing about them and reading about their adventures on their blogs. I slept on the plane for about 4 hours and did not go to bed until 10:30pm last night, so this, combined with jet lag and moving back and forth from speaking english to spanish, and back again, has my speaking and writing skills all out of wack...beware as this post is going to be completely random and probably grammatically incorrect. :-)

I am experiencing more things than I can write at this point, but let me just say that being in a foreign country is amazing and I don´t think I have realized I am actually here.

I am using spanish a lot but I have a lot to learn...cannot wait for language training in Bolivia. We are staying in the house in Santiago until Saturday then we are going to the other house in Pocurro until we leave for Bolivia on Tuesday. Right now I am at St. George´s, the elite private school for Chile, where Roy, one of the associates, teaches english to a 5th grade class. Yesterday I attended two other schools, both of which are completely different than St. George´s because they are public and have students of lower economic status. Roy also teaches English at one of these schools, but this time he has 8 or 9 16/17 year olds. They are typical teenagers and after claass it was great to talk to the students. Pretty much, the students helped me and I helped them, as I spoke spanish and they responded in English. It is amazing the things they said about America, haha. Will definitely write more about that later.

I hope all is well and I am thinking of everyone often. While we do not have a phone that I can use right now, we will have one soon - if you want me to call you, you must have an international phone card; I will call and you have to call me back. Calling long distance on a cell phone does not work, sorry.

Hopefully after I have caught up on my sleep I will be able to process and think about everything more clearly...after, I will be sure to let you know all about it in a new post.

Love to all, hope all is well - M

Monday, August 21, 2006

Tomorrow is the day!!

Hey all - this is my last posting before I leave for South America! We leave at 6:30am tomorrow for our 8:00am flight out of South Bend, flying from South Bend to Cincinnati, Cincinnati to Miami, Miami to Bogota, Columbia, then Bogota to Santiago, Chile.

Before I get on with the rest of this post, I first want to say best of luck to all SMC and ND students as they start the new academic year. Today was the first day of classes for SMC Chicks and tomorrow is the first day for Domers. Especially my SMC Chicks, I will think of you often and I wish you nothing but the best for a successful and memorable year - party and live it up! GO BELLES!

Yesterday was an absolutely beautiful day here. After visiting Sr. Mary Elizabeth, I spent the rest of the afternoon at St. Pat's Park here in South Bend. I couldn't resist taking a few photos as I laid in the grass, reading, journaling, and soaking up the sun.

My view as I laid in the grass...beautiful blue sky, warm sun, and a good book - what can be better!













I couldn't help but take a picture of this AWESOME jungle gym that I drove past while at St. Pat's Park...it is so huge and looks like a barn!













Funny story about my afternoon at St. Pat's: After reading for about 30 min. or so, I fell asleep...and woke up 2 1/2 hours later, just as the sun was starting to go down! The reason for me waking up: ants! I felt something on my foot, so I looked down and realized that my foot was off of the blanket and next to an ant hill - and they started crawling all over me! AH! It was kinda creepy...and I know the people around me were wondering what the hell I was doing when I suddenly woke up from my nap and started shaking my foot around. Haha, good times!

Natalie got back from Chicago later that evening and we bummed around for the rest of the night, eating popcorn and watching trashy American tv...i.e. The Teen Choice Awards. :-) Hey, it is something that we will not be able to experience for the next 2 1/2 years, so why not?? Haha, good times as well!

Today I got my Yellow Fever, Typhoid, and Tetanus travel vaccinations...and boy does my arm hurt! The tetanus is really killing me right now. I also drove to O'Hare Airport and dropped off Matt and Clay, who are going to Uganda, Africa for the next year and a half. For those who read my blog often, you know that they are recent ND graduates who participated in "cultural immersion training" with me and the other Chile associates for the last 2 weeks. It was great getting to know them and was sad to see them go - I wish you both the best of luck guys, please keep in touch!

After returning from my four hour drive to and from Chicago, Natalie, Steve, Mark, and I went to the famous CJ's Burgers for dinner....good ol' American food one last time!! The burgers were great and I can definitely see why everyone says that you have to eat there at least once in your four years in the Bend (well, I am a little late...but whatev.) Again, I couldn't resist taking a picture of us at the restaurant:

Me, Steve, Natalie, and Mark













Natalie and I topped off our last night in America just right: a trip to Wal-Mart complete with one last trip to Ritter's Custard. Again, for those who read my blog often, you will know that this is the second time in a week and a half that we have made a visit to Ritter's...but we are living it up as Americans do! The custard was good as always...here are a few pics that I took - notice the cherries on top of my Grizzly Cub Sundae!

Natalie and me













Natalie and her dessert - look, it doesn't fall out when you tip it over! It must be custard!!



















Look at all those cherries!!! Mmm...mmm! (I think I am a little too proud of this, what do you think??)



















Alright, that is about it! I am off to finish packing and get ready for my "new life." I appreciate everyone's support, enthusiasm, and love as I partake on this new adventure. As corny as it sounds, I do not believe that I would have ever felt so comfortable and ready to take this journey if I did not have the love and support of my family and friends. Thank you - I will love and miss you all.

The best way to conclude this posting is to look to the future, examining my expectations in anticipation for what is ahead. Lucky for us, we can do this via a worksheet I filled out last week during training! (In no particular order):

a. What are the five things that you are most looking forward to about going abroad?
1. language training/language fluency
2. experiencing a new culture
3. meeting new people
4. changing my world perspective
5. doing/experiencing things that only this opportunity in South America can provide me

b. What are the five things that currently worry you most about going overseas?
1. saftey
2. homesickness/health of family
3. Loneliness
4. Frustrations in communication with others through a foreign language
5. not getting back into the country (for whatever reason - who knows!!)

c. What are five things you believe you will miss most from home when you are abroad?
1. mama's cookin' :-)
2. friends and family
3. life moments/milestones for family and friends
4. deep conversations with people in a language I understand
5. being involved/being a leader in my community

d. What are three things (people, places, activities, etc.) you believe you will miss least from home when you are abroad?
1. gluttony of America/processed foods
2. materialism and consumerism
3. America's obsession with celebrities

Hope this gave you a little insight into what I am thinking/feeling at the moment as I partake on this new journey. Thank you again everyone for your support and I hope to be able to write/talk to you soon. Love ~ M

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Sr. Mary Elizabeth

I know that I just posted something earlier today, but I couldn't resist placing this picture up of Sr. Mary Elizabeth and me. She is so wonderful and our talk today was the best we have ever had. Her health is failing and she is not doing too well at the moment, please keep her in your prayers.

Alone time is only lonely if you do not make it fun :-)

Hey everyone - hope you had a great weekend! As it is my last one here in the States, I did everything I could to make it the best...but, that proved kinda difficult when all day Saturday and Sunday (today) I spent with myself. Natalie went to Chicago for the weekend with her friend Steve from Detroit, and Katie and Patrick are visiting home.

Friday night was great - Natalie, Mark, Steve, and I all went to the Friday night soccer game. I did not play but did decide to go for a run around the neighborhood. About 15 minutes into my run, it started to rain! It felt so good, so I continued to run right through it...45 minutes later, soaking wet and sweaty, I ended back at the place I started, just as the soccer game ended. Definitely one of the best runs I have had in a while.

After shower and a little relaxation, Natalie and I went to The Backer, the place to be on Friday nights here in the Bend, particularly on football weekends. Although it was not as crowded as usual (students do not move in to the dorms until today), we had a great time. I saw a few guy friends that I have not seen in a while and also saw a group of SMC Chicks that live off-campus and were starting off their first weekend of senior year...fun times for everyone. Here in this posting I want to give a "shout out" to one of my girls Sarah Vabulas - Vab is usually at the Backer whenever I go and we always have a great time. Hey Vab - it was simply not the same without you, miss ya bunches! Here are a few pics I took from the night:

Natalie and Me, before we left for Backer













Awkward picture, hard to see, but this is a small SMC Chick reunion! Me with Sarah Wieber (we hung out a bunch this past year) and Catherine Wagner. Don't remember who the fourth person is who is half way in the picture - sorry!













Hahaha, this is me giving a "thumbs down" to a signed Silver Hawks jersey that hung on a wall at the Backer. We went to a Silver Hawks game (AAA team of South Bend) a few weeks ago and they were horrible! Now that I look at it, this is kinda mean...but whatev. :-)



















On Saturday, I was officially by myself as Natalie left earlier that morning. I bummed around all day, watching The Incredibles movie and reading outside. Around 10:00pm, I went to Nicole Boyd's going away party - she is leaving the Bend and moving to Phoenix, AZ to start a teaching position. Nicole's family has been so gracious to me over the four years at SMC and I even spent Thanksgiving dinner at their house freshman year. Nicole's party was fun, here are a few pics I took:

Nicole and Me, saying goodbye one last time













This is me with Heather Eich. As I leaving Nicole's party, Heather was driving in - I stopped in the middle of the street to say hi. It was soooo great to see her! Heather and I go back to Heather's freshman year and my sophomore year when hung out a bunch because we lived on the same floor of Regina Hall. Now Heather is a big SENIOR at SMC...my how time flies! Great to see you again Heather!













Thanks for the invite Nicole - best of luck and please keep in touch! After getting back to Moreau, I bumped into Nick and Kyle, two 24 year old seminarians that are way cool guys. They were watching Dodgeball and asked me to join - I had never seen the movie before, so I said "why not??" The movie was absolutely stupid and ridiculous...but was a lot of fun to watch because of the company I was with. Thanks guys for the invite :-)

And that's it for this weekend! Went to mass today at the Basilica and I am on my way to a picnic here at Moreau, complete with volleyball and a Hawaiian Ice stand, haha. Around 2:30ish, I am on my way to SMC again to visit Sr. Mary Elizabeth at the SMC Convent. My freshman year, I was assigned to visit Sr. Mary Elizabeth through the Friends to Sisters program, but continued my visits with her over my four years at SMC. I know it will be sad for both of us to say goodbye.

Have a great Sunday all - tomorrow will be my last post before I leave for South America on Tuesday morning!!

Friday, August 18, 2006

#2: Training is over! Time to celebrate and relax!

(continued from the post below...read that first! :-) )

Alright, so I just got back from my appointment at the Health Department...due to a little miscommunication between me and the receptionist about my appointment, I had to reschedule my appointment for Monday at 11:00am. So, no shots today and I can continue to let you know about the fabulous week I have had.

So Wednesday night was great at rumrunners and Thursday we got to examine whether or not we were "missionaries" with Fr. Paul Kollman of Notre Dame. After our talk with Fr. Kollman, Natalie and I took Katie to the train station - she, too, is flying home to stay with her family for our last weekend here in the States. After some lunch at my favorite eatery, Jimmy Johns (yeah!), Natalie and I hung out and watched a movie...pretty much bummed around like that for the rest of the day. At 4:15pm we had a farewell mass - the first for me outside of a church, located in a small room here in Moreau. No big deal, just a little different. :-)

Again, Natalie and I just bummed around, I wrote letters and thank you cards and such...nothing exciting happened until around 11:30pm when Natalie and I decided we were bored and that we wanted to go to Wal-Mart to print off a few pictures from the week. We had a great time jammin' out in the isle, listening to samples of cds like "Hits of the 80s," "Rock Favorites," and so on. The Wal-Mart night crew gave us looks like "oh, those crazy kids" but we did not care - we were bored and tired of hanging out in the Seminary, so we just had ourselves a great time.

Today I had lunch at the University Club on Notre Dame's Campus with Professor Joe Incandela. Joe is a professor in the Religious Studies Department at Saint Mary's College and now an Associate Dean. Joe taught one of my favorite classes in college and it was great to eat a meal with him, catch up, share my thoughts about my upcoming adventures, and laugh about the craziness that is now SMC. Too bad that Joe had a 1:30pm meeting, I probably could have visited with him all day.

That's about it - I am going to hang around here until dinner at 6pm and then Natalie and I are going to join Mark and Steve for the weekly soccer game with their friends (look at last Friday's post to see what I am talking about). I do not think I will play again, but I will probably go for a run around the neighborhood. After soccer, Natalie and I plan to go to The 'Backer and dance our little hearts out...I am sure I will have good stories and pictures to share on my next post.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! ~ M

PS - Pray for my Grandpa as he gets the results back from his E.E.G. and starts new medications.

Training is over! Time to celebrate and relax!

That's right folks, my three weeks of cultural immersion training here at Moreau Seminary is over! Now it's time to just hang out here in the Bend, waiting for Tuesday to come when we start our 22 hour journey to Santiago at 6:30am.

This week ended on a great note. On Wednesday, I had a great lunch with one of my best friends Amy Kelley (who is starting Indiana University School of Law on Tuesday - good luck Aims!) and one of my all time favorite professors Patrick Pierce of the Saint Mary's College Political Science Department. Conversation was great as we got a chance to catch up on life and new and exciting things for all of us (earlier that morning, Pat sent his youngest child off to attend graduate school at Columbia University). I completely forgot to take a picture of all of us while at lunch, but Amy and I made sure to take one when she dropped me off at Moreau after lunch:















Later that night, Director Steve made good on his promise and spent a night out with us. Too bad Patrick could not have been there - he flew back to Los Angeles to spend his last weekend here in the States with his family and friends. Anyway, Mark (Assistant Director), Steve, Natalie, Katie, and me went to Mazatalan, an awesome Mexican restaurant. After some great enchiladas and a few Maragritas, Steve, Natalie, Katie, and me went to RumRunners, a dueling piano bar here in town. Lucky for us, RumRunners Wednesday is the place to be in town AND they have .75 cent well drink specials. Now now Grandma, I can hear you know - I am not always drinking nor do I always have to drink to have fun...but at a place like RumRunners, you simply cannot resist. My choice of drink for the night: MONAS. That's right, my specialty drink that I created and the American Legion Post 318 has officially named after me :-P It's pretty much a shirley temple with vodka, or a sprite, vodka, and grennadine combination. Anyway, it was a fun time and I have posted a few pictures of us below:

Me, Katie, and Natalie
















Katie and Natalie
















Natalie and Steve
















Thursday morning, after waking up with a bit of a headache (hehe), we listened to Fr. Paul Kollman, Professor of Theology, talk about the ultimate question: ARE WE MISSIONARIES??? A lot of people have asked us this, but it makes sense why they would ask: we are going to another country to do service via a Catholic organization and sponsored by the Catholic Church, we are all Catholic, a major pillar of this program is spirituality, we spend three weeks of our training in Moreau Seminary living with Priests, Seminarians, and candidates for the priesthood, AND when we get there, the Chilean community's label for us is "missionary." So are we missionaries?? This is a very hot topic and something that all four of the Chilean Associates deal with both in our own identity and as we describe our experience to our family and friends. Patrick has a great portion of his blog dedicated to this issue, check it out and see what he has to say (it is his August 2nd blog entry). Fr. Paul Kollman told us that the answer to this question is both yes and no - which is what I expected. We are missionaries because Christ calls all Christians to serve others in any way we can, thus serving in any capacity is a mission from God. Additionally, Christ's work calls us to support justice, health, education, etc. for all - which is the type of work we will be doing while we are in Chile for two years. BUT, we do not, however, fit into the missionary category that comes to mind when we think of a Mormon or Evangelical Missionary - we are not in any way attempting to convert others to Christianity while we are down there. BOTTOM LINE: We are overseas volunteers who are giving up a portion of our lives to serve others because we feel that is what we are called to do, both morally and spiritually. If that is what you call a missionary, well fine by me and I accept that title proudly.

OH MY GOSH - I am writing way too much and I have got to leave now - I have an appointment in 10 minutes to get my Yellow Fever, Malaria, and Typhoid Vaccinations, haha. When I get back, I will use my sore arm to add another blog and tell you about the rest of my weekend.

Much more to come, hope everyone is having a great day ~ M

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

More training and my first visit back to SMC

~ This post is dedicated to my housemate Natalie...I accidentally deleted her blog today when trying to help her edit her first posting! I feel so bad - sorry Nats, I can't say that enough! ~

Today we were introduced to Fred Goddard who is here to facilitate "cross cultural training" today and tomorrow. Fred introduced us to the stages of culture shock, how we move from cultural sensitivity (learned last week from Maureen) to cross cultural adaptation, how we exactly define "culture," and how we can recognize what biases, perceptions, traditions, beliefs, and communication styles we have that may influence how we view our "new culture."

Fun "lightbulb" moment for me today: I realized today that although I will know how to communicate in Spanish, I still may not be able to understand others due to the fact that they may not use proper grammar when speaking...afterall, even in our native language of English, it is rare to find everyone using correct grammar all the time. When I talk or when you talk, do we sound like a grammar text book? The answer should be no. :-) So, since we do not always use correct grammar, why should I expect Bolivians or Chileans to be any different?? Hm...

Today I visited my alma mater for the first time since graduation. Shocking, I know! It was sooo different to be on campus as a graduate, but Saint Mary's has never looked more